Letter Six

~May 15, 1997.~

I'm just wondering-am I making any progress with this abuse stuff? I mean, right now I feel at such a stand still because I have not thought about it as much. Is this it? Could it be over? I won't think about it anymore? Or is there more stuff to come? I mean, what more is there to discuss concerning it now that the actual abuse is out in the open? Like-I just don't know where to go from here. But, personally, I don't have a closure type of feeling-like I think there's more stuff to deal with. I just don't know what or how to get at it. Nothing's happening! Do I wait, do I make it happen, or what? I know, realistically that there are no answers to these questions. I am so confused! Am I doing this all wrong, am I just impatient, is this all the healing I will ever do?

~Meggie~