Tuesday, March 9, 1999. 14:19.
Sometimes I think I'm destined to fail in life. Don't know why. Here's the thing. My car went bust and now I can't go to work, school, or go out and see people. Doesn't that suck royally? Hopefully it will get fixed as soon as possible. Otherwise, I'm out of a job, I'll fail school, and I won't get to see Amy, John, Chrissy, or anyone else. Times like this I wish I didn't leave my Nintendo at John's. Oh well. As if I didn't have enough to worry about. Now I just want my car fixed and my dramatic video project done. That's probably too much to ask, I just know it. Well, I suppose before I complain too much I better shut up.
Didn't mean to bother anyone with this, just had to get that off my chest.

Saturday, March 20, 1999. 00:57.
I tell you what, I am one hard workin sonuvabitch. I been gettin up at 5AM to go to work to do transition. Most of the time it sucks. I hope it's good money. School has been givin me shit for not wanting to go on co-op. I would like to tell them to suck it, but I don't think that is possible. Now, since I been up for 20 hours straight, I'll stop there.
Didn't mean to bother anyone with this, just had to get that off my chest.

Friday, March 26, 1999. 23:14.
What kinda stuff would I do just to do it? I mean...would I walk on hot coals just to say that I've done it? Now, there are lots of things I've done that I kinda regret doing, but I can say I've done them. But that doesn't really mean shit. Now there are one or two things I've thought about doing just to say that I've done them, and when the opportunity came to do them, I passed. My mindset was...why do this just to say that I did it...when I can do it later and have it mean something or be more of an experince. The things I have done just to say that I did them are were sometimes cool, but sometimes verrrry stupid. Word of advice kids: if you're gonna do somethin just to say that you did it, make sure it's not somethin stupid. Let me address another thing. People need to understand that I can't always succeed in stuff I set out to do. Objectives are not always easily reached. Especially with me, especially when it comes to girls. That's not to say I don't try to acheive goals. I do. That's not to say I'm not afraid of the consequences. I'm not. I don't know of anything I'm afraid of. I mean there's stuff that makes me nervous, but nothin I fear. Now, the recent thing I set out to do of which some of you are aware I did not do. My excuse? "I have nothin to lose by sitting on this problem for awhile." Some others disagree. That's bound to happen, a lot of people disagree with me. Another excuse? "Doing this could change me back into the soulless recluse I used to be" But this little problem I set out to resolve will resolve itself, most likely through no action of mine, though it is possible I will take initiative on this one if it gets bad enough. Maybe it will affect me, maybe it won't. Maybe I'll lose my soul again, maybe I won't. But I do know that my life will be different by the end of the year.
Didn't mean to bother anyone with this, just had to get that off my chest.