My Little Box
When there are times I miss you so, and I can't stand the pain,
I wander to my bedroom and I get the box again!
Inside it are the memories that tell me you were here,
I hold the things so tightly then, pretend that you are near!!
The bottle that you used that night to lull yourself to sleep,
The blanket used to keep you warm,and booties for your feet.
The cards I got when you were born, seem oh so precious now,
I cry to God sometimes at night, to give you back somehow!!
I wish that I could hold you close, just once again my child,
My heartbeat races in my chest, my anger rages wild.
The tears begin to fall and then, I question my own worth,
Was I the kind of mother that you wanted here on earth?
Now that you are up above, and looking down on me,
Do you know all there is to know, do you like what you see?
And do you know how sad I've been for most of this last year?
Thanking God for all the joy you brought into my life,
I wondered if you felt the sadness leave amid the strife?
And when I find I cannot stand the loneliness once more,
I go ahead and turn the phone off, and I lock the door.
I travel to the bedroom where in silence once again,
I open up the closet and I see the things within.
I lose myself inside the pictures,toys and Tee's
I find I cannot stop the tears, and they won't let me see!!
I slowly go through everything as I have done before,
And then I place it all away, and close the closet door.
Then slowly get back to the things I know that I must do,
But I'll be back before too long, to sit and talk with you!!!
For there is little I can do, to stop the constant pain,
Of knowing I will never hold you in my arms again.
But I can sit and hold the things like rattles, shirts and socks,
And just enjoy the things I've hidden, in my little box!!!
By Jeanette Smith
In Memory Of Our Haley

I am also sending along a special award that I give out to the little angels. It can't be applied for and you need not link it back to my site. It is just my way of honoring the little ones that watch over us now. Please accept it for Haley's page. Thanks and have a great day! -- God Bless Dave Wall a.k.a. Angel

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