Oblivious

I am drunk because I am comfortable

or is it supposed to be the other way around?

We are amongst friends
friendly endless lines of people who will do no harm.

And in this crush
I want to tear open the soft skin of your shirt to get closer
to feel at some level less than real
Intimacy that does not exist
despite your kiss

And like a broken record I protest…and test
but you don't care do you care but you don't care

And you smile because you are drunk and I am drunk
and as drunkards the chances go up that one or both of us will for the moment forget where we are or who we are and let what
happens happen

but I protest….do you care do you care do you care?

It will not register until later that you said nothing
Responding only with a kiss to the forehead.
I only know for the moment that I am winning big time at Asshole and flicking cigarette ashes unfortunately into
your beer bottle which you
Pick up and drink
Oblivious