Anti-Barbie Doll
I am,
Without words at the fact that you think of me this way.
My plain blonde hair and my plain blue eyes do not seel your approval.
Your putting me here is nothing at my expense.
The thrill it gives me to be what you aren't is my soul passion...
And my purpose?
To piss you off.
My finger tips and my lips disobey your expectations of me.
I am scared to be you, does that tell you anything?
What I will nevere be is all that you want me to.
And that's just the way it is.

Superstar
He steps out of his car,
The oblivious necessities scream upon his soul,
Strutting his glamourous demon within.
Such a waste of glitter in his eyes.
Unseemingly excellent, yet pointless desires,
Fill the styles of unearthly references.
Wasting away inside,
The shimmering lights never blind whar he ceases to see.
But they blind what the others fail to recognize.
He sees the greens, the blues, and browns of his fame.
Disco fairytales are what he is made up of.
his heart a dance floor to only the best of the best.
Someone he could be,
But he is not.
Because he's a superstar.

Bucket
Curve the turns and walk the style,
Trapped in a world I didn't make.
Tried to make it all worthwhile,
But that was my mistake.
It didn't work, it only failed,
I feel like half of me is gone.
My heart is old, my heart is stale,
I feel like I was wrong.
This world around me I need to leave,
Psychotic inner I am.
In me it breathes,
And in the middle I stand.
You might say I get it all,
You might say I am the one,
Well I say, SCREW YOU ALL!
You don't know what you have done.
So bring me up to where you are,
Enter this world you created.
But please don't go very far.
This poor world is painted.
Painted "Hope",
Painted "Lonely",
Painted with the screaming cries of me...
Painted "One And Only Lie",
Smeared so you cannot see.
Painted all these colors,
Wishful, painful, things.
Who cares about the others?
I just want one thing.
Wash the paint away,
And make is the color blue.
Painted words crack and fade,
All because of you.
In this world I didn't make.
Resisting life at first.
I thoguht you were just a fake,
I thought my heart would burst.
But this is you,
And I am wrong.
Please say your love is true.
I've waited way, way too long,
Waiting just for you.
So this is it,
Where we remain.
Take your pick,
And don't complain.
Just have a seat in this chair of ageless old.
I already tried to cheat.
And now my hear is painted....
"SOLD."

1500 Indigo Lightbulbs
Biting the forlorn freak of me, 
Biding in this animosity.
Something, nothing I need to find, 
A place in for of human kind. 
Racing in this timeless competition,
Buy your life here, you just need admission. 
Stab the pain, it still won't go away.
Still waiting, waiting for someone to say, 
        I'll never leave you, I'll always stay, 
        I won't leave your broken heart to decay.
        Hold me now, never let go, 
        1500 lights. Lightbulbs. Indigo.
I sit alone, alone I sit. 
Stupid jerk, you piece of shit. 
I'm still hurting I'm still crying.
I believed all your fuckin lying. 
Something, nothing I need to find,
A place in form of human kind. 
I stick out in a crowd, but you're the loser. 
Next time I'll be the choser.
To be on my own, 
So my heart won't get broken.
Yes, that's my heart choking,
What the hell did you think it was?
Your fucking love was like getting a buzz.
Never lasting long enough, 
Wanting more, but that's just tough. 
Still crying, dying, for someone to say, 
        I'll never leave you, I promise I'll stay.
        I won't leave your heart to fade.
        Kiss me softly, never let go. 
        1500 lights.  Lightbulbs. Indigo.
Fighting freakish hellish nature,
And you're the only goddamn failure.
You're screwed and I'm alone. 
Don't speak to me in that tone. 
You want me back so bad, 
But I'm glad you didn't say so. 
I wouldn't want your heart to break. 
Now would I?