Till
Death us do part
They have
shared almost everything. From the weird and wacky work that
obsesses them to the personal traumas and near-death experiences
of the paranormal investigator.
But could their shared passion for the truth ever become sexual?
Don't hold your breath, warns Chrissy Iley
The
emotion that is withheld is always the most precious. The desire
that is sublimated is always the most exquisite. There's so much
withheld and sublimated in Mulder and Scully's
relationship, it's almost part of the unexplained phenomenon.
It's an implosion, an emotional and sexual vortex that's going
on, but in a parallel universe.
It's not so much unrequited love as an unconsummated,
interrupted, constantly tested and shaken affair. Obviously,
Mulder and Scully cannot get it together and live happily, or
unhappily, ever after. That would be the end of the show. The
lingering sexual tension drives the series on. What they have is
moments that have been building since they met.
Apparent opposites, she's the scientific sceptic, the solid one,
he's the emotional, irrational, obsessive believer. But they turn
out, of course, to be a perfect foil for one another. His life is
devoid of creature comforts to allow for the
complexities of this one passion. His passion for proof comes
from his belief that his sister was abducted by aliens.
They would never have chosen each other, because they are so
different. She's analytical, he's spontaneous. They each have
something the other needs on a primal level. He sees her as the
sister he lost.
That's why their love is sometimes of a brother/sister type. He's
in outer space. She reins him in. But she needs him because she's
too analytical, too grounded. He's a free spirit who blows into
her life, forcing her to look at things she can't explain. He
needs more of an emotional crutch than she does.
But Scully was raised a Catholic. She lost her faith because of
the life she's seen in the FBI, violence, deception and the death
of her father. Mulder gives her the faith back because he's a
believer. He's religious in his convictions and when his faith
falters, Scully can give him back what he has given her.
They are always being separated. In one episode, she is so fed up
with the job that she wants to leave the FBI, and he's saying,
"I can't go on without you". Another time he wants to
throw it all in. She says, "I'd cosider it more than a
professional loss."
Up until series four, ask him the one thing he wants most, and it
is to have his sister back. But in series five, when Scully gets
cancer, the thing he wants most is for Scully to be well. She's
saved him, he's saved her, they've developed a kind of third eye.
Even in episodes when they're rarely together, they're linked by
thought and by the life-saving mobile phone encounters. Their
shorthand way of speaking is intimate and intense. Few words say
much. It's typical of their dislocated personalities. Perhaps
their most intense life-changing moments happen in phone life,
not real life.
Sure, they love each other, because they epend on each other, and
gradually they are consumed by the eroticism of the shared
struggle, even though their endeavours are often set up to be in
conflict; she to prove him wrong, and he to prove there is
something more out there, beyond her cynicism. Their relationship
has certainly been a slow burn. Initially, it wasn't intended
even to simmer.
Chris Carter, the creator, said that he wanted to avoid the
romantic tie-ins that most shows have, so he set out proposefully
to avoid it. And in some ways, you get the sense that they're
both asexual. He, who feels much more than he expresses, has a
kind of hormonal stoicism. She's always dressed in those bulky
greys and browns, muted. Even their talk is monotone.
It's not until the fifth series where he's hidind in her bedroom
and she enters her apartment, starts taking her shirt off to go
to bed and a hidden mulder says, "Keep going, FBI
woman," that there is a frisson. But it was the fans, the
X-philes, that were excited.
The fanatical online X-philes want the romance. There are several
websites devoted to "shippers", people who are
interested primarily in the relationship aspect of the show. They
want the questions asked, but they never need to know any
absolutes. All very existential. The interesting space is between
a truth and a lie. One of the "shippers" sites prints
out romantic moments of dialogue, such as:
Scully: Mulder, I wouldn't put myself on the line for anyone but
you.
Mulder: If there's an ice tea in that bag, it could be love.
Scully: Must be fate, Mulder, it's root beer.
On another "shippers" site, fans can write their own
scripts, fantasies about what might happen between Scully and
Mulder. Some of them are x-rated. The point being, because
nothing has happened, speculation is intriguing, obsessive even.
Even when nothing is happening, the romantic moments guide says,
"Mulder and Scully spend most of the episode apart, but only
physically." Mulder comes nearest to showing his love for
Scully in the episode when his sole driving force is to find a
cure for her cancer.
For once, his voice is quavering, his face tear-streaked. We see
her limp instead of capable. He sits on her bed. They are holding
hands. He kisses her gently and it's always most powerful when no
words are being spoken. They often stare at each other. The
longest time they shared one of their exquisite stares was a full
10 seconds.
He can't take her illness. She's the one who's supposed to be the
doctor. Their dynamic is that she's the one he can rely on. He is
much more dependent on her than she on him. In the cancer
episode, he goes to her in the middle of the night, falls crying
at her bedside, his head resting next to her. He can't take the
possibility of living without her. He returns to her the next day
and admits having sat with her that night.
Admitting his need for her by sayind, with painted laughter, he
hoped if he was making the wrong decision, she'd talk him out of
it. He kisses her on the face once again, but closer to her lips.
Her cancer goes into remission and, if this was a normal show,
you'd expect a continuation of this kind of emotional intensity.
Well, perhaps they flirt more, as a kind of vague acknowledgment
of what has gone before, but that's it.
I asked David Duchovny about this. Didn't he think it was
confusing for people to believe something was about to happen and
then it never did? "So, Scully had cancer and we never talk
about it. So many things have happened. Still, Scully doesn't
believe. It's the suspension of disbelief that we've earned.
Mulder and Scully kissing is easily something that you can never
refer to again; people won't think they've got to grow in their
relationship, they have to finish that kiss. We never raise those
kind of expectations."
This is because there are so many suspensons of disbelief going
on, and in each new episode you don't think of the questions
asked and dismissed in the previous one. It's as if all hopes are
raised only to be dashed. All lover's stares are started, never
to be finished.
They are their own world. Even so, they rarely call each other by
their Christian names. Mulder: sounds like smoulder, sounds like
mould, sounds like something that's at the same time anticipated
and decaying.
Scully sounds like "Good dog, Scully. Good girl." When
she is called by her first name, Dana, you sometimes wonder who
it is. Dana is a bimbo name. It's the name of people who win the
Eurovision Song Contest. Scully is the terrier that doesn't give
up. She's never wimpy. If there's blood, it's nothing, and she
can dissect the yuckiest, slimiest and crawliest thing without
flinching.
Interestingly, she has been voted sexiest woman on TV several
times over. Yet she conforms to none of the usual pouty, blonde
breathlessness. She's the sexy scientist, cleverer than the man
in the series.
In the film, though, it's more obvious, traditional,
boy-saves-girl stuff and their relationship is altogether less
subtle. She's more simpering, he's more testosterone, but not so
much so that fans of the TV series would find it unrealistic or
that things have moved on beyond the point of no return. They all
know that point will never come.
In a way, it's very pure. It's never going to happen, so it's
always going to be beautiful. It's always going to be longed for.
Questioning the truth of their relationship and existence is as
much what drives The X-files as the existence of abducting
aliens. Just as we want to know we are not alone, we want to know
that in a parallel universe, true love exists - and it's Mulder
and Scully who love each other.