                                 Separation
                              January 20, 1964
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[ Madame Hardevi (Taiji) sings with much poignancy a poem written by Master
Kirpal Singh Ji to his Master Sawan Singh Ji. The poem tells of the anguish
he feels in his heart on being separated from him.]

The hymn just now read out is a prayer from the disciple to his Master. He
says: "It is you who have lacerated my mind, my heart. There is no remedy
other than your own self. The remedy for the wound in this heart lies only
in your hands. No other doctor can heal it. You are going away, but don't
forget us."

That is a prayer. Well, Master does not forgetthat's right. But still, out
of the anguished heart comes the words of the disciple: "For God's sake,
don't forget us! We cannot forget you; but you also must not forget us. We
are, after all, your own. If you forget us, who will heal the pain in our
hearts? What will be our own remedy?"

What remedy can there be for the heart which is aching to have a glimpse of
the Master? Nothing elseno words, no consolation, will help. In the time
of Lord Krishna, there were many gopis who were very much in love with him.
Once, it happened that he remained away from them for some timesay, about
six or eight months and they could not reach him. They were crying
disconsolately. (Separation is a very bad thing. Two times are very
difficult for a man who has developed love in his heart for someone. One,
the time which has just passed in awaiting him; and the other, when he
leaves him. Both are hard times.) So Lord Krishna sent Uddho as a messenger
to go and console them: "Console them, 'Look here, God is everywhere;
Master is everywhere; He is in your heart of hearts; He is the very
controlling power of your own self in the body. Why are you worrying? He is
the soul of your soul' . . ." Uddho went to them and spoke to them the best
he could. With all that, they listened to it very calmly and finally told
him, "O Uddho, what you say is all right. But tell us, what remedy do you
have with you for the eyes that are yearning to see the form of the
Master?"

This is a prayer from the disciple to the Master: "Don't forget us!" And
usually you'll find, as a matter of fact, that the Master himself never
forgets. But the disciple cries, "I have only one heart and that you have
now taken possession of; what am I to do? I can think of no one other than
you yourself."

There cannot be ten or twenty hearts. You cannot devote one heart here,
another there, and then another there. It is only one heart. Well, it is
the throne of God; don't let anybody sit on it except God. What do we do?
We let every wordly thing sit there, and we dethronc God.

Guru Arjan said, "The Master loves and remembers his disciples with every
breath." Can a mother forget her small children? She might be working here,
there, or anywhere; she might be in the kitchen, and the child might be
lying in his room, but there's a connection. If the child moves, then her
milk begins to come from her breast. If the little child cries, she at once
runs to him and leaves everything behind, even the most valuable thing.

Similarly, we are all children of God of the God-in-man. He does not
forget us. But because of the yearning of the heart, his disciple does pray
like that: "Don't forget us. Even if you go away, we are still yours, after
all."

But I tell you, it is the mother who first loves usthe child. The child's
love is only reciprocal. The love that a Master has, for his children  for
his disciples  comes from the level of the God in him.. He loves his
disciples as hundreds of mothers won't love their children. But he loves
the soul, the development of the soul, with no consideration, no
recompense; nothing of the sort. A mother may love her children with the
hope that when they grow up they will help her and care for her in her old
days. But the Master does not do that. He simply sees that they are all
souls. The God in him thinks, He is my child.

The more we have yearning like that, the more our mind is cleansed of all
the dross of the world; it is washed away with the tears that roll down
from the eyesthat's the water. With that water alone can the dross of the
filth of many past births be washed away.

There are two ways to go to Mecca from India: one is on the sea, the other
over land. But the way on the land is very sandy; there is a dearth of
water; there are no communications through the deserts of Arabia. so it is
very hard to reach the place of pilgrimage if you go on footor even on
horses; and no car can cross the sands. But there is a way, across the sea,
that takes you there in three days. So, somewhere Maulana Rumi said, "If
you want to make a pilgrimage to God, go through the waters of tears.
You'll go quicker than you can on the land or through the sands."

What is meant by that? Any prayers that are said, any rites or rituals that
are performed or any scriptures that are read mechanically, with dry
hearts, like a gymnastic, won't help you to reach God. Your heart should be
full, and that heart should overflow through the eyes.

Once there was a pandit who was relating the story of Rama, reading it out
of the scriptures in Sanskrit. An illiterate man was sitting, listening to
him and shedding tears like anything. The pandit thought, perhaps he has
followed me very well. When the talk was over, the pandit called him and
said, "You understood my sermon very well."

The man said, "I did not follow a word of what you were saying."

"Then why were you crying and weeping?"

"I had the scene of Lord Rama before me; my heart was full and I was
shedding tears, all the time watching that scene. I never heard a word of
what you said."

So this sort of love is the foreshadow of coming things. When rain is
coming, there are first clouds. When there are blossoms in the
fruit-growing trees, there is hope for fruit. Similarly, the heart which is
full of anguish, which is yearning, which is overflowing with tears from
the eyes, can reach God the quickest. And sometimes we never remember God.
Days and days pass by, and we never think of Him.

Perhaps we have not seen all the aspects of keeping the spiritual diary.
There is one very important thing about it; that during the day you are
remembering the God-in-man; otherwise you won't remember him. At least at
night you will think back, what have I been doing? I have to send in the
diary. Is it not a great blessing? We never realize the truth of the things
that are given us. All the time you say to yourself, O my Lord, I have not
to do this, not to do that. So you are always thinking of the Master or the
God in him. Such a heart becomes the fittest to receive Him a quicker way.

So that was a prayer, so very full of pathos, of yearning: 'O Master, you
are going away, but don't forget us; we cannot remember you unless you
remember us." Our love is reciprocal, as I told you.

So when two mentwo disciples of the Mastersit together, naturally the
remembrance of the Master comes, is it not so? This is the first reason why
you are asked not to miss attending the group meeting. When you sit
together, you think of the Master. And someone might say, of his own
accord, "This is like this; the other is like that"; and that way, the
remembrance is revived. Another thing is what Christ said: "When more than
one man sits in my name, I am there." And moreover, you will develop
receptivity.

When Master initiates anybody, he resides with him from that very time. And
he never leaves him, unless he takes him to the lap of the Father. That is
what is called God Power or Guru Power or Christ Power. So, such an
attitude, such time spent, makes us fit; and when it comes, just sit in
sweet remembrance. You will have response when you are there.

This is one of the poems I wrote when I was away from my Master. This state
of mind cannot be expressed in words. It has not been given to words to
express the feelings of the heart, the yearning of the heart. So, such an
attitude radiates in the atmosphere. It goes to cleanse away all foreign,
external thoughts for the time 1976 being. Just as when an eagle comes, all
the sparrows fly away, so when the eagle of love comes anywhere, no
thoughts arise there. So all Masters say, "The heart has been given to you
as a sacred trust. Don't misappropriate it. It is meant for God; let only
God, and no other thing, sit on that throne."

Suchlike prayers help you. These things gush out afresh from the heart;
only suchlike prayers help. Sometimes we have models, specimens of prayers
given by past Masters. But those are only the words they gave out. The
words should come outshould gush out from our very hearts. Only a
mechanical repetition of something cannot have an effect.

If you love Him, you abide in His heart: "Let my words abide in you, and
you abide in me." How can you abide in Him? When you remember Him. The more
you remember Him the more He reactsdo you see? And what does it cost?
Anything? And time flies away, like anything.

At the time of separation from my Masterone time it was for eight
monthsthese things came out of my heart. The heart is only one, not two or
three. How many have you got? One? Well? He wants your heart. When you give
your heart, what remains? Where the heart goes, everything goes -- both the
body and the soul.

This is what is meant by surrender and devotion. Simply following in an
intellectual way or by philosophical ways of thinking won't help you. Hafiz
said, "If the learned men come to know just an iota of the madness we have
got yearning for the Lord, they will forget everything, and they will dance
like anything." Do you see? Such a heart is the abode of the Lord. Even
when we say prayers, we are thinking of the worldly children and this and
that thing. Tulsidas said, "Just clean your mind, so that God, your
Beloved, may manifest Himself there." Then he defines what is the cleansing
of the heart. He says, "The heart in which no other thought other than that
of God comes up is the pure heart." A heart in which there is love for God,
yearning for God, is a fitting thing in which God manifests. That is why it
is said: "Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God." Purity
means that.

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