Subject: self torture

I have developed a slightly different approach to self-torture which
relies less on release mechanisms and more on a task-related release
process.  I recently tested the technique described below after a number
of smaller trials.

To start with I bought two wooden trestle table legs - the ones that
form an a-frame.  In my case, the legs were slightly too high so I sawed
about two inches off each corner.  I then went to the hardware store and
bought a narrow piece of timber ten feet long, two inches wide and about
an inch deep. I already had a couple of offcuts which I cut to to fit
across the bottom of the trestle legs, so that they completed the
triange and made the legs more stable.  I then hammered about forty
short nails through the timber, so that they came through the other side
of the poked through the narrow timber plank a bit less than half an
inch.

I then took these bits and pieces out to the enclosed back porch, which
has a concrete floor. Using about a foot each end of the timber plank, I
nailed to plank nailed down the timber, with the nails poking up.  I
found that running the trestles end to end was more stable.

I had already purchased a couple of boxes of birthday cake candles and
had some larger candles used for dinner parties.  I cut these to a
similar length to the birday cake candles.  Using a main candle, I
melted the base of each candle and secured it to each of the nail tips,
so that there was a line of about forty unlit candles running along
about eight feet.

At this stage I undressed completely and put on a heavy leather collar
with a strap of leather  at the back which ran down my back and was
attached to my handcuffs.  I then adjusted the candles and plank so that
one end was under one of the porch beams, where I hung the key to the
cufflinks on a piece of down to about waist height.  I had made up a
home leg spreader using two small leather dog collars nailed to either
end of a cut off broom handle.  This kept my feet about two feet apart.
I placed this down the near end of the trestle, along with an old tie I
would use as a gag.

To complete my ordeal I trimmed my public hair with some scissors and
taped a nine-volt battery to the top of the base of my penis shaft.
Using a short wire I attached the negative element to a cock ring I
fitted around the base of my penis, and the positive to a small
alligator clip.  I found I needed to file the teeth of clip otherwise
the pain of simply applying it was too severe.

By this stage I was nearly ready.  I then took the still lit master
candle and lit all of the candles along the plank, working backwards
towards the start, where the leg spreaders were waiting on the ground.
Before lighting the last few candles I straddled the trestles so that
each leg was either side of the plank and I was facing the row of nearly
lit candles and the key down the other end.  I bent down and attached
the spreader straps to each of my ankles, so that I could not escape by
dismounting the plank  Because the spreader was narrower than the
trestles, this also prevented me from escaping by backing out of
trouble.

By this stage my legs were shaking almost uncontrollably and my penis
was semi-erect from both the ring and the anticipation.  I attached the
gag ( to prevent blowing the candles out),  lit the remaining candles
and secured my right hand in the handcuffs hanging from the collar down
my back.  With my remaining free hand I took the modified alligator
clip, clipped it to the top side of the rim of the head of my penis, and
just as I could feel the tingle of the current I pulled my hand behind
my back and, with a deep breath, snapped the second cuff closed.

I stood there trembling, my legs spread apart and a row of forty candles
between me and escape.  I had estimated the height of the lit candles so
that at the start their tips would be at around the same height as my
penis and testles.  If I left it too long, the would burn lower and I
would have to cross the hotter part of the flame.  I had introduced the
battery because in previous trials I had found it too easy to stand
there and wait until the candles burnt out.  I still had that option,
but it meant enduring up to twenty minutes of incredibly severe pain as
the current ran through my penis. The sensation from my penis was
already so strong that I realised I had no choice - I had to waddle
forwards as quickly as possible, grab the key and release myself from
the genital electrocution.

I moved forwards already in agony from the battery and felt the sting as
my penis tip hit and extinguished the first candle. I reacted by trying
to get on tip-toes, but the need for speed and spreader made it hard to
balance and I stumbled forward onto two more candles, the first hitting
my penis and the second scraping along my testicles.  The surge of
current was even stronger now and I began to swear profusely as I
lurched along the plank, knocking some candles onto the floor and
putting out the rest with various parts of my cock and balls.  I suppose
it only took twenty seconds to get to the end, bump into the key, and
twist my back while candles still burnt and extinguished underneath my
genitals.  Eventually I got the key into my hand, fiddled and unlocked
the lock and my hand sprung down to the alligator clip.  A few candles
still lay burning on the floor.  My cock and balls were covered in black
from the canldes and wax, and, despite the trim, I had singed a few
tufts of public hair.

Chad