velour100 - "songs from the rainwater" e.p. (TND1074)
1. [tenth month]
i'll stare at the ground
at places you've been
i'll stab with my thoughts
your mouth in my mind
numb you've made me
cold from the flame
numb from the fire that burns my hand still
a tear tends to form
in corners of mind
i know in small parts
your view of me now
wrung from my grip
the things that i have
wrung from my sight
so closely i held
what i cannot see
tears me inside
this silence i've found
my head in my hands
2. [ritual day]
i want not to wish
i pushed out the rain
memory bends to hear
longing for the truth
i pushed out the pain
with my eyes
i am only me
you made me half
i'm packing up boxes
memories that you left behind
your voice becomes my breath
gazing at the sky
waiting for the rain
i'm falling down
with the snow wrapped up in it's blanket
your voice becomes my breath
3. [deep water]
morning colors wither in light
in through the window of my room
the day comes in waves
washing away
lines are so frail
fade round the edges
fade into light
light of the day
waking memories are fading in light
dreams fall in water of blindness
deep water hiding
try to remember
4.[entropy]
from the warmth to the ground
how can it be
living and growing and dying
symmetry
madness now
life in entropy
the ending today
is growing inside of me
pulling away
birth to my holiday
i watch the wave and i see it grow
with a crash upon the shore
the swell moves forth to grow and die
and i wonder why
5. [light in august]
instrumental
6. [ambivalence]
my thoughts how they wander
the loves i ponder
my thoughts are getting jumbled
my heart it mumbles
why why do i
words cut in to me
how they move me
words i get flustered
anger ushered
why why do i
i don't understand
i don't know about it
and is it even right for me to wonder?