calling for vanished faces I

		if then i meet you along the way
		where the laurel trees surround us on every side
		if then in a small place i stand alone
		and turn my head and you smile there
		if then i reach out and touch your form
		where all your silences and your chaos meets
		where everything joins and parts
		if i may once clutch your heart
		and pull its beauty to my face
		there the bloodfall falls red river cracks
		behind me lies black mother mountain
		the goats wheel round
		great sign of lust
		how much i wanted you
		and oh Christ how much more i want you now
		the great pain
		the great misery
		to look and look
		to look and look and look
		and look and find
		nihil