Here are a few of my poems!

Disappear! Damn you!

I don't know why I do it, but I think about you often.
Not in the casual way either, that other way.
I know. I have to stop it.
It's not sane.
But somehow you keep appearing in my dreams.
And I am mystified at why I am attracted to you.
I wouldn't ordinarily be.
Yes, that's it. I must be suffering from some unknown illness.
Yup, my good judgement must have been corrupted.
But thinking that doesn't stop me imagining you..
Near me always, comforting me, laughing with me, holding me, loving...
Okay. I've had it!
Leave! Damn you!
Why does your image haunt me?
You annoy me.
You torment me.
You anger me.
But you amuse me.
You tempt me.
Damn, you complete me.
But I can't have you.
So stay out of my head.
Ooooh, just disappear or something!!

The Mask I Wear

Oh, you didn't know?
This is a mask I wear to protect myself from all of you.
Yes you.
But I don't hurt me, you say.
But you have 100 times 100 times.
you have made me remove my mask and cry.
But nothing even matters you say.
Everything is everything I reply.
It's the small things that hurt the most.
Those constant little nicks that drain me.
But you don't know.
I know.
I learned how to put on this mask years and years ago.
It's been too good to me.
I can't let it go.
And the battle rages within.
Show them I cry!
No, I can't I cry!
Do it! I say!
Why? I ask, there's too much pain.
It hurts to take off this mask.
It leaves me exposed, open, and vulnerable to you.
I tremble, awaiting your judgement.
Now I ask, will you still love me when you see me?The Mask I Wear

My Undercover Lover