The Poet Jay

ReaL World DisordeR

Lost in a distant soil land ov forgotten words and images ov leftover emotions
best left to rest among the hate ov the bringer a death singer living a diode
life ov unmeasurable falsity and a facade ov a once open minded head trip the
wire and under see the true self inflicted pain ov a love gone awry and skid
marked to the side ov the roadblock keep moving forward to an unknown
destination when all yoo have iz a finite universe stuck between your wild
mood swings and my universe iz ever growing ever changing the rain drops acid
sick with the bloated head case ov a child in a young girls clothing wishing
that she was dead and all her shite waz over with to young be old to old to be
young lost children wandering in the woods ov disrepair stare at me longer cuz
i'm not there anymore to listen to your hatred ov growing into what yoo aren't
smart to believe in a computer fantasy land ov whores and pimps the comp crash
ov the 1990's waz only in your mind warp ahead to another frontier ov your
cold shoulder treatment fuck me well fuck yoo and your land ov the lost dead
tech machine head vapor ware and tear a new hole where your heart isn't and
all that iz left iz a shell ov a young lady that i knew yoo knew ran away frum
it and left others behind to try and find a crystal line lied to themselves
for love can not will not does not have not want not keep what there iz ov a
trashcan beggining a computer iz a toy and yoo are the child pull out the
pacifier and welcome to the real world order ov sunlight not lamplight green
grass not green computer chips grey clouds with a silver lining not grey
computer shells and silver wires yoo are now the joke and the lie and the
truth iz what yoo dream about when the real world gets to scary scary quite
contradictary how does your mind grow with cocks and smells and dead things so
swell you aren't the future just a lie living in the past hoping that the love
yoo feel iz real and not a virtual tour ov your own worst enemies....
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Electricity Sparkle and Shine

By:J.

In my thoughts ov never knowing ever thinking never growing to dark for the
last breath in my lungs ov staring out the window snowing the wind blowing and
throwing around my sadness in a sad mess ov never hear from yoo when yoo are
gone my life stops my emotions build and my heart iz chilled to the bone
marrow sparrows can fly but eye can not without yoo holding my hand holding my
heart holding my soul in your gentle caress feel my stress my loss my cross to
bear upon my own shoulder cold or frozen blood or scold to hot to the touch a
crutch dumb luck to lose yoo twice to lose yoo once to find your arms holding
me close against your heart beating in tune with my tears ov missing yoo and
finding yoo again in my arms yoo are a dream ov my never waking moment to
moment my mind flashes dashes over cold embers way ov your eyes cries ov my
name az eye run down the lightless hall ov mirrors distorting my view ov yoo
ov me ov we ov my lonesome lost world ov the grief disbelief ov losing yoo
again twice in two years to close to my heart to close to my soul yoo have the
key to my heart which yoo used and yet will yoo choose to hold still in your
fingertips let it slip and fall and shatter on the hard wood floor never is a
promise we have and kept and slept together arms protecting eachother frum the
hate and anger ov your troubles your problems are mine my problems my troubles
are yours that eye want to make vanish and make your life whole and stole my
eyes wide shut eye say eye understand and yet eye still lose pieces ov yoo
everyday eye never see yoo and eye cry and shudder to think ov where yoo are
without me a sudden red sea ov crossing the bridgeless gap ov our destiny ov
eye am yours yoo are mine we are eachother and nobody and everybody wants a
piece ov me a piece ov yoo a fool in love fools rush in eye'm no fool eye'm
just in love over my head never waz sumthin eye never sed to your cute ears ov
listening to the bad trash gutter glitter ear rings answer the fone its me on
the other end ov the rainbow glow in the dark heart wire trip the action pack
the fraction ov nuthingness no mess clean your room and my room a mess no
stress just your sweet retreat my sweet surrender ov constantly craving your
love your hugz your eye stare crazy hair baggy jean courdery shirt tummy acid
bath belly button back rub my chin stubble rumble tumble and fall into extasy
electric head  my bed my heart beat skin to skin my hands feeling thier way
around the whole ov yoo all together your touch your breath your kiss your
bites your sights and sounds ov lovers undress caress my waking dreams ov love
and friendship on the good ship lollipop pudding pop  dont ever stop dont stop
please dont stop stopless stopwatch counter top herbal crop circle heart
shaped box full ov chocalate sweetness my sweetness has a name with a jay and
an eye see minus an e add an s and see my lovers cute legs warpped around me
astound me surround me hit kik punch and ground me in my room az long az yoo
are there to share my lonely hearts club my lonliness dissapears into the
nuthingness ov loss and hold my hand down lovers lane cuz yoo and me we're
both insane...
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Your Sad & Endless Situation
By:Jay J. jr.

Eye sit and sit and talk and talk and wander my mind and wander my mind to
find tha meaning ov a lyfeless crymeless synless talk ov trash and walk and
stalk my brain my thoughts so wrong so right fight tha caution flag dropped
down the acidic rainbow bath splatter love broke open and spilled out my
heart so cold to solidify and cry tha tears my fears my long walk off a short
pier spear cutting deeper cutting steeper must reap what eye did sew waz
death and tha reaper stalking running walking gentle talking into an earpiece
metal detector full 100 proof alarm set off and snooze to lose to cruise down
tha highway ov lost lust distrust and sad not mad just depressed an emotion
eye try to keep repressed for in sadness eye sit and stare at nothing and
everything along tha fringe barrier ov madness and hate together apart it;s
10:00 pm and eye wunder where eye am  just alone by myself a solitary figment
ov lyfes imagination eye am sad and alone eye try to dream but all eye
see:hear when my eye's close are silent screams eey awake to sleep and feel
incomplete tha twisted mirror image last rites inner fights with little
ambition permission to laugh cry or bask in the crystalline glow ov my
prismatic love touched deeply and softly into your essense ov tiny drops ov
my tears upon your open hand catching my thoughts my prayers at tha altar ov
tyme lost and found in a cereal box happy meal toy surprise and tha innocense
ov my tender truthful lies eye tell myself ov tha things eye want to say to
you but to shy to reply to my own inner thoughts wanting to say eye love yoo
over and over and over till tha moon iz lost adn clear skies ov darque clouds
sky fly high with me on a wind chill drift over tha storm ov madness taking
away my sadness and in my arms az we sleep together eye dream ov you and wake
my eyes open to see yoo gone and there eye sleep alone az one az none eye
want yoo 2nite and 2morrow and next week next year eye want yoo 4ever till
tha deth ov night time mirror shade tear eye'd Dreams ov fascination with
your Sm:)e your eyes Burn deep within my Heart beats to your touch Your lips
against mine in hot embraces ov my Hand on your cheek eye seek to know and
feel and be with you Hand in Hand Dark Skies Moon filled stand grand pursuit
ov your taste in my mouth Dry with anticipation trust and believe my werdz to
yoo are filled with my Heart and Soul so Lost till eye found yoo in my Mind
my Heart my Soul my Life iz YourS...
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(created frum tha four poems "SITuationGriM" , "SADMeSS" , "Endless" &
"YourZ")


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