25.march.99

Good Day, Reppie,

Can you elucidate  some topics?

Can you talk in more plain way about second part of your note on the Tuesday March 23, 1999? (And about first part probably too).

(Of course I have some suspicions but sometimes you want to be sure.)

For example my first notes lack irony. But my last notes are full of it (as I think).

It's true there is abominable - to make a joke and after that be asked: "There was very funny but now would you please to explain some things to me."

I am unable to make my mind are you serious or not. I think there must be tokens (signs) of one or another kind, because stark irony by itself may stick both sides. (I hope my own writing is transparent and people haven't any misunderstanding.)

That is why ancients wrote fables for smart guys and morals after it for such guys as me.

One writes on one level and other - on another. Many people write directly and about simple things and many - very intricate. For example: I always have two concurrent wishes:

1 To talk turkey. This thing I like and this - no.

2 To make to feel reader something what I keep in my mind but not calling things by their names. For example - of course I wanted to make you smile by the word "promiscuous". And if you see funny things, which occurred unintentionally - it is also good.

By the way I think that Internet is the most "promiscuous" thing after life. I can talk about it for hours. I never found what I wanted but I often find other very good things. I guess the whole life is artful mixing promiscuous opportunities and fastidious taste. If you have only former - this is dirty, and if you have only last - you have nothing at all except yourself.

There are many people (including Internet) who may be either funny or serious kind. But they are all the same unresponsive. Especially this concerns authors. Many people either extraverts or introverts. Extravert can lack wish to express themselves, and introverts may be good writers but in their ears are taps.

I'm certain in any branch of human activity must be appeal and must be response. If you have these two things you will never needed any weeds. (Conclusion from this humdrum: I will do my best to make appeal and to give response, Amen.)

But talking about your note: You know there are such art pictures - you scrutiny them closely and see still life but when you take some distance - you realize this is portrait. I have read your note first time and thought what a platitude! When I was reading once more it I tried to answer on the each sentence. But after accurate reading, I found out this text can be interpreted differently. When I was reading it for the first time I was tuned on the ordinary odd set of diary thoughts of the ordinary American.

But after that I have got an idea: I from time to time use elementary composition and literature tricks. Chances are that some people know them far good then I.

One of my favorite heroes is Sherlock, so I looked on your URL. It was geocities. And geocities have many chapters where diarists can be. Do you remember "The Adventure of Musgrave Ritual"? Sherlock told there, you must replace you on the studied person's place and make correction about his mental level.

And when somebody is able to understand what was written by me, then I have chance to wait from him not primitive writing.

And about SoHo: I chose it partly - because Sherlock sent there Watson when he became to him a bore, and partly - because I wanted not only to tell about my life but to make it in funny and readable way.

 By the way it seems to me, your tongue is a little bit dirty. Why so?

I feel you have strong emotional impulses but I don't know what is their origin. Probably it can be discovered in your archives but your recent entries gave me no key and in your last notes you don't harp much about one definite thing for long so your journal is a little bit a sealed book to me.

Deducting from Tuesday March 23, 1999 note (1975 - you are in the school) I can suppose you are 29-41 years old. But I don't know about you anything. Many of girls place their photos, bios, list of likes and dislikes but you have nothing of it on your page. Why? (For example I have even two my photos on my page).

And I interested what kind of literature you read. I understand you read Niztshe, (probably Freud).

Talking about games. How about tabulation your fave computer games? 

Have you any questions about me?

I even tried to find you on the www.diarist.net but I was unable to find your nick in the list.

And I have another scruples: Ancient China sage, Confuciye said: "It is very difficult to seek for black cat in the dark room, especially when she is not there." It's probably that I must read these notes on the principle "as is". In that turn I would remind by myself one gunman from Mignifiest Seven, who continuously tried to find out real reasons don't believing in simple ones. He liked to say: "Ok this is on the surface but what is under it?"

Best Wishes, ColdHeels.

PS: Your provider is "isaak" and it's a pleasure I feel when I am looking at my visiting statistics and see you.

By the way how you can keep so high traffic? Can you advice me any good thing about it?

(I have little access time. As matter of fact I am in the net from 5 to 6 AM when the master of login (as I hope) peacefully sleeps).