Losing a whole year
I remember you and me used to spend the whole damned day in bed
Losing a whole year
Lying in your room we'd lay like dogs
The phone would ring like a joke that's left unsaid
Rich daddy left you with a parachute
Your voice sounds like money and your face is cute
But your daddy left you with no love
You touch everything with a velvet glove and
Now you want to try a life of sin
You want to be down with the down and in
Always copping my truths
I kind of get the feeling like I'm being used

And now I realize you never heard
One goddamned thing I ever said
Losing a whole year

Took your stuff and put it in the basement
When I found out what the smile on your face meant
I've seen you pop that check
Craning your neck at my car wreck
It always seems the juice used to flow
In the car, in the kitchen you were good to go
Now we're stuck with the tube
A sink full of dishes and some aqualube

I remember you and me used to spend the whole damned day in bed
Losing a whole year

And if it's not the defense then you're on the attack
When you start talking I hear the Prozac
Convinced you've found your place
With the pierced queer teens in Cyberspace
When you were yourself it tasted sweet
But it sours into a routine deceit
Well this drama is a bore
And I don't want to play no more

I remember you and me used to spend the whole damned day in bed
Losing a whole year

***NARCOLEPSY (Jenkins, Cadogan)***

I'm on a train, but there's no one at the helm,
And there's a demon in my brain starts to overwhelm,
And there it goes, my last chance for peace,
I lay me down, but I get no release,
I try to keep awake, I try to swim beneath,
But still I find this narcolepsy slides,
Into another nightmare.
And there's a demon in my head who starts to play,
A nightmare tape loop of what went wrong yesterday,
And I hold my breath 'till it's more than I can take,
And I close my eyes and dream that I'm awake,

I try to keep awake,
I try to keep awake,
But still I find this Narcolepsy slides, into another nightmare.

I read dead Russian authors, Volumes at a time,
I write everything down except what's on my mind,
Cause my greatest fear is that sucking sound,
And then I know that I will neer get back out,
And there's a bone in my hand that connects to a drink,
In a crowded room where the glasses clink,
And I'll buy you a beer and we'll drink it deep,
Because that keeps me from felling asleep,
How'd you like to be alone and drowning,
How'd you like to be alone and drowning,
How'd you like to be alone and drowning,
Still I find this narcolepsy slide slide slides, Into another nightmare,

Keep awake. Keep awake, Keep awake,
Still I find this narcolepsy slides...

*** SEMI-CHARMED LIFE (Jenkins)***

I'm packed and I'm holding,
I'm smiling, she's living, she's golden and she lives for me,
She says she lives for me, Ovation, She's got her own motivation,
she comes round and she goes down on me,
And I make her smile, It's like a drug for you,
Do ever what you want to do, Coming over you,
Keep on smiling, what we go through. One stop to the rhythm that divides you,
And I speak to you like the chorus to the verse,
Chop another line like a coda with a curse,
And I come on like a freak show takes the stage.
We give them the games we play, she said,

I want something else,
to get me through this,
Semi-charmed kind of life,
I want something else,
I'm not listening when you say, Good-bye.

The sky it was gold, it was rose,
I was taking sips of it through my nose,
And I wish I could get back there, Some place back there,
Smiling in the pictures you would take,
Doing crystal myth, Will lift you up until you break,
It won't stop, I won't come down, I keep stock,
With a tick tock rhythm and a bump for the drop,
And then I bumped up. I took the hit I was given,
Then I bumped again, And then I bumped again.
How do I get back there to,
The place where I fell asleep inside you?
How do I get myself back to,
The place where you said,

I want something else to get me through this,
Semi-charmed kind of life,
I want something else,
I'm not listening when you say, good-bye,

I believe in the sand beneath my toes,
The beach gives a feeling,
An earthy feeling,
I believe in the faith that grows,
And the four right chords can make me cry,
When I'm with you I feel like I could die.
And that would be all right, All right,

When the plane came in, She said she was crashing,
The velvet it rips, In the city we tripped,
On the urge to feel alive,
But now I'm struggling to survive,
The days you were wearing, That velvet dress,
You're the priestess, I must confess,
Those little red panties, They pass the test,
Slide up around the belly, Face down on the mattress, One,

Now you hold me, And we're broken.
Still it's all that I want to do.
Feel myself with a head made of the ground,
I'm scared but I'm not coming down.
And I won't run for my life,
She's got her jaws just locked now in smile but nothing is
all right, All right,

I want something else,
To get me through this,
Semi-charmed kind of life,
I want something else,
I'm not listening when you say,
good-bye.

***JUMPER (Jenkins)***

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend,
You could cut ties with all the lies, that you've been living in,
And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand.
I would understand,

The angry boy, a bit too insane,
Icing over a secret pain,
You know you don't belong,
You're the first to fight, You're way too loud,
You're The flash of light, On a burial shroud,
I know something's wrong,
Well everyone I know has got a reason, To say, put the past away,

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend,
You could cut ties with all the lies, That you've been living in,
And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand, I would understand.

Well he's on the table, And he's gone to code,
And I do not think anyone knows,
What they are doing here,
And your friends have left, You've been dismissed,
I never thought it would come to this, And I, I want you to know,
Everyone's got to face down the demons,
Maybe today, We can put the past away,

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend,
You could cut ties with all the lies, that you've been living in,
And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand,
I would understand,
I would understand...

Can you put the past away, I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend,
I would understand...

***GRADUATE (Jenkins, Cadogan)***

Can I Graduate,
Can I look into the faces that I meet,
Can I get my punk-ass off the street,
I've been living on for so long,

Can I Graduate,

To the bastard talking down to me,
Your whipping boy calamity,
Cross your fingers, I'm going to knock it all down,

Can I Graduate,

Echo fading, We can't let go,
She goes walking by in slow mo',
Sell your Heart out for a buck,
Go on, Fade out, Before I get stuck.

Talking to somebody like you,
Do you live the days you go through,
Will this song live on long after we do,

Can I Graduate.

Can I look into the faces that I meet,
Can 1 get my punk-ass off the street.
Won't die on the vine I want to knock it all down,

Can I Graduate,

Echo fading, Candle blow,
Did you flash out long ago,
Cross my fingers, I don't know someone poked you down below.

Can I Graduate,

Can I get my punk-ass off the street,
Can I look into the faces that I meet,
I'm not waiting here for you to die,
Will this song live on long after we do.

***HOW'S IT GOING TO BE (Jenkins, Cadogan)***

I'm only pretty sure that I can't take anymore,
Before you take a swing, I wonder What are we fighting for,
When I say out loud, I want to get out of this, I wonder,
Is there anything I'm going to miss,

How's it going to be, When you don't know me,
How's it going to be, When you're sure I'm not there,
How's it going to be, When there is no one there to talk to about,
How it's going to be, 'Cause I don't care,
How's it going to be,

Where we used to laugh, There's a shouting match,
Sharp as a thumbnail scratch,
A silence I can't ignore,
Like . . The hammocks and the doorways we spent time in, Swing empty,
don't see lightning like last fall when it was always about to hit me,
I guess that is how it's going to be.
Want to get back in again,
The soft dive of oblivion.