Realization

~Date Unknown~

It hit me with a force I had witnessed only few times before

I knew then that I was being given a choice

I wanted to bury it all, to forget it, to walk away forever

But I didn't and I don't think I could.

The pain took me then and washed over every piece of my being

And I let it take me

I offered myself to the pain

And it enveloped me, hot and painful as the falling water

And finally, two tears fell

No more than that

I was only being allowed to feel the pain that those two tears held

And only as much hurt as I could bear

Slowly, reality crept in

I could feel again

I realized the water was too hot, so I turned the tap

Then watched the pain swirl at my feet and follow the water down the drain...