Always 
By Kalynn 
kalynn95@juno.com 




Rating: PG
Classification: V/A
Keywords: M/S friendship, Mulder angst, Scully torture
Summary: An argument followed by a car wreck. An apology followed by a
promise.
Spoilers/Timeline: One Breath, pre Memento Mori

Archive: Okay for Gossamer, others ask first, thanks! Come on, at
least let me know where it's at so I can visit. :-)

Author's Notes: For all I know, this plot has been written before, and
a good chance it was better, too. I don't know. All I know, is that
this plot got stuck in my head. To the point that while sitting in my
anthropology class I was making notes for this story rather than over
the evolution of man. :-) I hope that you like it all the same.

Disclaimer: Straight simple and to the point: Mulder, Scully, Mrs.
Scully and Skinner are property of FOX Television, 1013 Productions,
Chris Carter, and probably a bunch of other people. If I owned them, I
wouldn't need student loans. :-)


Always

Scully rubbed her eyes in frustration, when she opened them again it
was to see Mulder staring at her from across the small office. She
felt a rumble of anger flare up inside when she saw him open his mouth
to speak. Before he had the chance, she said, "Mulder, just stop it!
Just don't say a word."
She felt a pang of remorse when she saw the hurt look cross fleetingly
across his eyes. However, that remorse died when she saw his eyes
harden behind the lenses of his glasses. "Mulder, we've gone through
this twice already today. Will you please let it drop?"

Pushing his glasses up on his nose, Mulder considered her question.
"Let it drop? This could be an important piece of evidence, Scully.
And you just want me to let it drop?"

Scully sighed, standing up, she began to gather work to take home.
"Mulder, it's not evidence, it's a crank. It's not like it would be
the first time someone wanted to yank your chain." She had tried to be
open to his arguments the first time she had heard them, but when he
refused even to look at it from another angle they had found
themselves at odds.

Having finished packing her attache case, Scully walked toward the
door. "Where are you going?" She noticed the harsh edge to his
question, but didn't turn around.

Letting out a breath slowly, she paused, standing with her hand on the
doorknob. "Away from you, away from your stubborn refusal to see
something other than what you don't want to see." Scully opened the
door and stepped into the hallway. With a glance at Mulder she added,
"I just need some space, Mulder."

"Fine, Scully, I don't need you babysitting me anyway," Mulder
muttered, mostly to himself. However, the petite agent walking down
the hall heard his mumbled retort.

From where he sat behind his desk, Mulder listened to the echo of
Scully's heels on the linoleum floor. Once he was sure she was gone,
he pulled off his glasses and leaned his forehead down onto his desk.
In so doing, he bumped a bag of sunflower seeds that had been
precariously balanced on a stack of files onto the floor.

Leaning forward in his chair to pick up the scattered seeds, he cursed
when he hit his head on the underside of the desk. "Damn!" Giving up
cleaning up the mess, he pulled himself upright in his chair. "Why
does she always have to be right, anyway?" Mulder's question was aimed
at no one in particular, and he found himself forced to answer it
himself. "Probably because she usually is."

He had lost track of how long he sat there, motionless, berating
himself for letting everything get out of hand. Finally he shook
himself out of his stupor and decided to call Scully. Picking up the
telephone, he punched in Scully's home number and listened to the
ringing on the other end of the line. Hearing her voice on the
machine, he hung up the phone without leaving a message.

"Come on, Scully," he whispered under his breath as he dialed the
number for her cell phone.

After two rings he was rewarded with a familiar voice. "Scully."

Taking a deep breath, he replied. "Hey, Scully. It's me . . ."

"Mulder. Listen, I'm in the middle of a bunch of traffic. Can't this
wait?" The drive had soothed her anger somewhat, but it had yet to
abate completely.

Mulder sighed, beginning to regret his decision to call her so soon.
"Actually, I just wanted to say that I'm . . ." He was interrupted
when he heard the squeal of tires on wet pavement followed by the
sound of crunching metal. "Scully?" An eerie silence came from the
phone, and the only sound Mulder could hear was the pounding of his
heart. "Scully?!?" His cries were becoming more frantic when she
continued not to respond.

He flinched when he heard Scully groan softly. "Scully? Scully talk to
me!" He paused, and when she didn't respond he began to yell into the
phone. "Scully? Please, answer me! Scully!" Mulder was torn between
rushing to her side, and being forced to break the slim connection he
still had to her.

He was startled when suddenly the line went dead. Without thinking, he
punched redial and hoped that someone would pick up the little phone.
Listening to it ring, he began pacing around his desk, nervous energy
radiating off him in waves.

"Hello?"

Mulder blinked at the unfamiliar voice. "Yes. I was trying to reach
Dana Scully. I think she was in a car wreck." In the background he
could hear the chaotic noises of an emergency scene. When the voice on
the other end of the line didn't answer right away, he pressed on.
"Could you at least tell me what hospital she's being taken to?" "I
shouldn't have even answered the phone, we're in something of a hurry.
The driver of this car is being taken to Georgetown Medical, mister .
. ." The rest of her statement was cut off as Mulder slammed the phone
back into the cradle and ran out of the office.

***

Georgetown Medical Center

Mulder ran through the automatic doors into the emergency room waiting
area and headed toward the nurse's desk. "I'm here about Dana Scully.
She would have been brought in from a car wreck . . ."

The nurse sitting nearest to Mulder looked up at him over her
bifocals. Glancing at one of the folders in front of her, she
responded. "She's in surgery. Are you a family member?"

"No . . ."

The nurse looked back down. "Then I'm sorry, you'll have to wait until
she's moved to a room."

"As I said, I'm not family. I'm her partner with the FBI. No other
family member is here, and won't be for some while. I'd appreciate
being contacted as soon as she's out of surgery." With that, Mulder
turned his back on the nurse and walked over to one of the plastic
chairs that filled the room.

For the next fifteen minutes, he divided his time between looking up
at where the doctor should come from and the pay phone that hung on
the wall. He knew he needed to call Scully's mom. He just couldn't
bring himself to call her. When Scully had been abducted, Mrs. Scully
had been both his comfort when he was upset and, at the same time, a
reminder that he had failed. It still tore at his heart to remember
being forced to watch the strong woman in so much pain. A pain for
which he still felt responsible.

Rubbing his hands over his eyes, he wearily stood up and walked over
to the phone. After punching in both his calling card number and the
familiar phone number of Maggie Scully, he listened to the distant
ringing. He was shaken out of his daze when Mrs. Scully answered the
phone.

"Hello?"

Mulder hesitated for an instant, closing his eyes he leaned against
the wall and steeled himself. "Hi, Mrs. Scully."

"Fox! How nice to hear from you." Her voice was warm, until she paused
for a moment. "Fox? Wait, is something wrong?"

Concern tinged her words, and filled Mulder with even more guilty
feelings. Pushing his own problems aside for the moment, he tried to
concentrate on the woman on the other end of the line. His
responsibility was to her right then. "It's Scully. She was in a car
wreck."

"Is she," Mrs. Scully's voice shook slightly, but then regained her
composure. "Is she okay?"

"She's in surgery. I haven't talked to the doctor yet, but I knew you
would want to know."

"Thank you, Fox. Are you okay?" Mulder smiled, she was concerned about
him. "Which hospital are you at? Where can I find Dana?"

Mulder's smile vanished, and he concentrated on finishing the
conversation. "She's at Georgetown Medical. Do you want me to find
someone to come and get you? I'm sure AD Skinner would agree to that."

Mrs. Scully sighed softly. "No thank you, Fox. I'll be there as soon
as I can. You just stay with Dana, for me, okay?"

"I will." With that, he disconnected the call, and quickly punched in
Skinner's phone number. After a short discussion with the AD filling
him in on the situation, Mulder returned to his seat.

Shortly afterward, he saw a young doctor walking toward him. Standing
up, he moved to meet the doctor halfway. "You're Ms. Scully's
partner?" Mulder nodded his head, waiting on the doctor to continue.
"She's out of surgery. She appears to be stable, but that is the kind
of thing only time will tell."

"What were her injuries?" Mulder's voice was a hoarse whisper, and his
gaze remained fixed on the man standing in front of him.

The doctor nodded toward a pair of chairs next to where they were
standing and proceeded to sit down. After Mulder sat as well, he
replied. "The injuries she sustained were typical of the type of
accident in which she was involved. Mild concussion, cuts and
abrasions, those are fairly routine. The problem that required surgery
was a result of her air bag not firing. When she hit the steering
wheel, two ribs were cracked and an additional one was broken. The
broken rib punctured her right lung, that was what we operated to
correct."

Mulder nodded, his face having paled while listening to the doctor.
"When can I see her?"

"She should be moved to low level ICU after she is finished in
recovery. This is only until she is off the ventilator and awake. You
can see her then. If you'll excuse me, I'll leave word with the nurses
to alert you when you can see her." With that, the doctor stood up and
walked out of the waiting room.

Sometime later, Mulder was finally allowed to see Scully. He followed
the nurse through the winding corridors until they arrived at Scully's
room. His gaze fell onto the small form of his partner lying in the
hospital bed and without a thought he was back in the time just after
she had been returned. Pulling up a hard back chair next to her bed,
he sat beside her and carefully took her hand in his own.

He did his best to block out the familiar sounds of the heart monitor,
ventilator and other equipment that filled the room. Instead, he
concentrated on Scully's face. Memories he would never escape occupied
his thoughts. Nothing hurt him more than seeing Scully in pain or in
danger. Especially when he believed it was his fault. Which he usually
did.

Mulder found himself discovering something he had never realized
before. During their partnership, it was he who found himself
unconscious or going through emergency surgery. He had never stopped
to consider that he had the easy part, simply lying there medicated
out the gills. He never gave any credence to the fact that Scully was
the one really suffering, being forced to sit and wait.

Silently, he promised never to overlook that sacrifice again.

His thoughts were interrupted when he heard the door open behind him.
He knew without turning to look who had walked into the room. "Hi,
Mrs. Scully," his voice was almost a sigh.

Mrs. Scully's eyes fell onto her daughter, and she kept reminding
herself that the doctor had said Dana would be fine. Moving to stand
next to Mulder, she brushed Scully's hair away from her face and
replied to Mulder's comment. "How's our girl doing, Fox?"

She turned her gaze on Mulder when he failed to reply. Unbidden, tears
had begun to fill his eyes and he bit his lip to keep them from
falling. The last thing Mulder wanted to do was place more trouble at
Mrs. Scully's feet. Seeing her attention focused on him, he managed to
reply. "She's doing better. When she wakes up, they'll take out the
vent."

Mrs. Scully nodded. "Thanks for being here with her, Fox."

Mulder lowered his gaze, unwilling to meet her dark caring eyes. "It's
my fault she's here in the first place," his voice was so low, she was
forced to strain to make out the words.

"Fox, were you the one driving the car that hit her?"

"No, but I was the reason she was driving in the first place."

Mrs. Scully ran her hand through Mulder's hair. "She wouldn't blame
you, Fox. Please don't blame yourself." Mulder merely nodded, saying
nothing. "Would you like some coffee?"

Mulder looked up startled. "No. You should be here. I'll go get you
something if you want it." Mulder's words came out in a rush, one on
top of the other.

Mrs. Scully smiled and gently rubbed her hand along Dana's cheek.
"It's no trouble. She's going to be fine, I can tell. Besides, if
anyone needs to be here when she wakes up, it's you. Now, how do you
take your coffee?"

She had only been gone five minutes when Mulder heard the familiar
sounds of someone waking up in the hospital. Before Scully could
manage to focus on Mulder's face, he was out of the room summoning the
doctor. After a quick exam, the ventilator was removed and Mulder and
Scully were again alone. The relief that had filled his hazel eyes had
been replaced with caution.

Mulder sat in the uncomfortable chair and softly took her hand in his
own. Lowering his gaze to where she couldn't see his face, he felt a
single tear escaped each eye. "Scully, I . . ." He paused, unsure what
to say. "I'm glad you're going to be okay," he finished awkwardly.

Drinking some of the water the doctor had given her to soothe her
throat, she replied. "Mulder . . ." She tried, but was still unable to
see most of his face. When he finally raised his head, she was
surprised to see the tears shimmering in his eyes. "Mulder?"

He blinked, trying to get rid of the offending moisture. "You know
what, Scully?" His voice had changed into something of a flippant
tone. When she only continued to look at him confused, he continued.
"You never told me that I had it easy when I was lying in all of those
hospital beds."

Scully could see that he was struggling to maintain his composure, it
was a reaction she was quite familiar with. "How do you mean, Mulder?"

Continuing to rub the back of her hand with his thumb gently, he
continued in a shaky voice. "It's just so much harder waiting. I'm
sorry for always making you wait on me after I do something stupid.
Scully, I'm sorry about a lot of things."

"Mulder . . ."

Clearing his throat, he interrupted her. "You know what, I should go
get your Mom."

"She's here?" Scully blinked, surprised by his comment.

Mulder nodded in response. "Yeah, I called her. I never want to have
to do that again, Scully. I never want to have to be the one to tell
her that her daughter is in danger. I don't know if I could do it
again, Scully."

Scully squeezed his hand in response. "I'm sorry, Mulder."

"No," he interrupted. "I'm sorry I picked that fight with you. I was
stubborn." He started to stand and tried to let go of Scully's hand,
however she refused to let go.

"Look at me, Mulder," she said when he began to avoid her eyes. When
his gaze finally returned to her own, she continued. "We were both
stubborn. It's no different from a hundred times before. If we didn't
argue about every point, we wouldn't work as well together. If two
people were ever two opposite sides of a coin, Mulder, it's us. But in
the end we're better for it." By the end, she was slightly short for
breath, and again sought the water that would ease the scratching in
her throat caused by the ventilator tube.

Returning to his chair, Mulder concentrated on their intertwined
fingers. "But you wouldn't be here if I hadn't . . ."

"Mulder," she interrupted him again. "It's not your fault someone hit
me. And being sorry would be one thing, but your personal mantra of
guilt is something else entirely."

He looked at her clear blue eyes, and again found himself struck by
the fleeting fear of losing her, like he had before. "I know but . . .
When I thought I might lose you, just because of some stupid fight."

"It's okay, Mulder." She waited until he looked her in the eye before
she continued. "I'm okay, Mulder."

"I was wrong, about what I said before." Scully looked at him,
momentarily confused. "Scully, I need you with me. Hell, I probably do
need a babysitter, but that's not your job."

"You're my best friend. And you don't need me any more than I need
you. Besides, I'll be with you, always, I promise. Just try to get rid
of me." Scully laughed softly, and relaxed at seeing Mulder's faint
smile in response.

Outside in the hallway, Maggie Scully stood just out of sight
listening to the conversation. She smiled at the positive turn, happy
that the two partners were together. Always.

fin