Weird dreaming. With Steve at a fete, campsite, something, perhaps a circus. Sinister - a dark kind of power I appear to be in the middle. Driving somewhere. Kissing the neck of some reluctant girl who loses herself to me - so real that in the morning I wondered who it was that I got off with. Seeing Rachel H with Simon, she shunned me for not replying to her letter, I felt badly done to but guilty.
Wake late but wasn't in bed till gone 3 so that's okay. Squash with scott this aft. Squashed for 1 1/2 hours with scott, totally knackered out. He cleaned up on me, I was really tired though!
Barratts + KFC with Craig in the evening even though I said I wasn't going out! Told craig I was going to ring Sadie and tell her not to be a dopey cow and work this out. And he said give her a chance, you've only been knocked down once in the seventh round - I asked what that meant and he wouldn'y say. What does he know or think. Seriously think I should have a talk and tell her to give it a good think through and see if we can't work something out, is it available time? I can make do with a night or two a week - I really want to see her, I want to feel her arms around me. Sadie don't you deserve some 'you time'? If you want me I'm here but I guess I've got to tell you .....
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