Mother

Dead heat
Is what I saw on the screen
When I heard the phone ring
I was writing a story when
I heard the worst news of my life then
I hung up the phone
Felt so all alone
Mother why
Did you have to die
I cried 
All the tears out of my eyes
I felt paralyzed
I couldn't think
I couldn't eat or drink
I didn't want to live
But I knew I couldn't give
Up on my dad
Because he had to be more sad
Than I about the dreaded event
I questioned life and then
For the next 6 months I was a zombie
I could not see
A reason to go on
But I had to be strong
Cause I knew my dad couldn't take it if I was gone
I loved my mom
And I still do
Mother, always know that I love you
I hope you
Are in heaven
And gettin'
To spend
Time with little Michael
Sometimes at night I'll
Dream that you're still here
Helping me face my fears
I dream you're here
To wipe away my tears
Mom, I love you
I wish I could hug you
But all I have is memories
Of being down on my knees
Praying that you'd make it through 
The cancer that inflicted you
You'll always be in my heart
Whenever I think of good, I always start
By thinking of you
Mom, I love you


21 months later
And I still love my mother
No other
Woman can do what she did for me
And the rest of our family
She gave me love and guidance
Taught me kindness and patience
I hate this
The fact that she's not here
Has sometimes brought me down to tears
She'll always be in my heart though
And that's enough to know
To live my life now
Even if sometimes I just don't know how
Mom, thank you for everything
Thank you for bringing
Me into this world
You raised me, another son, and two girls
Thanks again
Goodbye for now, but hopefully I'll see you again