Desperately I crawl to the point at which I tumble
Into multitudes of darkness and my dreams that lie crumbled,
One moment I feel life and joy, and smiles can never cease
Extreme emotions to the positive end are all that I release.

An obstacle then oppresses the huge "progress" I have made
Now it's innocence and bliss in my mind for which I've paid,
So gracefully and flawlessly and quickly I careen
Into the bleakest angst  I am consumed by the other extreme.

I'm bleeding at every point and I am purging from every pore
As I speechlessly drain my insides with pain, my numbness exists more,
"I forgot to take my meds," so thoughtlessly I explain
The words, however, will not erase my self-inflicted pain.

Soon my mind of confusion, chaos, voices, massive pain
Becomes more clearer still and a smile I cannot refrain,
I return with poise to the opposite side of this spectrum of extremes
And blindly prolong this chaotic cycle that controls my life, it seems.

I'm desperately longing to reach the middle and remain
To be content with myself in love and even pain,
I wish not for utopia or love in every place
Only to exist among mid-spectrum with the slightest grace.