Title: I DREAMED OF YOU Writer: JAYME

WHEN I WAS A SCHOOL GIRL I DREAMED I WOULD BE, A DOCTOR WHO CURED EVERY PET BROUGHT TO ME! MY PASSION WAS FOR CRITTERS, NO MATTER WHAT KIND. I LOVED THEM AND SOMEHOW I READ THEIR MIND. BACK THEN I WAS CERTAIN WHO I’D GROW TO BE HEARTS BROKEN, THE DARKNESS I JUST DIDN’T SEE! MY FRIENDS WOULD BE DOCTORS AND FIREMEN AND SUCH, BUT I’D HEAL GODS CREATURES, BECAUSE I HAD THE TOUCH. A FAVORITE MEMORY STILL IS SO CLEAR; OF 5TH GRADE, THE NEW BOY, IT STILL BRINGS A TEAR ONE DAY A NEW BOY WALKED INTO MY CLASS WITH THE BLUEST BLUE EYES AND THEY SPARKLED LIKE GLASS I DREAMED FROM THEN ON WHEN I HAD MY FIRST KID I’D NAME HIM JUSTIN, LIKE THAT BOYS MOM DID! I VISIONED JUST EXACTLY HOW MY JUSTIN LOOKED AND THE FIRST TIME I SAW YOU, YOU HAD ME HOOKED! I DREAMED OF HIS FATHER, HOW HE’D BE THE MAN, TO GIVE US A WORLD THAT WAS SAFE WAS MY PLAN I WAS SO YOUNG, BUT I DREAMED HE WOULD BE JUST LIKE MY DAD, AND A HERO TO ME

MY DREAMS NEVER SHOWED ME THE FORKS IN THE ROAD; OR HOW ONE WRONG TURN; MY PLANS WOULD EXPLODE!! I GREW UP QUICK AND WATCHED ALL MY DREAMS SHATTER, ALL THE PLANS THAT I MADE SUDDENLY DIDN’T MATTER WITHOUT A WORD,IN THE NIGHT MY DAD WALKED OUT THE DOOR AND ALL I BELIEVED IN WAS CRUSHED ON THE FLOOR THE MAN I THOUGHT THE WORLD OF NEVER REALLY EXISTED, AND THE WORLD AS I’D KNOWN IT WAS EVIL AND WAS TWISTED. I CLOSED MY HEART, I CLINCHED MY FIST AND DRINKING WAS NOW ON THE TOP OF MY LIFES LIST. WHERE WAS I GOING? WHAT WOULD I DO?

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AND THEN ONE DREAM CAME TRUE! AND AS I LOOKED IN YOUR EYES FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME. I REALIZED JUST HOW LIFE TURNS ON A DIME! I HAD MY JUSTIN AND NOW THINGS ARE CLEAR, MY VISION WAS NOTHING LIKE HAVING YOU HERE! THEN ONCE AGAIN….

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NOW WHO WOULD HELP ME TO CARRY THE LOAD? NOW FACED ONCE AGAIN, DECISIONS TO MAKE, ANOTHER LIFE IN MY HANDS I MUST TAKE. THEN I HAD JORDAN AND I LOVED HIM TOO, MY HEART WAS JUST BIG ENOUGH FOR BOTH OF YOU I PRAYED I WAS WORTHY, I FEARED FOR MY BOYS; I HAD NO INSTRUCTIONS, I KNEW YOU WERENT TOYS! BUT I NEVER HAD DREAMS OF JORDAN LIKE I DID YOU, HIS FACE IN MY MIND WASN’T ONE THAT I KNEW. THEN CAME THE DAY HE WAS PLACED IN MY ARMS SOMETHING WAS WRONG, I FELT THE ALARMS AND AFTER THE DRAMA ON THE DAY OF IS BIRTH I WONDERED IF YOU NEEDED A MOM MORE OF WORTH!! THEN A DEAD END ----------- OR A FORK IN THE ROAD------- NEVER A HINT ON THE RIGHT WAY TO GO

SO MANY TWISTS AND TURNS IN MY PATH, SOMETIMES IT WAS HARD AND THERES BAD AFTERMATH! I’M SORRY I’M NOT THE BEST MOM ON THIS EARTH BUT I KNEW LONG AGO THAT I WASN’T OF WORTH! NOW I TAKE THE BLAME AND I LIVE FULL OF GUILT FOR THE UNSTABLE LIFE OF CONFUSION I BUILT. I’LL NEVER BE ABLE TO CHANGE WHAT I’VE DONE I’M SORRY I MADE YOUR LIFE SO HARD MY SON,

I ONLY WISH YOU WOULD JUST OPEN YOUR EYES; PLAN FOR YOUR FUTURE AND REACH FOR THE SKYS! LOOK BACK ON THE HARDSHIP I PLACED IN YOUR LIFE, AND PROMISE SOMEDAY YOU’LL BE GOOD TO YOUR WIFE BE A PROVIDER, MAKE YOUR KIDS STRONG MAKE SURE THEY KNOW GOD AND THEY KNOW RIGHT FROM WRONG! AND JUSTIN, PLEASE PROMISE YOU’LL LEAVE A CLEAR PATH DON’T LEAVE BEHIND ROADS FULL OF BAD AFTERMATH! SON, KNOW IN YOU’RE HEART THAT DREAMS DO COME TRUE; MINE DID WHEN I HAD A VISION OF YOU!

LOVE ALWAYS; MOM

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