14 Jan 0935
Oh, Mary, I had such a wonderful dream last night. Actually, dreams. I
woke up twice, but I went back into the same dream each time.
That's great. Hmm....a wonderful dream? Was he tall, dark, and handsome?
Mary!
C'mon, Jenny, kiss and tell.
Well....
Well?
Well. It wasn't like that. Not exactly. We just sat together, talked,
played with the cat.
I didn't think you liked cats.
I don't. But it was okay in the dream. It was wetting the rug and everything,
but it didn't matter. I could forgive it anything because it needed us,
even if it didn't know it.
Who was he? The man.
I never did see his face, or know his name. It wasn't necessary, because
he enclosed me.
In the first dream, I sat at his feet while he combed my hair.
My, Jenny. How subservient of you.
Well. We were subservient to each other.
In the next dream, I was nestled in his arms, and the cat in mine.
I felt so safe. In the last one, we were sitting in a room. I let the cat
in and out of the screen door. My parents were visiting, even though they're
both dead.
My sister never dies in my dreams either.
There's not much more to tell. Except he accepted me completely. Depression,
suicide attempts, everything. For the first time in my life I was truly
loved. And....
And?
And for the first time I truly loved.
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