*ramblings........



go home!

2/9/2000

i've been contemplating the impending doom that is valentine's day. it seems to be so commercial and trite and really, who needs to have a valentine, after all shouldn't love flow daily? well, all this thinking has me convinced...i could use a valentine.

all this time alone can be so miserable, but then again, it really needs to be the right person. at this point i wonder if that person even exists. it's a pitiful time in life when you reach a point where atrraction for others begins to decline. i just don't find many people attractive. of course, i don't get out and "shop" much either. perhaps that needs to be my new goal...make myself more accessible.

i've been making new friends which is absolutely the coolest. i think i have a camping/hiking/dancing partner in jeff. funny how he seems about as goofy as me. that's always a plus. i think goofiness is underrated. everybody needs to laugh and if i can play a hand in that, then i'm all for it, so yuck it up!
2/1/2000

i think tomorrow i will take a walk around the city. the weather here in minnesota has been unseasonably beautiful...sunshine all day. i feel like i've been in a hole for the last month. i still have alot of exploring to do around here. eventually i want to take in a few of the state parks. it's funny how winter can deplete a person of all physical energy. sitting inside all day every day can break me if i don't watch out. i can't wait to get a little sunshine on my face. winter isn't over yet. don't know if i can wait until spring to get a little outside time. maybe a bike ride.......
1/31/2000

another day at the computer........i bet i've been sitting here for about 12 hours. i guess that's the story when you do most of your work on-line. no big deal i suppose

i'm finishing up some huge tape trades tonight and found myself completely enthralled with a 10/18/78 terrapin. what a treat. i can honestly say it has probably been about a year since i've listened to that show. part of the beauty of trading is to see what others choose. it can help open your eyes to the treasures in your collection.

i made some important connections with friends in indy today and found myself growing a bit sentimental. quentin sent me a poem that sort of summed up the transition i'm going through right now and the way i feel about some of my relationships. sometimes there isn't enough time to tie up loose ends. i've been doing my part to let others know what they mean to me. according to the book i've been reading you should write a heartfelt letter once a week. today i completed the task. what an accomplishment. it was a letter nearly 3 years in the making.
1/29/2000

i'm finishing up my 24th day in minnesota today. not a bad time i suppose, just a little lonely. i'm certain that will pass.

kyra (my dog) has picked up a new trick in the last few days. now when she wants petted she nudges her head under my hand. i know it's nothing major, but it reaffirms our relationship in my opinion. we seem to have reached a level of understanding...if you want something, you have to let the other know.

i spent the day cleaning and playing on the net. did a little cooking, which was nice, and finally figured out how to clean the oven...it's an automatic job, and i've never had one of those before. i still think it needs scrubbed out. what a pity.

i got a few shows in the mail today and worked out a few new trades. i'm pretty excited about it all really.