*Finished 7/99*
Music (6-7/99) Words (7/99)
You make me feel so small
like I am nothing at all
but I can't let you believe
you have an effect on me
I wish I were more bold
so I could see your soul
but you won't let me through
so this is all I do
I talk to myself...
I believe me, then I doubt it
then I write a song about it
I push you away...
I pull back, but I can't stay
no other way around it
You tell me I'm no man
but I've done all I can
I gave you everything
and now I've lost my wings
Like a fly in the air...
I might die, but ya don't care
who you tryin' to front to?
tied in a knot...
I might fall, but I won't stop
I never said I want to
Things have changed for the best
dreams rearrange loneliness
words you say hurt me less
and I pray to God I survive the rest
it's on your shoulders now
you have to show me how
my pride is all I have
until you take it back
You leave me alone...
you can't even use a damn phone
and now I never see you
what'd you expect...
I'm not about to break my neck
with everything I've been through
Things have changed for the best
dreams rearrange the loneliness
words you say, they hurt me less
and I pray to God I can survive the rest
shatter as they often do
nothing left but solitude
spoken lies ring so true
and never will I die for you
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Background:
Lyrics: Hmmm. I'll get back to you about that.
Music: Part of this ditty is frighteningly similar to a Natalie Imbruglia unreleased b-side. Some of it is kinda fonky. The lyrical arrangement on the verses really mirrors the musical arrangement for the most part. It's kinda in-sync. Most of it was actually all written specifically for this song (i.e. no cut and paste jobs)... except for one part I inserted (a previously written jobby) at the end of the choruses. hehe... 4 total guitar parts, more or less. It's around 3:45 long.
