Old woman
You are not my great-grandmother,Old woman.
And I am glad you are dead.
Same name, same face
But not the same!
You stole her.
Crept in the thief
Quiet, no one notice 'til you were secure.
Took over her body, mind
Made her soul homeless.
It was all to torture us,
Was it not?
Perverse pleasure, cackling glee
Whenever you hurt them,
Hurt me.
You brought about big changes
With your wicked wicked ways
A move
Disrupted lives
All for you.
You made us aliens
Among those like you.
Browner skin, brown of hair and eyes.
We couldn't fit in,
They wouldn't let us.
Religion set us apart too.
You cried "heathens" they asked "religion?" When I answer none
They glare worse than if
I had said rituals with babies' blood.
They shun us
Because we're not like them.
Chanters of lies
Playing Simon Says
Behind stained glass eyes.
Living among them
Has made us deny parts of ourselves.
My mother scornfully says "nosy Portuguese"
As if she's not half one. So hard to feel
Such animosity towards those from which you come.
Your lack of gratitude
Made it worse.
To do so much, give up so much
For someone who didn't care
Breed easily hate.
A seventeen year old
Should not know fierce hate
But I learned well
Under your tutelage
Old woman.
Cruel crone
Evil bitch
You were a creature
Out of children's nightmares.
No, my nightmares.
Fighting care,
You made it so hard.
I shudder at Depends TM.
To care for the mad,
Our thankless task.
The yells, your screams
The inane insistent cry of "nurse"
Senseless but brutal to the mind
Burned into my brain
Like the fall of bombs.
The bruises on my mother's face,
(And they wondered who was abusing who)
Her pulled hair, mangled glasses.
No retaliation against you "helpless" one.
Except hate.
But the death of my grandfather killed
All love I'd ever felt towards you.
Laughing at the death of your son
(her son) asking to keep the death pages,
I wished you dead.
You stole the dignity of her death.
They call you a disease,
But I know you were a demon exorcised.
I laugh at your passing
And we rest in peace.
-srw
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