 | August 21, 1998
Hello Vada
This is my first note to you. I worked on your pages for so long. It helped me cope with my Mom's illness. And now, she is up there with you. Hope you guys are together.....helping us along. We miss you so much Vada. You were gone so fast. No one was prepared. There is such a empty place in our lives. Bob is hanging in there. We are thankful Dana is there to help him. Bob has had bypass surgery, last July. He is doing very well. Dana is supposed to settle the legal battle with BlackGold in September. He is looking forward to getting back to work. Dennis is hangin' in there too. He misses you alot. Although I wish he would talk to me more about it. I don't know, maybe because I am going through the same loss, he doesn't want to burden me.... I don't know. Sometimes I feel like he is slipping away from me. Hopefully I am wrong.... and it's just part of everthing happening in the past 8 months. I must go now. I miss you Vada. I love you and will take care of Dennis for you. You are a special lady, there's no one like you!!
Love always,
Dani
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September 26, 1998
Hello again Vada. How right I was in my last note to you. Dennis has slipped away from me. I don't know what to do for him. Let him do what he needs to do I suppose. I hope he "slips" back, but it doesn't look real promising. I am sorry to say that I am the cause of this in the long run. I cannot change the past, ... and sadly, I cannot make Dennis forget. I love him more than I ever knew I could love someone. As these past few years have gone by... I started looking to our future, our time together would increase as our kids developed their own lives. L'il Dennis has graduated, Derik is a junior in HS, and driving. They are out a lot, and I think we had gotten a taste of that dreaded "empty nest syndrome". Apparently Dennis didn't like the flavor. Something.... I know how much he misses you Vada. In our many talks over the past week and a 1/2 since we split, he has said how the only person he really wants to talk to is gone..... It's hurting him so much inside. He just won't talk about your death. I truly don't believe he has come to terms with it. I don't think he has grieved... unless he does it when I am not around. I feel like maybe as my Mom was batteling for her life, he was worried about me and didn't want to show his sadness, that it would force me to think about the possiblity that I may loose my mom too. Like maybe that would cause me to loose hope. (Just a theory) And after she finally passed, you had already been gone for 4 months Maybe he felt like he had to be done by that time.... ?? Anyway, I love your boy Vada... I will do anything to make him happy. If that means giving him a life without me... so be it. I do hope we can work it out though. I miss him so much now. And Vada, I miss you too...... You are the kind of Mother-in-Law that when people make bad jokes about their Mother-in-law... I would just stare at them... I didn't "get" the joke - it just never applied to me. You were a friend in addition to Dennis' Mom. Miss you Vada. I love you. Please help Dennis, send your thoughts and hugs his way.... I hope you can guide him back home, but if not, maybe to some kind of peace.
Love,
Your Daughter-in-law forever,
Dani
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