Vision: the night is dark, but i and only i know
its not dark enough. i am calm. fear is coming. i wish i wasn't alone.
i'm sad- too sad. something large and heavy starts thrashing on my window.
its so loud that i can't hear myself think of what i could be. the
window finally gives in, it shatters to pieces. the blinds are still
drawn. there is nothing now but a dead frightful silence. nothing could
break it but what follows. a cold dark cloud seeps in and rushes at me
so fast, like two blinks. i am surrounded by screams of so many people,
screams of their deaths, torture, and ultimately their predestined death.
it all feels so painfully physical. the clouds heavy and thick, freezes
my skin to near immobility and my blood to crimson crystals. sore long,
stiff and sharp quickly stabs over my heart and into it my heart feels
incurably heavy. its beating starts to lag and then stab beating. then
it feels shrink and withered. used and forgotten. the screams are so loud
and long and fill my ears and mind. then there is a solitaire voice from
all the whole load of others that seems to whisper, but is screaming just
like all the others. it stands out like white on black and feels like the
freshest death. then i know that that scream comes from me and me
alone. my heart beats one more time, as if it were a tease- and then
all is frozen.
Dream: don't remember quite all of it, but i have had it a few times.
the living room at my house is dark, its night, i think i am watching tv,
then my mom comes and shuts it off and say i need to hide. i think i am
really young right now so i go and get onto the washer/dryer, and i think
i know who i am hiding from: indians. maybe mostly the chief. the i see
him, but then i don't, you know how dreams are. and i go back to the living
room after i think i hear a bunch of indian sounds (stereotyped). and my
mom is there and she's pointing out the open backdoor screen and the night
sky is out there and i see all the stars in the universe all put together
to look like the united states. that is about all that i remember.
Dream: my dad and i are sitting in front of the tv i think at night and we are sitting really close to each other and the screen. dunno what we are watching, then i see a grayish bright shining from the hallway through the darkness and my dad is the closes to the hallway- so i asked my dad fearfully "are they [aliens] coming?" and he leans over and looks and leans back and says cheerfully, not worried "yep" so i'm scared but get up and look and i see them coming and they somehow have children's faces.