WOW!
What can i say about today.... I didn't want to go to work (so what else is new)! The weather was so beautiful.... i walked outside with a coat on only to shed it immediately upon finding my seat on the bus! I was also 1/2 hour late for work..... i just couldn't drag myself through that revolving door at the JCC today. I wanted to just keep on revolving right back out..... wanted to stay out and play all day.
When i got my "big promotion" to accounting last summer i moved from my little baby desk with a view to a cubicle in the middle of Accounting Hell. I didn't realize i missed that little girl's desk so much until today. Shortly after I'd finished the Labor Distribution Reports... I ventured over to my old neighborhood to get a glimpse of the day I'd left behind....... as i peered out the HUGE window, i noticed that the office across the street was vacant.... EMPTY! not such a big deal i guess.... except it's a corner office with lots of windows..... the guy who occupied it had a HUGE desk and every thursday i'd look out and see him there getting his shoes shined...... kicked back and chit-chatting on his telephone......... evidently he was doing a little too much chit-chatting!
So, it's empty now. A year ago i thought i'd like to be in that office..... kicking back..... having my shoes shined (ok, not really but you get the drift). Seeing it there vacant reminds me of how the business world works...... come and go....... come and go...... just a face..... no name! I don't do 'come and go' very well (as we've discovered these last couple of weeks). And, well, I sorta like people saying "Hello, Jami!" or "Good Morning, Jami!" I have this strong inclination to believe that the business world is NOT where i should plan to settle down...... too much going..........
going =
stress
stress = tears
As awful as i am with change.... i'm worse with tears........ hmmmmmm.....
I have ZERO idea what i want to do when i grow up. Someone (MY PARENTS I BELIEVE)mentioned that i have all ready done it though...... the growing up thing.... that frightens me because i don't think i was ready.... or am ready....... I DO know, however, that I'm glad it wasn't me in that office across the street. Unfortunately, it also wasn't me out there somewhere wandering the beach or meandering through the woods...............
Ho, Hum, Someday............... :o)
kisses for you..................... jami