Melissa

           I met Melissa a little over a week before I was leaving IL to come here to TN for college. Immediately I, and she, felt a connection to each other. I trusted her and felt as close to her as I felt (and to a large degree still feel) for my then c-girl, Kathryn. It was just a matter of days (actually just, like, 2) before I had fallen hard for her. Of course at the time I was already in a committed relationship, so I was forced to say "if I wasn't in the relationship I was in I would ask you.." I chatted with Melissa like every day for hours upon hours on ICQ.

           I decided that I really needed to talk to Kathryn about where our relationship was headed (because I had already been having my doubts before I met Melissa). We talked and agreed to break off our "beyond friendship" relationship and just be friends.

           It was that same day that I asked Melissa to be my c-girl. (some say that that was too fast, but my reply to that is.. I had met her and was fallen for her before I broke off with kathryn, plus I believe it was God who had led us together.) I was extremely glad she said yes, and made sure she didn't feel bad because it was so shortly after my breaking up with Kathryn that I had asked her.


           Since then slowly and surely I have been growing closer and closer to her... and realizing all the more what a wonderful person she is and what a blessing she is in my life. I believe God knew what He was doing when He had us meet by "chance" in the chat room... I don't know what I would do if I did not have her.


           I consider "I don't want to miss a Thing" by Aerosmith to be "our" song. One of the things I was telling her about during the long chats is how much I loved the song and she agreed with me. I also told her that the song describes the type of relationship I wanted. She agreed with me... and now everytime I hear the song I think of her and what she has meant to me. I quote lines from it in our communication also. (whenever I say "our" song or "the song" I am referring to this song)

"I don't want to miss a thing"


           I have not written her many poems. I have yet to reach the number which she is desperately deserving of. I have not even reached the number of which I am capable... Don't worry, though. I WILL work at it and eventually this portion of her page will grow. These, of course, are the poems I have written for her SO FAR:

being with you
above it all I feel you
phone calls
she is
I need to hear your voice
disease - without you
just another minute with you
suffer my desire
"the song"
nothing is written


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