desire for recognition desire for more desire for destruction desire for stasis desire for wealth desire for sex back at the beginning...sinking, spinning.... desire for status
          The religious geniuses of all ages have been distinguished by this kind of (cosmic) religious feeling, which knows no dogma and no God conceived in man's image;...Hence it is precisely among the heretics of every age that we find men who are filled with the highest kind of religious feelings and were in many cases regarded by their contemporaries as Atheists, sometimes also as Saints.
          --Albert Einstein