I guess I can't use the usual stuff they give for cervical softening because I had the c-section before -- it's a pill they break into pieces and stick piece by piece in or around your cervix. I looked at her surprised and said, "But I had the bikini cut" which is supposed to mean that you heal better so that your subsequent births can be vaginal. But she said there's a danger of uterine rupture with this medication regardless of c-section method, which scared the shit out of me, so it's just fine with me that they aren't giving it to me. Gack! Uterine rupture!!

But apparently there's some other stuff they can do, and there's stuff I can do. What they can do is give me a prostaglandin soaked sponge on a stick that I put up against my cervix before bed and go to sleep with. I told Mike that if they prescribed that, he was gettin' some and then I was sticking the hormone-soaked sponge-on-a-stick up yonder. I'm taking herbs...lots of herbs. I'm taking evening primrose oil, both orally and erm...topically, i.e., sticking pinholes in the oil filled capsule and then placing leaking capsule up yonder. I'm also taking black cohosh tinctures -- I forgot how nauseated that stuff makes you feel -- I recall my friend Sue taking it and feeling wretched from it, but of course, I remembered that AFTER I took the glass full of water with 30 drops -- bleah. I asked about blue cohosh, but was told it can cause infant arythmia, so I'm not taking it.

The high-risk pregnancy meeting is today at the doctor's office, so they'll be discussing "my case" and I'll call at 230 to find out what their game plan is for me. After I find that out, I'll call the grandparents and fill them in.

Mike said the most adorable thing. I said, that if things went for another week that that would be okay with me and he said,"Well, I don't think that's okay with me. I want to see her now!"

I guess having her with me all this time, makes me feel like I know her already. He's still waiting for that. And truth be known, I can't wait to meet her outside my body either!

I'll post more of this entry after the phone call. Wish me luck! If you want to know if I've had her, send me an email and I'll add you to my birthing list. Mike will come home and send an email for me, once I've delivered or I will in a few days when I come home.

(very late at night)
I am being induced tomorrow at 8AM at the hospital. They said they'll try 8 hours of pitocin to see if the induction "takes" and if it does, I'll have a baby. If it doesn't, they said, that the pitocin often times will get the oxytocin receptors so activated a woman will go into spontaneous labor in a day or two and in the interim, ripen the cervix and so forth. Either way, I win. If neither of those possibilities happen, they may try induction one more time on Monday and see what happens. If that doesn't work, then I'm looking at the evil spectre of a c-section.

Hold me in the light! Pray that I don't have to have a c-section because my body doesn't heal well, as a function of my diabetes.