Breakdown
Feelings
extreme
sadness
extreme
tears
a stream
I scream
of course they all hear me
they turn their head shake their head turn their head roll their eyes
I say the words
they hear none
Shake them
I do
violently
let their head fly off fly off fall off hit hit something stomp smash kick
I do
I do
I do I do I do I do I do I do I do I do
are you listening? HEEEELLOOOOOOO can you hear me?
I said die!
I said go
away
far
away
I SAID GET OFF ME!
stop
let go
let me go
let me go away
far
away
if he wont let me I gotta go on my own so I did
and I left
and I left
away far away
gone
through the trees
I can't see past my tears
its a different world
when the tears filter the sunlight
Things are distorted
its much darker
Im afraid
Big brother protect me
save me shield me help me
dont fuck me
my body he has it I left it
to him
I gave it over
gave
gave
gave
gave
I stoped fighting
I gave up
gave
gave
gave
gave
I gave it up
it
my body
MY body
I don't want it anyway
who would want it
no one wants it
throw it away
toss it away
its trash
its filth
tear at the skin
take it off get him off
stain
filth
dirt dirt dirt dirt
wash it off
scrub scrub scrub
scrub harder
I'm in the shower
washing the dirt off scrubbing away
of all places of all times
you invaded my privacy
you invade my shower
You invade my thoughts, my sanity, my well being, my innocence
Cut that child down to nothing, brutaly
I can never be clean
I can never be clean
the drain
the dirt wont go down I try but I don't fit
squeeze shove
I remember now
I didn't fit
Its over
just the shower
the abuse goes on
day after day
after day
after day
after day
after day
pieces fall into place
but where do I?
Do I have a place
but he doesnt belong why does he fit
god you did this
FUCK YOU!!!!
I can never take it back
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