Left To Wonder
by Barbara Philbrook

Abandoned as an infant never again parents I'd see,
wondering from then on was it because of me.

Molested and violated while just a child,
wondering then was I permanently defiled.

Married to a man incapable of loving me back,
wondering for years is there something I lack.

Raising my four children whom I loved and adored,
thinking never again will I feel unloved anymore.

Wondering then what more could I have done,
to have felt loved by even just one.

Yes I was left to wonder for years and years,
shedding many heart rending tears.

Till my eyes were opened and I could see,
Jesus died because of His love for me.

Oh the joy that fills my soul,
now that I know I am loved I am whole.

Loved by Jesus Son of the great I Am,
being shaped and formed in His own hand.

I am where and what I am supposed to be,
because my Heavenly Father is in charge you see.

No longer wondering I now know in my heart,
God loved me from the very start!!!!

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