The other day I was sitting in the sunshine as it entered my window drinking tea, enjoying my personal "quiet time". A few images kept traversing my mind, entering periodically and leaving of their own accord freely. Admittedly, I have experienced them a few times this week... I am not comfortable yet with them but they warm me.
The first image relates to another person here in this room. She seeks someone special and holds very clear and wonderfully attractive thoughts on her journey. So beautiful are these thoughts/wants that I find them occuring over and over in the space between my ears. My heart has paced relentlessly thinking of the possibilities and has also made the journey to my mind to inquire if this is just a whimsy or holds true substance for me. I do not think this person knows the stirring she has caused. She expresses herself well, is warm and considerate and ...well...perhaps I need say no more *smile*.
I have images of making love with this person in an Alpine meadow, surrounded by flowers, as the horses rest beside us eating the tall grass. If you read this I hope you are not upset with me....and thank you for responding the other day to my writing.
The second image I have been having frequently has to do with what I call soul touching...being so close without having to say the words. Like having light upon my insides and entrusting them to another, without fear nor worry that the light will become shadow. I imagine what that would be like. I wonder if I could generate enough of the same light for another - more importantly, could I do so continuously or at least so that there is more colour than shadow in the long run.
That inability is perhaps my deepest fear and concern. That is what keeps me running with the wolves. Maybe I am simply a prism which radiates what hits it? I hope I am not....but know I wish to experience the pristine and vivid colours which only a prism can provide. Perhaps I ask too much.