i see the changes in me
one year later there are scores
where i was content to have many
i have few
where my world was full of people
i seek solitude
where once i wept at loss
i have long since dried my tears
where i once hungered for union
i seek solace after my own fashion
~~~
i am worn out you see
by so many unfulfilled promises
and i see life has given me
knowledge and the love of my family
this view cost me once
i sought to give away my life
i had grown weary of it
in so many ways
now i'm a survivor
~~~
one of the few things
in these 9 plus years
of going on is the pleasure
i now take in simple things
never one for ostentious show
i am content to collect
these little parts of the world
and enjoy them as new toys
it pleases me
~~~
as i tuck away the memories
as i stash the dreams inside
i no longer seek to recapture
so much as
i ponder where it went so wrong
	Spirits 141855 8/99

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