My Love Story

One day, I woke up early in the morning to watch the sunrise.
Ah, the beauty of God's creation is beyond description.
As I watched, I praised God for the beautiful work.
As I sat there, I felt the Lord's presence with me.

He asked me, "Do you love me ?"
I answered, "Of course God! You are my Lord!"
Then He asked, "If you were physically handicapped, would you still Love me ?"
I was perplexed looked down upon my arms, legs and the rest of
my body and wondered how many things I wouldn't be able to do, the things
I took for granted. And I answered, "It would be tough Lord, but I would still
love you."

Then the Lord said, "If you were blind, would you still love my
Creation ?"
How could I love something without being able to see it ?
Then I thought of all the blind people in the world and how many
of them still loved God and his creation.
So I answered, "Its hard to think of it, but I would still love you."

The Lord then asked me, "If you were deaf, would you still listen
to my word ?"
How could I listen to anything, being deaf ?
Then I understand. Listening to God's word is not merely using our
ears but our hearts.
I answered, "It would be tough but I would still listen to your words,"

The Lord then asked, "If you were mute, would you still praise my
Name ? How could I praise without a voice ?
Then it occurred to me: God wants us to sing from our very heart and soul.
It never matters what we sound like.  
So I answered, "Though I could not physically sing, I would still praise
your Name."

And the Lord asked, "Do you really love me ?"
With courage and a strong conviction, I answered boldly, "Yes Lord!
I love you because you are the one and true God!"
I thought that I had answered well, but God asked, "Then why do you sin?"
I answered, "Because I am only human, I am not perfect."

"Then why do in times of peace you stray the furthest ?
And why only in times of trouble do you pray the earnest ?"

No answer. Only tears.

The Lord continued: Why only pray at fellowships and retreats ?
Why seek me only in times of worship ?
Why ask things so selfishly?
Why ask things so unfaithfully ?

The tears continued to roll down my cheeks.

Why are you ashamed of Me ?
Why are you not spreading the good news ?
Why in times of persecution, you cry to others when I offer My
shoulders to cry on ?
Why make excuses when I give you opportunities to serve in My Name?
I tried to answer but there was no answer to give.

You are blessed with life.
I made you not throw this gift away.
I have blessed you with talents to serve me, but you continue to
turn away.
I have revealed My word to you, but you do not gain in knowledge.
I have spoken to you, but your ears were closed.
I have shown my blessings to you, but your eyes were turned away.
I have sent you servants, but you sat idly as they were pushed away 
I have heard your prayers and I have answered them all.
Do you truly love Me ?

I could not answer.
How could I ?
I was embarrassed beyond belief.
I had no excuse.
What could I say to this ?

When my heart had cried out, and the tears had flowed,
I said, "Please forgive me Lord. I am unworthy to be your
servant."
The Lord answered, "That is my grace, my servant."
I asked, "Then why do you continue to forgive me ?
Why do you love me so ?

The Lord answered, "Because you are my creation.
I will never abandon you.
When you cry, I will have compassion and cry with you.
When you shout with joy, I will laugh with you.
When you are down, I will encourage you.
When you fall, I will raise you up.
When you are tired, I will carry you.
I will be with you till the end of the days and I will love you
forever."

Never had I cried so hard before.
How could I have been so cold.
And for the first time, I truly prayed.