august, 13 1998

i've done journals my entire adolescent life. more recently i've noticed that i barely have the time for them. since i get on here a lot i decided to put my thoughts here on my homepage. yesterday i went to take my driving test, which is required to get your license here. well i flunked. if you had a huge school bus blocking the way where you are going to parallel park and you still are forced to park there is almost impossible not to hit the schoolbus or the curb..i picked the curb and that disqualified me. so next week i'll be dragging myself down there once again to take the test. hopefully i won't have a schoolbus around. i guess i should be in self pity today but i'm not going to. my younger sisster and brother got to go to knetucky kingdom today and i had to stay home. my friend elisa and i were going to the tanning bed later but her car broke down so i'm stuck here until she can get it fixed..i would swim in my pool except if i drowned or stubbed my toe no one would be around to help me. so i'm updating my site and watching talk shows. haha..that's all i choose to say right now..



august, 15 1998

what day is it? summer is so moody. at first you are all pepped up for it to come, making a little money, getting yourself chilled, and before you know it school sounds like fun. this summer has been a cruel one. for the first 2 months i slaved at mickey d's. don't ask why. then my 'rents decided to move to indiana. suddenly my whole life changed. i had my own room, and inground pool, a new school, new friends, everything. the only thing that stays grounded around here usually is my webpage. the rest of the summer we have spent cleaning up this new house. the people who lived here before hadn't cleaned it in two years and they owned 150 + cats. my only motivation was the swimming pool. today we had bulldozers all over our backyard tearing up the groudn to make drains. wow was this entry boring or what. well i've had a rather borign day..we couldn't swim b/c of the damn bulldozers. always some orange yellow obstacle in my way isn't there. (ie. schoolbus, bulldozers.)


august 18,1998

help me god. on days like these i believe sometimes that either god doesn't exist or he likes to torture women. in this aspect i mean P.M.S. is maybe someday having a baby worth this once a month pain that inflicts us? i'm starting to question this as i'm sitting here with a heating pad turned up full blast hopeing that it will ease my wrenching muscles that are giving me pain. a few moments ago i was writhing on my bed and i popped two ibuprofen in my mouth which unfortunatly have not kicked in yet..then i thought i should get on here and maybe it'll take my mind off of it for two seconds. the other nite i went to a nite club with all of my friends and we spent an hour making ourselves up. ugh..there is this putrid smell coming from the closet which is making want to hurl..we just moved into this house so some smells still are lingering and it just wasn't that noticable..when you are on your period your taste, smell, and vision get very sensitive..that can either be beneficial or in my case pretty damn crummy. ok i'm finished bitching about this...i think i'll go try and sleep it off.


august 19, 1998

ahh..ibuprofen rocks..yes..i can't feel my legs..that's how great this stuff works..siblings..i have a brother who just turned 13 and a sister who is 15..last nite jason came over in his truck and asked me to go riding around with him. who would of thought that one comment would cause such caos? well it did..my sister found out and she ran to her room crying..then i asked my mom if i could go and she said not until i meet him...ugh..i can't even have a guy friend without everyone screaming about it. anyways my annoying brother is putting me on a time table to get me off of here so i'm splitting before it gets erased..


august 20, 1998

Yipee! i only say that word under one condition. When something extreamly awesome happens, whihc is what happened today.. i not only passed my driving test i kicked it's butt!! i made a 95% baby!! i did everything perfect, including my parralell park! awww yeah. last nite i went over to jason's house and helped him wash his truck. (don't ask me why) he's going to be a cool friend i think. we have fun. so my license picture as always looks like an alien took over my body and totally deformed my face..hehe..not actually..just a little strange looking. my mission isn't complete yet. i have to get insurance, which means i'll have to put myself in a uniform and agree to work for a company, and second i have to dust off my deposit book and start adding money to it for a car. what's the point of a license unless you have a money-sucking set of wheels to go with it huH? well that put me in high spirits...i think i'll clean my room or something..haha..yeah right.


august 22, 1998

bonjour...last nite was so groovy..my friend elizabeth came over and we went to a horse barn that was down the road and got to chill with the palaminos..it was scary at first but fun..when we got back jason and jacob wanted to take us cruzin'..i found out jason wanted to go out with me and jacob liked elizabeth..haha..so we went to this major hick party..their main entertainment was listening to some twangy country song...i started tripping. we left and hit the road for a while..when we got back we sat in our backyard and talked for awhile..it was nice..today we were suposed to go clotes shoppoing but instead we're swimming, riding horses, and washing floors..sounds interesting huh? well adios muchachos..


august 29, 1998

hola..first week of school ROCKED!!! i'm so proud of myself for getting my butt out there and talking to people. i decided that this year i wasn't going to hide me. i was going to put my insecurities aside and jump onto the floor so to speak. well i made 2 senior friends who are very sweet. one of them took me to the game last nite and i met a whole bunch more people. i had a blast.. my sinuses are acting up so i can't talk at all today..my throat hurts so bad.. jason is in one of my classes. his dog rex got sick and he had to take him to the vet..he couldn't' find him for like 2 days so he figured he was dead. i feel sorry for him.. he came over last nite and we talked for a little bit about things. i love my classes all except pre-calculus. i am completly lost and i have no hope. but neither does a few others in there so i don't feel alone about it..i made rebel singers whihc is a cool jazz singing group and we get to perform all over. isn't that exciting? we're singing grease right now and we're putting on a play M*A*S*H*. this morning i'm going over to erica's house to watch the original movie. i hope it's good. well i think elizabeth is here!! later..