The Poet Jay

Stained Glass Soul

By: Jay Adrian Jiron Jr.

In the lonely glass walls of my mind, I wait. My sorrow a burden I can never bury. Lost within a deep shelter of lost love. Moments decided second by second, minute by minute, and hour by hour. In my room, away frum prying eye's, I sit. The glow of a single candle my only friend, my only lover, my only feeling. The deep pain I feel when my hand tries to hold the candle lit
flame. But still my sorrow sits, with me, next to me, by my side. Even the candles tortured dance cannot comfort or drive feeling into my heart. I thought about yoo last night, or was it this morning, a week ago too. Your skin flashed in my mind, a split second of hope, undenied. It happened again right now, an hour ago. Your eyes staring back at me, the pitch black corner
ov my solitary hell. I tried to remember your name, but to no avail. Where are you now? What are you doing? How are you? Why did yoo hurt me? When will yoo return? Who are you? I keep forgetting myself, lost in yoo, I remember only my lips. My lips pressed against your mirror, maybe it was just me staring back at myself. Someone to kiss. Someone to love. Someone to think
about. Someone I think I helped kill. A bird just flew through my open window. I think. All my windows are closed. Have I lost what little of myself I have left. The bird landed on my hand. Pecking away at my wet palms. So many tears. So little emotion.  My stomach iz very empty, I can feel my bones waste away. Did you say something. No. Okay, just checking. Where was I? Oh
yeah, bones and hope. Maybe not. Hope was a name ov someone in a movie. Not your name. Your name is....um...well it isnt Hope. I have no hope. Even if that isnt your name. My name iz forgotten. My name iz lost on your tongue. Oh how sweet the taste of your tongue is, was. I cant remember it. Whatever it is I was thinking about. I am sticking my tongue out at the mirror. The mirror of my soul. It shattered when yoo left. Why cant I remember your
taste. No, not your taste. Your touch. No, not that either. What's my name? Your smell hangs on my every scent, or maybe thats just my clothes. I havent changed since you left me. You were so beautiful. I cant remember how I lost yoo. A lost highway. Heh, maybe not. More like a drunk intersection. Its
kinda rainy. I thinks its raining. Well it did last year. Last Year. Last Year. wasnt that the last time eye felt your lips on my lips on my face on my chest. Your name. I remember it now. It was because of the rain. The sun is gone again. It was night. I was with you. We were almost free. Almost back together. Then that drunk intersection. Um, that drunk thing. What is it? Oh
well, its gone too. Deathj decided on two. Not three. How old am I? 3? Not anymore. But I was number three in a room for two. My eye hurts. I left the left at the scene ov the drunk intersection. With you. Your hands were so beautiful. Hold the of time. We dont have much longer. Your in the drivers
seat now. Now and forever. A lost angel in my arms. You fell frum the sky. And I couldnt catch you in time. Why did I lose time. I can see it all agian. I remember. Your name. My name. We were driving home, you were driving home, we were together. our apartment was getting closer. Yoo were keeping youreye's on the road. An excellent driver, no tickets, ever. I just stared at
yoo. Loveing your every feature. Then we lost it all. in mere seconds. you died. In my arms. Why cooldnt I catch yoo. Save you. You. Who are you. Have you come to give me sum more ov those drugs. Heh. I mean medicine. to help ease my pain. My lost arms. Gone. A leg too. Gone. One eye even. Gone. I hurt. What was I talking about. Oh yeah. Nevermind.

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ClosetPhobia

By:J.J.J.

Az eye sit
think and think
brought to the brink
ov sanity horror
vanity ov a broken door
wide open
step through
wounded grin
cut me deep follow through
thinking and thinking
never drinking
never smoking
ever the lonesome dove
searching the heavens ov hell
high above
the closet closed
door lock shudder
death disposed
gloom uncover
my restless dreams
ov a shallow grave
screams
ov a sudden heart beat throb
sob and cry
for eye see the sky
on fire eye hide
my eyes wide shut
no one lied
but
still eye remain
the only blame
ov a closetphobia.
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MyLastBreath
by:J.J.J.


Burn deep under pale moon night right and wrong and midsummer nights long and
into a breathless moment ov unforgetable lustful needful things eye need not
see need not know but still yoo must show me what eye wish to feed on drink
it up and let the drip drop ov the crimson shock symbol ov our immortal love
affair incinerate and scar my inner child like smirk ov a knowing glance and
an unknowing death at the hands ov a lover crossed into eternity hold strong
the stronghold box top ov an overused understood notion ov the faceless
nameless saneless lover in the night air scare and bleed into wine glass
broken shatter into my skin deep wound ov a dead reaper moon sun filled
neverwhere ever there in the dark shadow ov my cloak ov stars hidden high
among the gargoyle stoneship ageless loveless moment to moment gasp grasping
for the air eye lost in a kiss eye shared with a dead friend on the
gravestone lover cover shield my eyes frum the sunlight bright and powerful
windchill zero degrees ov life left in the rear veiw mirror image ghastly
lastly annointed undead sparks flying and diving and striving to breathe in a
box ov wood and steel and nail and screwed tight everlasting sight gone and
darkness forever scream yell let my heated gasps swell and swirl and curl
myself into a ball ov nuthing and kiss the moonlit passage through the
heavenly gate ov fire and brimstone and follow the heed ov the devils may
care for in my souless last touch with a life gone and ever my will be lost
on a gravestone blank with none but the werd that lays there lonely and alone
a werd ov last rights to the dead not alive to fight but still eye will
reamain deep within forever never in a lost dream with that one werd on the
gravestone a scarlett letter ov a word that eye will ever see but forever
know iz the truth ov my last dying breath and last undead thought ov what eye
am and ever will be in the casket six feet deep earth covered grass
oevergrown all those centuries ago the kiss frum my first last and only true
love waz a peircing sting a bite ov ecstasy the warmness left the cold air me
and through it all the only taste ov hell and heaven and nirvana and utopia
and freedom and cast into chains for ever in my mind's eye the last sunrise
the last sunset the last taste ov warmness my own and forever woold eye have
tasted warmth only through others and forever eye woold have been one hand in
hand with my immortal lover immortal no more a headless husk ov a vengance
paid by a frightened people in a frightened tyme though eye ran away into the
deep woolds ov the night sky sun rise nearing me fearing the people sneering
my eyes bluring my mind racing my dead heart thumping the blood ov my wun and
only victim my lovers taste still wet upon my lips her undead body lay there
her decappitated head tossed into the lake her body burnt waz all eye saw az
eye ran away into deep woods ov the night sky sun rise nearing me fearing the
people sneering my eyes bluring my mind racing my dead heart thumping a final
leap ov faith for a dead man with nothing more to live for eye jumped and
fell into teh deep chasm hoping adn hoping that there eye woold be left alone
forever eye fainted and died in my own way again teh end waz not mine in the
end though az eye awoke and heard the peoples fears screaming that werd the
werd they put my gravstone the werd eye know toss around in my mind so many
centuries now but eye wait and know that my power iz growing and soon eye
agian will love and swoon with new lovers and victims to taste warmth again
like in my waking undead dreams eye hold that last bit ov hope that eye again
will see and be free to walk among the lush lands and lavish life ov my moon
dreamed lifelessness and forever denie taht which they carved deep into taht
gravestone those many centuries ago the werd ov what my last love waz what
eye am and what eye will soon be again for eye feel my power swelling and
deep in my undead heart eye hear the life ov the living calling for on taht
gravestone sitting atop the earth above me the werd ov what eye am iz what
eye am again now that eye am out ov my brief hell heaven for teh power
swirled and eye finally broke free ov box ov wood steel and nail and broken
free ov the six feet ov earth and here eye sit now staring at the moon and
stars and feeling the windchill staring at my gravestone and teh one werd
that eye knew know and will be again soon, Vampire...
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Darque Tidings
by:Jay J. jr

dark and sleek in the backlit nightmare sky shadow flames ov firey thirst
quenched seized taken obeyed slayed devoured the stars the moon the sun high
above the troubled car chase syndrome roam zone out fought lost win sin akin
to natural unatural factual habitual synthesis ov mind body soul heart bred
to laugh half hazard a qustionary sanitary friction airy dairy product gone
bad smell rotten in the womb milk dry powered louder yoo scream longer eye
yell the longer eye scream the safer my shell my home my room my circle ov
fine feline sleek dark in a backlit avenue ov disgusted trash been eaten in
my entrails sold fold cut knife straight gay happy strife bi plane sane ti
explain the need eye feed on lean on me eye'll bleed on yoo in two quick
drags ov a fag in a summer moonight sun bathe suitless griefless cancer man
scam ov spf 100 and 1 ways to say eye love yoo but be true be new nice a
slice ov urban midwest life in a small toen dying lying to the heart ov a
city born dead inbred jam in bread and butter me up lick me down drown in
forgotten lustless sorrow ov the sparrow come back to capistrano they leave
behind remind find dried and disfugured laugh out loud insanity panty wasted
for boxers briefs ours brief hours ov a song sung hung low to teh ground hear
listen seed growing under foot under pressure under ground memorable
soundescape drills feels fills my last ounce over poured sour times sour
lemons sweet and sour chicken breast worms maggot taste so sweet defeat the
feet ov a virgin cum last in a bottle strained ov innocents lost guilt found
hung jury box svore even odd numbers 10 subject to change minus a triangle
equals sumones god above minus a single thought in three mirrors yoo get the
sign ov sumones god below above below eye dont know dont care dont stare
humility modesty humblness meekness lowliness submissiveness lord retainer
commander follower chief henchmen boss employee master servant...
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