the teeth of the winds of the sea

		then i looked into her young eyes 
		from eighty years she looks back into my young eyes
		and she is gone
		to where?
		where has her soul gone?
		body found yes
		but her very mark her sign
		lost it seems to me
		though i feel that she is here still
		all around me windsouled
		to love is always to live somehow
		as long as our eyes are still this colourdull glass
		i will not know her still 

		this parched scorched earth
		endless wheel of suffering
		great ocean of pain
		bloodbucket of grief
		roaring mouthgaped O
		of disappointment and despair
		will not then exist
		and we shall smile
		we shall smile as big
		as the big crescent moon
		which lies on its arched back and dreams
		of cats and stars and snow
		and as before we saw smiley shining stars
		and disreaching them
		our arms would wave like a desperate windmill
		hoping hoping to welcome them home
		now we shall touch them close to our hearts
		and what we are
		and what we may be
		maybe
		why i have failed
		and all i could have been
		and am not
		and all i had hoped for
		and were not
		and everything i hoped
		and hoped and hoped and hoped for
		i prayed in the morning
		i prayed in the evening
		and i got not
		from the rotgut god
		when all the world starts to shiver
		and shimmer and shake all around me
		and all the worldlight like this piecemeal
		and peaceless
		this is the atomic pain of the worlds
		the molecular tears
		the final crystalline structure of misery
		that winds its way around the wooden snakejawed growing spine
		of the worlds 
		
		listen: i was taken 
		
		to be betrayed whenever is hate
		to be betrayed wherever is hate
		as the body is abused by man
		there in the Patrapassion edge of the world
		the hanging God is invaded
		in heart and soul 
		
		i suffer you all suffer
		you suffer all i suffer
		suffer suffer suffer
		the tearblowing world creaks around
		and we are broken 
		Loss!
		Loss
		light and darkness
		light and darkness
		it seems to the little blue and green world
		they do not know each other
		but they must finally
		the master says that Satan too shall be forgiven
		forgiven
		and suffering before
		we suffer too 
		
		here's sixpence
		here's sixpence
		go and play and play
		in the flaky pale fields that are still somehow this land
		and spend oh spend your life away
		spend and spend your night away
		and waste and waste your life away
		under the brightstarlight
		under your yewboned archlight body
		you are dead 
		
		under this shitstained sky
		you are dead 
		
		under the loveless muddy almoststars
		you are dead 
		
		under the sleeping closed eyes of the Bhagavan
		you are dead 
		
		under the road and the track and the path
		along the green grass slipping away
		along the snaking way
		you are deady deady
		deady deady
		deady deady
		dead
		goodnight
		the lights are dead and so are you
		the light is dead and so are you