i think i may have made a horrible mistake..actually i'm pretty sure i did...i can't believe i gave up the only thing that was important to me...but i just couldn't feel as close when my mind kept wanting to know everything else...i hope it will be ok..it has to be, because i'm not sure how i will survive if he decides he wants nothing to do with me..

i think someone may be happy tho, and it almost makes me mad..everything is given when not wanted anymore...
and now i've decided i will not give up and it will make it in all 3 ways...one just is so much more important