Wondering where you are tonight
I wish more than ever
That you would remember me forever
Now that you have gone away
There are many things I'd like to say
You always said I wasn't a "fling"
I always hoped that is what you truly mean
I felt very comfortable with you
I was more secure than you know
I tried to hide the things I felt
And to play the cards as they were dealt
I didn't want to be a fling thing for you
So I started dating someone new
When I was out with the otherguy
I thought of you and that's no lie
I wished that you would care for me
So I turned around and set you free
My time spent dating came to and end
And I started keeping guys as my friends
You and I had no commitment, but
All the things I had I didn't want to cut
If you would have said you liked me
I would have been very happy
As time came closer for you to leave
My heart and mind began to grieve
I really enjoyed our times together
I always wished they were last forever
And during those times apart
You were always in my heart
When the day came for you to go away
Deep down inside I wanted you to stay
I told myself to be strong
And that you would not be gone long
I tried to hold my tears back and not cry
But it was harder that I thought to say goodbye
I really hope that I cross your mind
And that you will miss me at least one time
When I walked up to you I couldn't take it
I wanted to say "I love you, David"
I was scared
I didn't know if you cared
I care about you as a friend
And it will be here till the end
Instead of saying those four words
"Don't loose my ring" is all you heard
Walking away I left you alone
You just stood there like a stone
While you are gone I really hope
That I am the one you'll be missing
I hope that if you come back here
Our friendship will still be dear
I also hope that if you return
Your respect I can re-earn
At night when I go to sleep
Your blanket I hold and weep
Even if we just become good friends
That would be good for me, it all depends
And if your best friend decides to go away
I also hope that you would stay
Now, I know I am dreaming of things to be
And with my luck they won't work out for me
I guess I will wait and see what happens
But I will pray that it isn't the end
You will probably never see this letter
But writing it down makes me feel better
If you find a girl that will treat you right
I hope the best for you and the rest of your life
I do really care and I don't know why
But on the outside I hide and inside I cry
I feel really hurt because of different reasons
I guess it's life and this kind of season
I know if you come back it will be to see Chris
And I know it is him you will really miss
I can only hope someday someway
That you will care for me, so I pray
I recieved the news that you wanted to come back here
I immediately began to get scared and fear
Thoughts began to circle in my mind
And to the questions, answers I could not find
When you called the other day
I was upset and I didn't know what to say
You lost my ring my dad gave to me
It was the most important thing as you can see
I don't know what to do
With out my ring, without you I am blue
Written December 16, 1992
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