i feel so lonely
the air is thick and humid
the sky is looking stormy
days like this i thirst
the seconds drag on
i await your arrival
endless darkened days like this
i hunger for what i cannot have
i'm haunted and taunted
by your eyes
i cannot ignore
what rises inside me
i'm trapped in the spell you cast
i need you
but, alas, you deprive me
i'm tortured with anxiety
i'm intoxicated by all you are
and i laugh
it's what i crave
while you starve me
you feed my fire
what have i to gain
all i can do is hunger
and thirst
but for what
ah...for only you
~Amethyst Raines~
©1999
i'd like to feel your body
cold and hard under my hand
completely still and breathless
then maybe i'd understand
i wonder what it would feel like
to take your final breath
i'd kiss the very last out of you
and enjoy your silent death
i'd like to lie in your arms once more
just until you'd lost the warmth
then i'd drop a single rose
as if you were beneath the earth
and if you didn't repulse me
i'd kiss your lips once more
just to see if they were still soft
then make my way for the door
i wouldn't turn back for one last glance
not even would i shed a tear
because i think that i would finally realize
that you were never there
~Amethyst Raines~
©1999
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