Poem or Assigment??

A distant "I love you" lingers in the air...three little words just for me. My mind full of confusion, torment, wonderment, happiness, frustration. Just turn off the monitor, close of the end of this night. A final chapter written in the strands of time as they slowly pass..Mere little seconds go by so fast yet never able to retrace their steps. Now what to do but write my tale, write my story..eternalizing a brief moment of passing time in the eyes of a biased views. Tried to forget my pain...used pleasure as a driving force to forget. But just recalling the time that past...recalling a section of my life in which my mind was not there.

Where does one begin this tale of moment of spiring depression downward on a constant loop going further and further but always in circles.

Talk of family...whom i love so..they guide me, care for me, love me..yet despise my choices, deny my life,. No choices in whom my family is. Was it fate, destiny that brought me to them. Was i predestined to be the reble from them or did it naturally occur..

Work had so much potential to be great..but what am i striving for? To be number one in the place at the bottom. Working yeilding to others desires and whims. The ultimate slave in a wage filled position reinforcing my place in life. But who deems that place within this world..or was it the ultimate condemnation i beset on myself?

Choices, choices each day i choose to be where i am, what i am..it was a choice i made in a limited confinement. It is me who condems myself, me who let it be as i am. Others may have influenced..but there is not one to blame but myself. But why should i be finding a blame? Rather then just accepting it the wayit is?

Frantic Chaos of a repetative day almost the same thing again and again..will it ever be different? Will it ever change...Will I ever change???

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