"the flowery branch of the wild cherry
how swiftly it flies back!
it is not that i do not love you;
but your house is far away."
--confusious
monday, march 15, 2004
march madness
That Particular Time
- alanis
my foundation was rocked my tried and true way to deal was to vanish
my departures were old I stood in the room shaking in my boots
at that particular time love had challenged me to stay
at that particular moment I knew not to run away again
that particular month I was ready to investigate with you
at that particular time
we thought a break would be good for four months we sat and vacillated
we thought a small time apart would clear up the doubts that were abounding
at that particular time love encouraged me to wait
at that particular moment it helped me to be patient
that particular month we needed time to marinate in what "us" meant
I've always wanted for you what you've wanted for yourself
and yet I wanted to save us high water or hell
and I kept on ignoring the ambivalence you felt
and in the meantime I lost myself
in the meantime I lost myself
I'm sorry I lost myself....i am
you knew you needed more time time spent alone with no distraction
you felt you needed to fly solo and high to define what you wanted
at that particular love encouraged me to leave
at that particular moment I knew staying with you meant deserting me
that particular month was harder than you'd believe but I still left
at that particular time
there is so much to this song. i don't have the patience to start. maybe i'll have time tomorrow. it just speaks to my life - love life/s in so many ways. perhaps if you've been around here long enough or know me you can understand... otherwise, maybe i can get it out and in here for ya soon. take care - talk soon