Revelation - Lyrics

LYRICS

Lost Innocence
(Words: John Brenner)
How many years ago, I dreamed of simple goals
But life's so complicated now
A child at heart, a man in soul
I still dream the same dreams
Not too long ago - you were young, pure as snow
Untouched by life's pressures
Not more lovely than full of life
And of the hopes of the future

How many people do you know
Who've grown up overnight
Thrust into competing for no prize
No gold at the end of the rainbow
Because anti-septic truths and unimportant views
Have dimmed the true meaning of youth
I wish I could save you from my fate
And preserve your innocence forever

Ignorance to knowledge
Adolescent to mature
overnight
Dreams to reality
Youth to old age
all too soon

Why can't I save you
from the pain of growing up,
the pressures of your peers
Why can't I help you
fight the evils of the world
the sins of casual pleasure

Salvation's Answer
(Words: John Brenner)
The time was right to rid the world
Of the serpent's filth and decay
Immaculate purity gave birth to a Son
To enlighten and pave the way
You taught us by example how to be one with the Soul
To be humble and give with your heart,
That Your Kingdom is our goal

Your blood was on our hands
But You returned to wash it away
Forgiving all who deceived themselves
In believing they'd turned You away
You left us with Your Spirit to guide us thru troubled times
But we have lost the light you've placed in us
And replaced it with lust and crime

Thank You for being there, for taking away my pain
For accepting me the way I am, for teaching me
For opening my eyes, For returning my love for You
I need You more every day, to cope with the hate and fear
I know You'll never leave me here alone

Infinite Nothingness
(Words: John Brenner)
Decisions
Are sometimes cruel
When you want to be an individual
And not another's tool

Which way does the pendulum swing?
Does it matter what the truth may bring?
Subjective viewpoints examine thin air
Objective reality only proves nothing is there

Motives
Are not well understood
Should you believe in "right or wrong"
Or in "evil and good"

Can we win in a game
That has no rules?
Can we live in a world
Of intelligent fools?
Is gray just a color
Such as black or white?
Is deceit an entity
Or just inner fright?

Is there more than
The human mind can conceive?
Or is there an answer
Beyond our beliefs?

Uncertainty
May well be the end
Another facet overly simplified
Brings Paradox again...........

Images of Darkness
(Words: John Brenner)
What's in the future?
And what's it hold for me?
Will things ever change?
I think I know

Lurking in the shadows
Something hidden lies in wait
It always seems to win
A game I'm not allowed to play

I can see clearly
That no one will be there
Least of all, you
Won't be at my side

How many times does right go wrong?
And who's the one to blame?
I pray to God the time will come
When someone will ease the pain

Is it just a premonition?
Or is it just my fate?
The long and lonely answer
Gnaws at my heart forever

It's the inevitable
Images etched in stone
A life of entropy
A death alone

Long After Midnight
(Words: John Brenner)
Frozen in a state of non-existence
This moment of pain is an eternity
A second stretched out into forever
Shakes the very frame of my soul

An eon of the present is the penance of hell
Time slowly ticks away the centuries
Another second passes, a foolish respite
Because those to come are infinity

Long after midnight, I build castles in the air
I touch and I feel them in my heart
Why can't they be real?

Everyone watches, but no one is near
All seem to listen, but few really hear
The silence is deep, yet in an uproar
And there's no escape, for they've locked the door

Long after midnight, immortality seems so true
I dream of a better time to come
For me and also for you

The battle is over but the war is not won
The evil's chasing me and I cannot run
All around me ideals are rotting away
But I cannot ever give up the fight

Poets and Paupers
(Words: John Brenner)
A noble pursuit is the search for truth,
But it brings little earthly gain
And the hatred of those who don't dare to be different,
Can freeze the heart with bitter pain

A vile pursuit is the search for wealth,
A status to debase your peers
Green flames burn hot to warm egos,
A rot that grows with the years

A lonely pursuit is the search for love,
Sincerity now so hard to find
But to reap this reward should be our goal,
Forever 'till the ends of time

Some do believe greater wealth is in deeds,
That further the mind, heart, and soul
Yet most can't conceive the true value of self,
Just a minuscule part of the whole

To not blend in with the backdrop of sin,
Brings on the hate of the masses so cruel
Their mediocrity serves to forge the chains,
That bind us drowning in this stagnant pool

Though all of perdition hate the poet,
And the majority omits the poor
Neither can deny our salvation,
Nor close the perennial door

Society's outcasts are those with the truth
Individuals in a world of 'the norm'
Shamed into thinking we have no worth
And useless since the day we were born
They tell me I've accomplished naught
And sometimes I believe it's true
Yet all of my endeavors are justly spent,
If with these words I reach you

Waiting For...The End
(Words: John Brenner)
Some have said they wished they were me
But what could I ever offer
You might say I just want attention
Only I know it isn't true

You ask why I'm so sad all the time
It's because I walk the road alone
The only One who waits for me
Waits on the other side

I can't change the way things are
Don't you think that I have tried
I can't pretend everything's all right
That would only be living a lie

How long must this go on?
I'm just Waiting for the End
For the end of my death

The truth is I'm not good enough
For someone who deserves much better
I hope that in God's eyes
I can live up to my expectations

Against Nature
(Words: John Brenner)
Yesterday I saw the flowers crying
Mourning for what used to be
And then I touched them with my mind
And saw they also cried for me

Today I saw the high sun frowning
Saddened by what I have become
No longer able to unfreeze my heart
Forever frozen until numb

Outside I found the air was dying
Stale and lifeless, short of breath
Poisoned by my thoughtless needs
To slowly lead us both to death
And all that is green has now been paled
The colors have faded, their brightness assailed
And, though I wish to make amends
The path of nature now only descends

The lonely creature of the woods are going
The way of the hopelessly forlorn
Until all that remains is myself, wretched man
Condemned to die before the morn

Ashes
(Words: John Brenner)
Lonely spirits hide behind my sight
They search the ruins of a dying mind
Dredging deeply for my will and courage
To face the future cleansing of my dreams

Piles of ashes sifting through my fingers
Wailing to the winds of remorse and regret
The only remnant of the Past and of tomorrow
A shriveled life, a withered destiny

Upon a pyre, the ruins of my vision
Are burned away, freeing them of sin
Who cares to resurrect the unremembered and unknown
When even the ashes are just a memory

The Unbearable Vision
(Words: John Brenner)
Follow me not in the depths of what is real
Into the objective vision over all
And do not join me in my misery
In my decision to remain as one apart

Deceive me not with false hopes of relief
Into believing that good can come of life
For I know that belief comes only from insanity
When I feel the pain of tortures unknown

What do I see in visions discreet
Futures unseen, paths not meant to be
Where can I find inside my mind
A means of escape from all of their kind

Frustrations
(Words: John Brenner)
Sometimes I scream late at night in my head
In vain to release the frustrations
And I find no solace in the knowledge and lore
That is at the heart of my coping with life

And though I try to be not a sinner
I am yet a slave to temptation

Sometimes I cry when I look at the world
And watch it rushing hastily by
Without but a glance at my wretched self
Unconcerned with anguish and pain

A speck in the void, a fleeting cloud on the wind
I can't preserve even a second of love
But is it too late, Lord, help me not to hate
And to show the world that true sincerity lives

One Last Step
(Words: John Brenner)
I stand on the edge of darkness, small and insignificant
Balanced between compromise and conviction
The abyss sweetly calls my name

I stare at this empty page, reflecting my future
Unable to express my inner trepidations
In hollow meaningless empty words

Who stands between me and self control
How small the straw that is the last
How thin the walls which seal my mind
How close the final episode of apathy

Spectre
(Words: John Brenner)
In the darkness of night
The silence slowly takes form
The black velvet of loneliness
Stealthily moves to envelope my mind
And I relive morbid scenes of my life's tragedies

The icy touch of regretful woes,
The spectre that is past grips my heart
Inflicting torture and deadly hindsight,
Demanding correction of my wrongs

I walk back in time on the path of despair
The memories seem so painfully real
Ever shackled thus to my present days
I reside in the shadow of depression
In the churning maelstrom of emotion
The spectre bears me along unrelentingly...

Wounds Which Never Heal
(Words: John Brenner)
Your scars remain before my eyes
Even those you choose not to reveal
Sensitive enough to yet bring tears
A burden of grief that I cannot ease

Dejectedly I sit and stare
Feeling all of my wounds afresh
Deep they reach into repressed
Feelings which I ever hoped to hide

Driven to our self-inflicted pain
And compelled to re-live again
All of our vulnerable yesterdays
Thus we cope in our different ways

Who can tell me where to hide
What will make you whole inside
Most things I know will never change
Especially not the ones we wish
I torture myself
For I haven't any answers
So in despair we continue on
Fearful of another sunrise
Of another harmful dream

Unreal
(Words: John Brenner)
Lost inside the waking world
Where all is fear and decay
Playing the fool of society
The lonely game of life

Where is true sincerity
My own emotions I can't even trust
In the web of conformity
It seems there are no answers

Never Comes Silence
(Words: John Brenner)
Here is the night
And here I am
Where I remain within the walls
Which protect and hide
My thoughts on fast-forward
To empty promises I've made myself
To a place everywhere...
And nowhere

racing thoughts no stop them please won't someone make me
laugh again I just want to sleep forever only without dreams
just black nothing but sleep never comes I reach out call out
no one is there no one hears where are you maybe I'll
never know find me save me from all choices all futures
no answers never come

I'm alone
No one watches me
In no one's thoughts am I now
Must it be as if it never were?
I can't see beyond yesterday
As I fade from your memory
So do I fade from my own
(goodbye...)

Soul Barer
(Words: Dennis Cornelius)
Why do people try to steal the moment
When my perception is what really matters
I can't think for myself
Somebody must do it for me
I can't get into that reality
Stress I feel on me everyday
Can't relax can't control my anxiety
It's hard to face the truth
I'm afraid of my inner self
Can't be who I really am

Eternal Search
(Words: Steve Branagan)
Searching for the one, the one who is to come
Will it ever happen for me?
Waiting is like staring into the deceitful winter sun
The endless lonely journey that clings to a merciless hope

I believe the moment will come
I have to believe it will happen
I believe the moment will come

Will there ever be a point that I will just give up?
Am I to walk the beaten path without questioning my fate?
If I ever get there I may not even know it
A myriad of thoughts, a plethora of forgotten dreams

...The never ending search for truth
...A nameless face in a sea of unsurmounting falsities
I must trudge the weathered path

Little Faith
(Words: John Brenner)
Why does no one question
The aspects of our reality
Yet place such a heavy value
On knowledge they do not have

Tear down the facade of infallibility
Sentient, indeed, but imperfect man
Can only create imperfect works
Thus even a book can be wrong

I have little faith in the religion of man
Repetition and rote, does not salvation create
Bright and clear I must open my mind
To unlock the manacles of tradition

Why do they fall into roles
Society insists they must enact from birth
Deviation is termed as abnormal
By those who are afraid to live

I have little faith in the ways of man
As faulty creatures we are at best
What is the difference between them and me?
My views and dreams, at least I can feel

Morning Sun
(Words: Dennis Cornelius, Steve Branagan)
Like a circle, the morning sun begins and ends
From the sight of it, I hold back always waiting
Every aspect, every possible point of view you can fathom

My unavoidable destiny
The human idiosyncrasy
It is exigent that I must deviate
From this fear of unimaginable pain

At the crossroads I seem to take wrong turns
Perfect hindsight reveals the true route
If I can learn from the past, can I become
The individual I aspire to be?

Like a circle, the morning sun begins and ends
From the sight of it, I hold back always waiting
I can continue to put off life, but how long will
It wait for me?

Fallen
(Words: Jim Hunter)
Something pure
If left undisturbed
But is it made of stone or sand?
Can it last forever?
If it falls away
Will I even understand

Things are said
To open the cracks
And begin the decay
Misunderstandings shatter
It to dust, gone, fallen away

It's hard to see eye to eye
When paths never cross
There's nothing left to rebuild
This love forever lost

Alone
(Words: Jim Hunter)
Have you ever felt alone in a crowd?
Voices all around but you didn't hear a sound
Sometimes I get lost in my mind
My thoughts are my only friends
This world filled with loveless souls
All emotions are only pretend
Two-faces are all I see
Is there any other way??
Is it me against the world?

I wonder what it's like
To feel truly fulfilled
I wonder what it's like
To feel you're needed
I cry out all my pain
but my echo just laughs at me
I'm the outcast
The lone fool
I can't laugh because the joke is on me

But I pray better days will come
When I can truly connect with someone
And break this deadened shell
For now I hope and wait for that day

People tell me
Always smile
Ignore what you feel inside
Deception
Their way of life
But I cannot lie to myself

I know this won't be forever
Real love I know you're out there
So please remember me
I'll be here waiting for you

Natural Steps
(Words: Steve Branagan)
I move on as if something keeps pulling me forward
I don't want to go too far for fear of not wanting to return
One eye looking forward, the other looking back

I wander from the external world
An impressionable soul in an inherent spectacle
A minuscule player in a monstrous entity

I stare at the palatial displays
Yearning to be a part of it
If I could fly, I would fly the infinite heavens
If I could paint, I would paint the endless skies
I take the natural steps to my destiny

The strive for immortality is awakened by thoughts of reality
For what seems like days, turns out to be only minutes
The pleasure of the soul is only an arm's length away

...Yet So Far
(Words: Dennis Cornelius)
Turning my back to the breeze
I lift my feet off the ground and I soar

With no apparent reason
I am looking for direction
For something real

In the distance on the horizon
I see the cloud it draws near

And all at once I'm surrounded
By the fear of what can never be
Why am I made to suffer

In the darkness I search for you
Groping through an eternal mist
In the daylight I have no self-control
Over wanderings in my head

I found the room
You're crying

In the darkness we found a new
Place with fear put aside
In the daylight I remember
Things I could not see at night

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