I can see the hidden face in nearly everything
And in my mind I know that it was soon to come
Bitter cold I breathe within, the frosty breeze careens
Into awaiting lungs and divulge into the wading pool of madness
-Ambition is the cause for lonliness, yet the only way ahead-
An ominous illusion boasts thine heart
Of extraordinary minds, and curious divine
Doth take its toll upon me
Given is it that I shall not cry
They never saw it coming
And I plummetted upon the sky
They always said I cared for naught
A prized aura of darkness
Washes o'er my dingy hatred
From broken bone and gaping wound
Life escapes quickly upon my hand
"I'll bet they never saw me coming",
says the lonly, tormentted soul
"And of all the terrifying pain they feel
It's nothing compared to my heart's gaping hole"
Her love descended upon me in reflecting faces
She liftes me from the depths of those I've loved before
And changed I have since she's been with me
But never have I felt lost as I do today
Torn apart by a sleeping broken dream
Only to wake when I feel I've ruined everything
I believed for so long you were the one
But now in a foggy mist I can't see your face
The winter soon is leaving for a warmer, living peace
But the sadness I have caused can't be erased
This song's lyrics discuss my enitre past as a whole. Mostly the people I hate and whom caused me much distress are focussed upon. The music is heavy throughout, and the pace is somewhat faster than most of TSD's past material. The lyrics are aggressive, as so the music should be.
Within the silence of the midnight hour
I wander through dreams and sorrows
The stream passes over me
And I lie down upon a bed of stones
What depression comes
To my heart which bleedeth crimson
The web of the spider snares
Another feeling another feast
My lustful being to long for love
A yearning desire to have my soul
I dine alone in pity for a tear
Weeds entangle with vines to choke the flower
(The wind laughs as the roots die
A gust blows upon a field of cane
And the hidden snake entwines itself within
Awaiting for it's unsuspecting trespasser
So as to strike and inject its venom
Hear the sounds within the silence
The oblivion of death after emptiness of life
The lonly being longs for escape from hope
For 'tis the hope that kills rather than failure alone
I see those who cry in rememberance
They are left in a sorrowed pool of tears
But they swim to stay alive
Within I drown and stay to die
Oh dreary passings of riteous heart
My feelings liew within departures
Across an ocean, paper boat sailing
Pairing life and death within a single child
Born to break of brittle stone
Shambles crumble, falling groundward
A pedal burns and scorches as it wilts
The ashes are blown away in wind gusts
Canst thou be so cold
To one who loves thee so?
This is an older song as far as the lyrics are concerned. They were written at just around the same time as Thorns and Path of a Tear were written. The music was never conceived until recently, and I decided that to put it on an album about a reflecting of life's past sorrows was appropriate. The lyrics are a relentlessly hopeless poem about dealing with loss. As you can tell from what you've read, I don't deal well with it. The music is dark, heavy and forboding with a mid to slow paced tempo, and a mellow bridge thrown in for shits and giggles.
Her mind resides in a broken clock
Persisting to never tick away
Another second of her life
A dream of colors in itself
(Chorus)
Something in the walls
Something in the walls will take me
Something on the water
Something on the water takes me
Bent upon a plan residing
Built above a sea of self-loathing
What I put into me
I love to feel amongst the sea
(Chorus)
-It was the deepest kiss I ever felt-
"All it took was one moment of pain
And my mind drifted toward complacency
I need never arive to reality
For here I lie, and here I am content
It lives in an empty space within my heart
My heart becoming a vast wasteland
With every little try I belong to it
Leaving me open to the glorious temptation
Reign o'er all the waning hours
Show your sovereign rule
Live through lust for searing flames
And a spig impaled through your heaving chest
Oh, damned murd'rous harlots
I fist thee for your pain
And raping to deceive thee
Left is all your blood stains
(chorus)
And thus I kill
Recalling hatred
And thus I kill
Everyone is fucked in the coming days
An exotic feeling, that of lacerated flesh
A carcass burning orgy and the ashes
She came as I killed her
Eroticism's call begins to breed
As my memory melts all I feel
For my hatred runs as deep as 1000 oceans
And my sorrow is as painful as the grave
(chorus)
The tears from my heart hath frozen
And in the blackest of nights I scream
My redemption is nothing more than eluasive rays
For I will never be that way again
My regrets are many and I stab at them
With the blade from my loins I long for death
Internally I destroy all around me
In my wishes I have killed every fucking whore
In a room of corpses bloodied, and rotting
Is within my pleasure realm
Just to see the broken bodies all around me
In destructive tearing of soul
Searching for any answer where to go
Travelled and knowing of the roads I hate
Leads me to my self-loathing misery
I stand here on the highest peak
Of the mountainous sorrows of emotion
But as I finally swim to stay alive
I drown forever, never to die
Can I recall the past with a chime?
Quiet as a pin drops into the ocean
Razor blades and emotional chains
The memoirs of a life...Forgotten
On invisible, black, feathered wings she rode
Into the dim lit drunken chambre
With candle wax she melted my heart
With a dance she won my soul
Troubled is she with whipping lust
In nothin I see her blindly
Dominatrix acting queen
She, a slave to another's guilt
Forgotten, angel of infinite names
And evasive as the twilight
Alas, how I did love thee
Whore of unnumbered tears
Henceforth I wept for several years
Until I ne'er saw her again
She died I assume in dazed attire
Such was a life forgotten
In wishing deathe upon them all
I hear the dark erotic call
Of the Raven, coming back to me
Silence brings what sorrow dares
A pain decides and never shares
How we feel an emnity descends
The red river rises to the point of flood
The weight of the casket upon my soul
I carry my own life upon my shoulders
And fallen to my knees, the world burns violently
This song is about my club experiences, some good, some bad. It reflects my own emotions at the time, which , were as you can tell, unhappy at best. I metaphorically use a specific girl from my past whom I loved deeply, and suffice to say, it was unrequited. It represents how my indifference grew towards the scene, and when I finally ceased attending all together. The music is heavy and up beat throughout, adding to the overall theme of the music for the "Reflecting From the Faces..." LP.