Subject :  the day I lost my teeth (and the day we missed the train)  
   
Date : Fri, 08 Oct 1999 12:00:47 PDT  
   
 Hi All 

regarding the Paddington train 'disaster' (if the sleazy tabloids are to 
be believed - I still don't trust them especially after the 'Diana' 
incident) I passed by the station via the tube line at 11am and didn't 
notice any hullabaloo though the tube was slightly faster on that day. 

The internet company thing is competitive here, as you may know in the UK 
here people pay for every phonecall as opposed to a flat monthly rate, so a 
lot of free to join internet companies have started up who make their money 
via advertisements on the webpage and from a cut on the phoneline charge. 
I've joined up to a few of them, they are of varying quality, e.g. too busy, 
too popular. One company www.lineone.net has started giving away freebies, 
at the moment you get a free cdrom (a cooking one, 3D graphics, and an 
educational game) plus a 10 UKP voucher with www.amazon.co.uk the online 
bookstore. I mention all this because this book company sell all bestsellers 
for halfprice so I've just used my gift voucher to buy 'Hannibal' on 
hardback for $2.40 NZ ! 

Anyway this email is to tell you about the operation in detail. At the 
moment I am still resisting temptation to put my tongue into the empty hole, 
earlier in the day I showed my tooth to everyone here. 

On Wednesday the appointment was for 8:30am. The night before I didn't get 
much sleep, I was pretty optimistic, not worried, but something was keeping 
me up. My greatest was not so much pain but because I gag quite easily so 
can't keep my mouth open for long plus I'm not very good at swallowing pills 
! 

I got up at 6:30am and had a shower. Gelled up the hair spikely, packed my 
bag with my current reading material : "In The Name Of The Rose", some 
videos : Jackie Chan's "Mr Nice Guy", "Marathon Man" and "Jason And The 
Argonauts".  When I was there one week earlier the nurses said to being in 
videos as they ones they have there they have seem umpteen times already and 
are sick of them ! 

The ones they have are : A Bugs Life, Antz, Batman And Robin, The Jackal, 
Conspiracy Theory, A Life Less Ordinary, Shawshank Redemption, Best Friends 
Wedding, Men In Black, Heat... 

I mention to the nurse I do have Marathon Man and then she cackles, the 
others don't know it so I decide against bringing it outas Sky is looking 
pale. 

I got on the tube and got off at Chancery Lane and took the bus up Greys 
Inn Road halfway to Kings Cross and got off at the Eastmen Dental 
Instutitute. When I got into the surgery there was an guy from Napier there 
Tim, an english girl Sky and an irish guy Paul (who looks like Marc Almond 
and Alan Cummings [Bernard and the Genie] - he didn't appreciate the 
comparison). 

Me and Tim were pretty relaxed about it, though Sky was a bit fretful. At 
9am the dentist who was still wearing his mask called me 
in in is european/german(!) accent ! 

The dental nurse was nice and friendly and both tried to calm me. I was 
determined to were a brave optimsitic face on all this ! 

My bottom left wisdom tooth was growing horizontally so they have to 
remove it by cutting it out (which is normal for that one) and remove its 
upper partner. 

I lay back in the chair and rinse my mouth - darnit and to think I had a 
wad of mints before I came just for their benedit ! He gave me five local 
anaesthetic injections, they were very slight, a needle or pin would've 
caused more sensation ! I didn't realise it at first until he told me. he 
put two on the bottom jaw, two on the top, then one on the roof of my mouth. 
We waited for a while then he stuck a rubber bit into the rightside to keep 
my mouth open of course. Then they started... 

The nurse put a paper bib on me and plastic goggles and told me to rest my 
arms down my front. The nurse put in that thin suction hose to suck up the 
blood and saliva The dentist started work on the bottom tooth first. He has 
that "scalpelly" thingie and dug and scraped away at the base of the tooth, 
slicing the gum and flesh from around the tooth, I couldn't feel any pain 
but judging from the textual resistance it felt like running a knife through 
thick porridge. 

After a minute or so of this he gets out his drill and starts drilling the 
tooth into bits and pieces, now I know why I have the goggles as bits of 
white calcium hit the top of my mouth and/or fly out of my mouth. No chance 
of keeping it sigh. I look at the hose coming out of my mouth and thick 
syrupy blood dragging its way through it. 

At this point the nurse says something that I'll never forgot - "Relax". 
At this point I actually realised that my body was tense so I relaxed - and 
all felt better, no more anxiety about gagging or choking !  Over the course 
of the next ten minutes I kept reminding myself to relax and this helped 
immensely ! 

Eventually he had drilled the tooth away and naturally a bit of my jaw. 
Then the worst part, getting stitches !  I didn't realise what he was doing 
until I could feel the tug and the thread against my the left side of my 
open mouth. I think I got about 2-3 stitches. I then had a brief respite and 
then he started work on the top tooth. 

He stuck in a metallic sort of wedge which he put between the top wisdom 
tooth and the one next to it. And tried to prise it out but despite a bit of 
tugging - no luck. So he asked the nurse for the forceps, the nurse stopped 
tending the hose and while I thought I'd start coughing, choking up blood 
wishing she'd get back asap, she went looking through the cupboards. She 
found it and the dentist reminded her to change her gloves. At this point I 
was a bit anxious but it was all ok. 

Last night I scared myself as I looked in the mirror and saw how far back 
my lips could no and I was worried whether my lip/mouth would tear to 
accomodate any large instruments. But somehow he managed to get it in and 
like the whole operation he told me what to expect and what he was doing (to 
which I would reply with a lilt of the eyes or dragging up a syllable or two 
from my throat) and in this instance he warned me that I would feel the 
pressure, then he started tugging, lots of tugging, tugging tugging tugging, 
(yes a lot of fuckin' tuggin') it wasn't pain I felt, well perhaps acute 
pain as I could feel the downward pressure. 

He kept pulling then started twisting then finally I heard the crack as it 
came lose. In came the hose for a little suck and clean and it was over. 
With grateful relief I closed my mouth. I couldn't believe I'd kept my mouth 
wide open for ten minutes ! Well it wasn't quite over, I had to open my 
mouth and then bite down while he put a gauze over the wound which I'd have 
to hold for 30 minutes. 

I got off the chair and made it clear I would want my teeth back. 

I then went into the lounge of the clinic, waved to the nurses and Sky who 
was still looking quite pale, also there is an aussie girl Carmen there. I 
sit down still chewing on my gauze watching the blood soak into it and edge 
itself into my vision (if I straing my eyes to look down low enough), I sit 
on the lazyboy and in my dinner jacket pretend I'm Sherlock Holmes. 

This is when the testing begins, I need to wait until the anaesthetics 
wear off then tell them when I get pain. there are four ratings : 

NO PAIN - i.e. no pain 
MILD PAIN - pain I am aware of but would not doing anything about 
MODERATE PAIN - pain that I causing me to lose concentration while reading 
or watching television and what I would normally do somthing about. 
SEVERE PAIN - pain that causes me to change my behaviour 

While I sat Paul came in then twenty minutes later Tim came in, then we 
got down to the business of watching some videos ! Tim wants to watch 
Marathon Man but all us guys (as you know girls aren't into videos) decide 
to watch movies we ain't seen so we see Bugs Life ! 
WOW what a great movie, had me laughing so much I almost popped my 
stitches,so funny !  I especially loved the outtakes at the end, I really 
lost control and the pool of saliva and blood at the bottom of mouth started 
dribbling out the sides of my mouth ! 

This excess liquid I kept swallowing but started feeling queasy so had to 
spit it out into the rubbish. 

Afterwards we watched the Jackal which was so-so as I'd seen it before, 
great soundtrack though. It was three hours after the operation and right on 
the bit when the first Lady is about to get shot at that I realised I was in 
moderate pain. the closest thing I can drive comparison with is a an 
insufferable itch that you feel scratching it will fix it but it won't. It 
wasn't pulsing or going boom-boom-boom but I decided I'd better go up. 

With the nurse she read out the idea of the study which was to study the 
efficiency of some new painkillers. Now was the hard part, I had to swallow 
2 pills, a normal one and a capsule, they could be placebos so may have no 
effect. I fought my fear and managed to swallow them right then and there ! 

Then every 10-15 minutes they would ask me up and ask me to gauge whether 
the pain had gone up or down. PLus I had a stopwatch for me to stop when I 
THINK or KNOW the pain is depleting. The returning feeling was good as there 
is a slight chance that when removing the lower wisdom tooth they may severe 
or damage a nerve which would've meant no more feeling ever in my lower jaw, 
left side of my tongue etc. But I was fine, but had to remind myself to 
touch my front teeth with my tongue as I explained to the nurse that my 
tongue sometimes wanders... 

It was pretty much bang on an hour (unfortunately during the first action 
scene in HEAT) that I realised that I wasn't getting that naggling niggling 
feeling and the pain had gone ! 

Anyway the movie was awesome, if you want character development you got it 
While watching it I kept saying to myself how good it was ! Michael Mann the 
director also did Manhunter (the precursor to Silence of the Lambs) and I 
could see similarities in the movie. Also had some William Orbit in the 
soundtrack ! 

Three hours after the first test I was allowed to eat so we could help 
ourselves to bread, yoghurt, spaghetti, soup etc and other soft foods.  Tim 
and I ate like kings so much so that the nurses were getting a bit peeved, 
don't they realise we're both backpackers on a meagre nourishment balance ! 
Plus we also had TV and VIDEO ! 

Anyway we had to stay for six hours after the initial pill-swallowing so 
they could monitor us every hour, so eventually one by one all our fellow 
patients would leave. Paul stayed on long enough though to force us to watch 
Emmerdale. And we all watched in silence the BBC news bulletins for the day. 

At six o'clock I phoned home to tell Emma I'd be late and she told me we 
had won tickets for Netaid this coming Saturday!  That made my day !! I 
always enter myself and her into all these competitions and it was nice it 
paid off. The tickets are worth 35 UKP or $105 NZ each. 

Eventually my time was up and I was painless. So headed off into the night 
farewelling everyone with a stash of soup packets in my jacket ;-) 

Got home and caught up with John and Andrew playing music so we jumped 
around like kids to acid house in his room. Andrew and I compared wisdom 
teeth, his was much bigger than mine. I felt sorry for Paul as his teeth 
like mine had to be broken into bits to remove so he had no souvenir. 

I fell asleep while on a strange high. I downed one more painkiller just 
to see me through the night just in case. 

heh heh heh the next day I was fine though had a slight bruise on my cheek, 
but nevertheless called in sick at work and spent the day shopping. Bought 
several bits of cool music including a cd I got for $3 which is currently 
valued at round $150 so I hope I can sell it for that much ! 

That night I caught up with Emma at the Barbican for the australasian film 
festival so saw Amy which is a great movie, so many emotions it wrenched up 
in me, though this is a problem the critics picked up on saying that the 
movie 'does not know what it wants to be'. 

Today I came to work and looking my most pathetic tried to get out of 
work, I log on and receive an email from an old old dear friend. 

Next Wednesday I head back to get the stitches out and get my cheque for 
$210. 

yeah life is good. 




p.s. tell me if you want the uncensored version ;-) 

 



Subject :  NETAID !! (and more teeth-scapades [sic]) 9th October 1999  
   
Date :   Tue, 12 Oct 1999 11:41:06 PDT  

   
Hi all 

thanks for your feedback about the "teeth" episode, this Wednesday I'll go 
back in to get the stitches out. Looking into the mirror the bruise on my 
left jaw is yellowing now. I get a bit of throbbing pain now and then which 
is bearable, my fault for trying to eat food that requires me to open my 
mouth more than one inch. 

One thing I forgot to mention after the operation was the fun I had 
sticking my finger into my ear. The anaesthetic of course had taken over my 
whole left side and very slightly affected my left eye, and how I tested 
when anaesthetic was wearing off was sticking my little finger in my ear and 
getting a funny sensation. My finger had feeling but not my ear. I got Sky 
to do it and she went 'eeeewww' especially after she pulled out the contents 
of her ear.  Pretty soon everyone else was joining in with the gusto you 
would pick your bellybutton lint with. 

Anyway resuming the past few days' events, on Friday I worked late and 
wanting to get an early night found a party in full swing so I sat down and 
had a little to drink and eat. Got to bed quite late so wasn't looking 
forward to the concert as I knew I'd be tired. 

Got up early at 7am and helped open up the hostel, strangely enough I felt 
pretty good, I had a stash of current cds I'm listening to : 

Black - The Accused 
Kate Jacobs - Hydrangea 
Dove - Don't Dream It's Over 
Groove Armada - At The River 
Abba Teens cd 
Gay Dad - Joy! 
... 

Today there was an all day acoustic festival at Spitalfields which amongst 
a multitude of other artists Black and Kate would be performing, hoe 
annoying !  Also I knew I would miss Donna Summer as well. She was in town 
to promote her new single as well as appearing at the MOBO (Music Of Black 
Origin) Awards which was actually bringing in a lot of r'n'b artists into 
town. 

At 11am I took off to have a shower, popped a painkiller just in case, 
went to Portobello Markets to get a present for someone, I cutit fine, and 
the item wasn't there, rushed to the staion and met up with Emma and her 
friends Simone and Jess. It was at 1:30pm that we got to Wembley Stadium and 
met up the girls other friends Maxine and a south-african girl who I'll 
refer to as Sag. 

Doors opened at 3pm so we headed down Olympic Way with 1000s of othesr, I 
pointed out my workplace to the side. The sky was light grey but I wasn't 
too worried if it was going to rain for some reason, must be the painkiller 
or something. Oh yes I also drank plenty and ate a lot before coming as I 
knew that if all worked out well I'd be in the middle of a big crowd and not 
able to leave my place to satisfy my thirst, bladder or my stomach without 
difficulty. 

At the stadium which has a capacity of 72,000 there are about 10 
entrances. The girls went to turnstile D and Emma and I got to B. We waited 
in line sitting on the conrete with about 300 people ahead of us, in this 
time I went to go to the loo and passed 2 banks of portaloos which were 
inundated with women. At the end I found one that the women were using as 
well but all the guys were just walking in anyway so it was all fine - I 
thought it was good for the women to see how bad male toilets are as well ! 
(Though with men it is normally self-inflicted). 

Eventually we all got in ok, piped music kept everyone's hopes up and 
recurrent announces of the acts produced squeals from the crowd for George 
Michael and Robbie Williams (of course). 

We got in real quickly at 3pm but then had to wait for the others girls to 
get through their door so we wait twenty anxious minutes while 1000s of 
people came through the doors. I couldn't resist. our door was at the back 
of the stadium so when we got in I walked onto the pitch and looked the 
whole length and breath of the stadium and it was an amazing site. Though 
I'd always imagined it had a bigger field but in fact it is just a soccer 
field with a large dirt border around it with a width of perhaps ten metres. 
Naturally there is an amazing amount of seating, starting low and reaching 
high into the heavens. 

When the girls catch up with us, the three aussie girls seem to be bushed 
so sit down in the back left corner of the stadium, a bit far from stage cos 
they could've got closer, but oh well ! Luckily Maxine wants to get way up 
front as well so we talk Sag which is short up with us. 

When I first go in I could look down and see the front stage barrier so 
could've got right up front. Now it was impossible but we managed to find a 
great place almost right in front. If you see the concert, we are twenty 
metres in front of the left big picture screen. With my height I was able to 
see the whole concert comfortably barring the odd drunk englishman walking 
by. 

It was still an hour to go so we sat down and had a chat about what we 
were doing here and lots of talk about music. Maxine really liked 80s music, 
she is from Trinidad so I had her stereotyped as being into r'n'b - shame on 
me !  Everyone now and then people would step over, stand on our fingers, 
brush my hair as they walked by, we leered at the typical english blokes 
grinning like baboons with bottles of beer under their arms knowing that 
they would have to go 'pee pee' sooner of later. On stage Paul Oakenfold was 
playing tunes which were typical feelgood crowd fare: Primal Scream - 
Loaded, some perfecto label stuff, Marc Almond - Jacky, Bassomatic - 
Fascinating Rhythm, Massiva Attack, Dancing Queen, which all got the crowd 
into a good singalong mood, you know what I mean... 

On the screens there were netaid, amnesty etc ads, some were quite 
shocking and graphic so you'd never see then on television. One ad was about 
gun violence whose theme song was "he Ain't Heavy He's My Brother" which got 
the crowd singalong ok.  As we looked around the seating still looked a bit 
sparse which made me think it hadn't been soldout. Besides who would be 
extravagant enough to shell out for a $105 ticket !! 

Finally we all rose to our feet in "antici-pation" and then Iman and David 
Ginola came on to introduce : 

The Eurythmics 
They came out in combat gear and full band and started off with their new 
single 'I Saved The World Today'. Nice crisp guitar by Dave Stewart and 
Annie was in great voice.  Now we were all wondering which of their many 
hits they would play, I was hoping they would not play 'Sisters Are Doing It 
For Themselves' which to me is musically boring an I don't like 'message' 
songs too much. Luckily enough Annie sung the first few words of "Missionary 
Man" and we all went wild ! They've pretty much dropped their synth sound so 
everything had a rock and heavy guitar edge to it. Annie was in f**king fine 
voice !!! It was as if she never went away and left the music scene (which 
she did for a few years). The sound was crystal clear, her voice was as 
recognisable and strong as it ever was !! 

Next they did "There Must Be An Angel" then "Sweet Dreams". Both were 
great live. I've been getting sick of the latter as it's overplayed plus 
perhaps a bit too sequenced for me, but these versions really rocked, excuse 
the pun. 

This marked something that I would notice through the whole night -EVERY 
knew the bands and every knew the words; the teenage girls half my size to 
the chainsmoking 40ish ladies to the left of me. 

After a 15 minute break to setup up the next band was Catatonia. I was 
looking forward to this basically to hear "Road Rage". There are some big 
music sales at the moment so I picked up the album so knew the lyrics pretty 
well now. Cerys the lead singer came out dressed like a flower power child 
with a red/pink fishnet top as well as a big heart on her belt and a smaller 
one upon her heart. They would keep it safe so "The Ballad of Mulder and 
Scully". Like the other concert there were plenty of alien balloons in the 
audience as well as a smattering of welsh flags - a very proud people ! 

Then "Dead From The Waist Down", which Maxine and not many people like cos 
it's a very insipid limp song with weak sentiments but I couldn't help being 
carried away by the joke of it all and sang heartedly along. "Road Rage" was 
stunning, a great...no wonderful absolutely amazing song with an awesome 
chorus which everyone was singing loudly to. I was glad I could do so as 
well as I knew the lyrics this time round ;-) Looking around me I could see 
everyone was totally focused. I would've liked them to do "Londonium" 
('London never sleeps, it just sucks.....the life out of me...') but perhaps 
because of its reference to Paddington Station so they did the ballad 
"Strange Glue". 

By now it was getting dark and I was worried about my photos which would 
either be too dark or the stage lights would get in the way. 

Next up were The Corrs who were disappointing. They were announced by Gail 
Porter an irish tv persenter, the crowd reception was a bit cold for her, 
possibly because twice she's said she'll never 'get her kit off' for another 
mens/lads magazine but did it again anyway so lost a bit of respect. I don't 
like The Corrs' second album, too poppy. "Only When I Sleep" came first 
which prompted a big singalong as they are firm favourites. Next was cool, 
it was an instrumental jig whose name I can't recall off the first cohesive 
album, it was great ! Everyone was jumping up and down and dancing and 
smiling ! Then "What Can I Do" then "Everybody Hurts" (cover of REM song) 
which is an irritating song but everyone enjoys it. At this point I took 
time to admire Andrew Corr, everyone loves her and as you can see on their 
live performances on videos she always acts seductive and sexy but with her 
makeup tonight she looked almost skeletal. I woflwhistled anyway...couldn't 
help it, got caught up in the moment. They finished with another singalong 
"So Young" which I don't like. 

There was a bit of spit now and it was a big wait maybe 20-25 minutes. To 
entertain ourselves a lady next to us felt faint so had to be carried off, 
he friend who was in front of me whom I was leaning against and kept rubbing 
against...ermm...because her backpack was against my chest went off with 
her. 

Eventually the got back just in time for I think Ronan Keating to 
introduce George Michael... 

Without a doubt this was the most loudest collective female shriek I have 
ever heard !! M ears were bleeding. No matter what he's done or got up to in 
toilets and tabloids they still love him, the bag lady  in front of me was 
all giddy and held her palms to her cheeks basically the whole way through 
his set. 

After the announcement we chanted for 5 minutes, why was it taking so long 
?!?!?!  Eventually there was movement and we saw a lot of people crowd onto 
the stage, I guessed correctly that they were the London Community Gospel 
Choir. They were all dressed up in african and colourful clothes, the beat 
started and the eight or so dancers started dancing and they started singing 
"Outside". This went on for a while while the dancers made their way to the 
right of the stage in front of us and kept dancing under the large screen. 

The choir move away from the centre of the stage and took their places on 
the steps at the back, as they moved we could see behind them a black 
leather chair with its back to us. Of course it turned around and I screamed 
along with everyone (I am sure Freud, that screaming therapy guy [forgot the 
name] and various other psychologists would say something about it) ! 

The song segued into "Fast Love". George and black fly glasses on like 
Bono's, tight black leather pants and a black sheer shirt. His last album 
did so-so in New Zealand, I somehow gather it did better over here. Next he 
did "Brother can You Lend A Dime" which was a great black song. He did a 
wonderful rendition of "Father Figure" !! Totally faultless, once again I 
look around and everyone is swaying and singing along, especially vocal on 
the chorus. Sounded much more dynamic than on record. 

For the last song he asked us all to help singalong as the beginning beats 
of "Freedom 90" started. During his set George was very dynamic running 
across the stage and getting up to dance on a podium much to the delight of 
the crowd. He was the one everyone was waiting for !  Unfortunately I have 
heard that his performance won't be broadcast as he wasn't happy with it. 

As the roadies cleared away his stuff I recognised a hunched maori figure 
cross the stage, it was Allan my ex-roomie who'd just got back from New 
Zealand last week. 

After another fifteen minutes there was a scream of 
"WEEMMMBBBUUUUURRRRRRRLLLLEEEEEEEEE!!" as Goldie screeched along the stage 
to announce Bush. you could feel a collective ho-hum across the crowd but it 
was all very polite as we applauded and clapped to them, a vast contrast in 
volume compared to previously.  They are ok and I like 1-2 of their songs 
but it sort of broke the type of artists we'd already had on. 

The lightshow was faultless, Gavin the lead singer came down front and got 
a bouncer to carry him as he played above the crowd, normally this would 
cause people to make a grab for him but when you see this on tv you'll see a 
girl right next to him vigorously covering her ears !! 

They did "Machinehead" (?), "Swallowed",[another song], "Comedown" and new 
song "40 Miles from The Sun". 

The end couldn't come soon enough for most people, though there were a few 
moshing teens in our crowd. 


While waiting for the next act I saw a blonde girl pass me by with a 
concerned look on her face. She returned five minutes later with a bouncer 
pointing back the way she came. Pretty soon a medic was called. And we had 
to move aside for a stretcher. Not sure it was either a guy was drunk and 
being obnoxious or having an epiletic fit and being obnoxious or just a 
typical english white guy being an typical english guy - I couldn't tell 
just a lot of lolling around and flailing limbs ! 

Now this came to a crucial moment in any concert :  with the passing of 
the stretcher there was suddenly a vacuum in the crowd and in a fraction of 
a second we all quickly moved to fill it and in the process making new crowd 
mates. 

After two minutes of rustling we managed to settle ourselves comfortably 
when four metres in front of me I saw a girl go down probably due to 
exhaustion, everyone around got the bouncer's attention and pretty soon we 
had to make way again as they hauled her out. 

Once again another vacuum and this time after a minute we heard a shout of 
"move out of the way!!" and everyone instinctively moved apart as within a 
fraction of a second three more bouncers hauled out a drunk guy with limbs 
lolling about. 

Eventually after all this excitment Anjelica Huston came on (to no 
applause cos no one knew who she was) and introduced David Bowie. 

He came on to deserved applause with just a keyboardist in the back as he 
sung "Life On Mars". Very nice and slightly different intonation on some 
words. The rest of the band came on and to everyone's chagrin he plugged his 
new album and sung a new song "Survive", "China Girl" with a harder edge 
then old glam tracks "The Pretty Things are going to Hell", "Saturday 
Night". Ending with a driving "Rebel Rebel" which made up for the unknown 
songs, only just, though we could tell everyone was slightly peeved - 
something the media made note off. 

The then brought out a whole bank of white speakers and then Bryan Adams 
came on with his drummer and guitarist all in white and started the most 
blistering rock set - straight into "Summer of '69" then without pausing for 
breath going into "When You're Gone" (no Mel C joining him unfortunately) 
and "Cloud Nine" then finishing with "The Only Thing That Looks Good on Me 
is You". I hate the last song...well all of them...but the energy of 
performance was enough to put a smile on my face. On the big screen I 
noticed he had bags under his eyes, I originally put this down to tiredness 
but later I read that just hours earlier one of his roadies his committed 
suicide. 

During the next setup we got a simulcast from the Geneva concert and 
caught a bit of Bryan Ferry's set. When he did "Let's Stick Together" we all 
sangalong !!  Man it would be good to see him live. 

The bank of speakers left the stage and next up was the Stereophonics. 
Around me I saw lots of people with their tshirts and young girls screaming 
because I have to admit, the lead singer is very goodlooking in a rugged 
sort of way !-) 

They started with a new song I didn't know, then "The Bartender and The 
Thief" which reminds me of Deus in that the song just drives drives drives 
along and is great ! The last three songs were the singles :"Pick A Part 
That's New","I Wouldn't Believe Your Radio","I'm Just Looking". 

It was definitely a great set and as they left the stage a few people left 
as well. We then had a simulcast with New York which was just starting up to 
join in to the Wyclef Jean and Bono song which is quite catchy. 

Finally it was the headliner act that people wanted to see Robbie Williams 
!  As is normal they started with "Let Me Entertain You" which musically I 
hate. He is definitely a clown performer and had us all going and following 
his commands to jump on and down and bounce etc. Everyone went wild !  Emma 
sitting at the back said it was a sight to behold seeing thousands of people 
jumping in unison. Next he asked us to singalong with "Strong" which Emma I 
had heard on the radio a lot so knew it well. Instinctively during the 
chorus we all pointed to him (if ya know the song you'll understand). 

Next was "No Regrets", "Old Before I Die" then "Millennium", which I never 
liked too much as it jumped around a bit too much (!?) but seeing it live it 
really hit me right here. If you see it on tv you will see that during the 
chorus he got us all to wave our hands which certainly looked cool so I took 
a few photos. 

Finally it all ended at 10:30pm, we'd been on our feet and jostled for 5 
1/2 hours. Sag took off earlier as she had to get a train, so Maxine and I 
went against the flow of people and found the other girls who were content 
having been close to the snackbar and toilets and we took the long 1 1/2 
hour journey home. 

The concert was well worth it - I liked the cross section of age groups 
and the fact that all the youngums around me knew every band and sung their 
songs.  If you see it on tv you will see a sign that says "WE MISS YOU 
FREDDIE" we were about 3 metres to the left of it, also a sing that says "WE 
LOVE YOU ROBBIE" we were 4 metres behind it so you may see me very slightly 
;-) 

check out some other reviews : 

http://www.nme.com/reviews/reviews/19991011101022.html 

http://www.dotmusic.com/reviews/live/October1999/reviews11691.asp 

On Sunday slept in and while Emma went to a bookstore I went to Brick Lane 
and got some cheap batteries, bubble bags for cds, toothpaste. ALso checked 
out the new art gallery and shops and some indian sweets. Met up with Emma 
and took a shortcut through Carnaby street. On Oxford street I saw my very 
first skinheads and also some at Carnaby Street - though these ones had hair 
but had Skrewdriver tshirts on (I think I will risk life and limb one day 
and get one of those tshirts). I nervously walked us towards bustling Regent 
Street and headed to Wong Kei's as we hadn't been there for a long time. 

We chowed down, my mouth was hurting as I couldn't open my it very wide so 
I ate chinese porridge and won ton soup. There are music sales on so I went 
to HMV and got some videos. 

It was ABBA weekend on channel 5 so we rushed back in time to watch the 
ABBA movie which is based around their tour of Australia and a funny 
documentary of Bjorn Again. 

It was pure relief as I lay my head to rest that night... 


 

Subject :a grand day out at Windsor Sunday 19th June 1999  
   
Date : Wed, 13 Oct 1999 06:31:33 PDT  
   
  [this is a belated email] 

...as luck would happenstance, Emma's boss' mum lives in Windsor so they got 
special privilege on the tickets so they ended up 4 spare tickets which they 
gave to us. 

Emma asked along her friend from Hobart Fiona and after a few posers we 
grab Justin who has lived at the hostel with us for months. 

On this day I think there was a rugby game on at Twickenham so this 
morning at Victoria Train Station there was a Guinness booth set up giving 
away small glasses of the stuff, I down one then grab out tickets. It was 
round 10am as we bundled onto the westbound train. 

Emma had bought a new piece of clothing - what, I can't recall, I was 
formally dressed in my standard black trousers and sparkling white shirt. 
Like the other two we had a bag of food, snack, cameras,books etc 

On the train trip we get talking to some americans who are off to 
Chessington fun Theme park. At the station the clouds are out and it's a bit 
grey but no rain yet. 

My memory is a bit flakey but as I recall the ceremony starts at 3pm. As 
we walk up the main hill Emma buys a plastic Union Jack flag. At the top 
there is a line of about 100 oldies with their deck chairs. We don't worry 
as it shouldn't be that busy as we have our tickets. 

We go into a 'quaint' little cafe and get some breakfast. Lots of eggs and 
bacon !! Then we go for a walk around Windsor village. It's a nice quaint 
place with cobblestoned roads, old shop fronts, crooked houses and narrow 
streets, which are always spoiled by lots of tourists and even more so today 
! 

We walk around and get a few snaps, lots of opp and salvation army style 
shops here but I've no time to look for some rare musical bits and pieces. 
It is still slightly overcast. 

At one point Justin and I need to take a leak so we follow some signs from 
the main strip and lead us past a graveyard with tv vans and satellites set 
up next to them. 

Some photos we take are of a famous crooked cafe/building and a town hall 
whose balcony which was held up by 8 columns, but the authorities suggested 
1-2 more columns so the architect (Christopher Wren ?) put up 2 more columns 
in the middle but don't actually support the balcony ! 

At about 1:30pm we decide to line up we see the line and start walking 
down it...down...down...down...down...down...down...going down to the bottom 
of the hill, PAST the train station...then past the bridge... 

There are supposedly 5000+ tickets and it feels as though we just walked 
passed everyone with them ! 

We got to the end and quickly made mental estimates as to how long it 
would take up to get back past the train station, up the hill, to the front 
gates. It looked promising. 

From our position we saw literally hundred more people (mainly oldies in 
their Sunday best) walk past us dragging their small chairs and picnic 
baskets. At one point the queue turned back on itself and it was amusing 
seeing the people who had just walked out of the station and drop their 
jaws! And we thought we were all unique ! 

In half an hour we moved about 20 metres, it didn't bode well, a further 
quick calculation revealed it would be very tight, typical for me anyway so 
I took it in my stride, though the others weren't so blithly unaware. At 
least we weren't in the same boat. What would they do ? Optimistically I 
hoped they would hold up the ceremony as there would still be thousands of 
disgruntled people left outside. 

With an hour to go all of a sudden the queue moved, and when I say moved I 
mean it moved. Everyone ahead started running ahead and so did we as we 
quickly stuffed the remainder of our half-eaten sandwichs into our mouths 
and grabbed our bags from the pavement and followed. And then it stopped 
after 50 metres. Yay, getting closer we thought, the family (well the female 
members of some family) that were behind us before were now several metres 
behind. We chewed our food more slowly and safely now wiped the sweat from 
our brows while other people fanned there grandparents. 

We were now past the train station and nearing the bend in the road 
uphill. Looking up we could see a parade of colour and of course plenty of 
Union Jacks. Sky was gloomy and it did spit a bit. 

Then once again without warning the queue started moving again, real fast, 
again. While I was giving my legs a good workout I was worried about all the 
oldies around us until a short greyhaired woman was coming up by my side ! 
(This is no joke, she was actually keeping up with me !!) The latest jaunt 
brought us closer to the side of the castle now and we could see all the 
crowds and other commoners filling out the streets and pavement and I felt 
blessed. 

We found out the reason for the mad queue rush was that there were seven 
queues but of course with the large influx of people all queues had blended 
into one several metres down the line so the guards and stewards started 
sorting everyone out. 

So with 30 minutes to go we all managed to reach the front of the gate. As 
I recall they didn't bother checking out stuff but we had to walk through a 
metal detector. 

There are seven areas for the public, six of them were inside the castle 
and we had tickets for the seventh which is right outside one of the main 
exit gates of the castle. It is a bit of a hill so we walk up a bit 
surprised by how little people there were actually. The girls stop early on 
and plonk themselves down but Justin and I continue up the hill right up to 
the gate and find a good place there so quickly call the girls up with us. 

At this position we are on the thin strip of green near the gate. Everyone 
else here is settled with picnic hampers and blankets, some with mini tvs. 
We settle down to eat some snacks and then I'm off like all the other kids 
here, rolling down the hill and getting grass stains and knee burns, and 
like other noseyparkers I am looking through the servants quarters windows. 
The castle walls are studded with rocks and are warm to lean back and lie on 
to combat the chilly breeze. 

I love crowds and getting lost in them, much to the chagrin of everyone 
else I know so from the hill I look down the slope towards the main road and 
soak up the sounds and colour and movement and excitment. We all have a good 
laugh as an italian stallion type guy is standing on his chair to get a good 
height but then breaks straight through it !  ho ho ho ! 

Eventually the main cars go by, the bride goes by in a Rolls with a very 
large windows on the back. When the ceremony starts the speakers all around 
us fail so we're left in the dark. The people with tvs and radios are okay 
though. 

I spend this time walking around and peering over someone's shoulders and 
more rolling in the grass while the other three loll around. 

At one point a choir breaks out in the church and so outside some people 
break into song ! In preparation we see a coach drawn by horses and a nice 
complement of footmen. (Cue cameras !) 

Eventually it all finished to great whoops of anglosaxon joy so we 
prepared ourselves. I sat atop Justin shoulders with him and my camera, my 
idea was to take a photo when they exited the gate then try to take a photo 
as they approached and when they were right in front of us. 

Well I got a photo when they left - why did they drive so fast ? Anyway 
when I got my camera out I realised it had turned itself off after being 
idle for too long, I quickly got Justin's camera again but the flash was 
still charging.......... 

Suffice to say the photos didn't turn out well at all. When I watched CNN 
on the net later if you look closely you will be able to see me when the car 
leaves the gate to leave the castle, I am the person in white on the 
rightside of the road, you can't miss me cos I tower above everyone ! 

We took a few more photos as everyone started to depart, we took some 
photos of some drunk castle staff talking to us through a top window. 
Naturally there are some festivities happening but Justin and Fiona head 
back to London. Emma and I decide to walk down and cross the bridge over to 
Eton. It is a quaint place when we reach the school outside we bump into 
Claire Van Copenphagen who used to live at the hostel and a friend of hers. 
We had actually been in a Cat shop earlier and I sort of fleetingly 
recognised her from behind but wasn't sure. 

We join them for a walk and head to a pub and get some dinner. I tentatively 
order a burger but they have no buns left only bread so I go for it, which 
is one of my worst decisions ever. 

It was getting cold so we all jump on the train back home, still plenty of 
people about, ribbons and streamers still line the roads and in the station. 

enough of that place. 

 


Subject : catching up with Kate !  
   
Date :  Fri, 15 Oct 1999 11:02:26 PDT  
   

Hi All 

here's a few highlights of the week. 

On Wednesday I returned to the dental institute to get my stitches out. I 
got there early as it would've been close as I had to rush to work right 
afterwards. 

I got to the clinic at 10:10am. Waited to 10:40am and then 

 
 

one minute later (!) I was out of there. I enquired as to a copy of my teeth 
xray but it would prove to be too expensive. 

My mouth is feeling better, I can't quite open my left mouthside very wide 
without a cramping feeling but I can eat okay now. Though with my tongue I 
feel where my teeth used to be and basically feel two deep pits, yucky ! 

Plus food gets stuck in them, but when I suck it out it feels a bit like 
pus or some yucky tasting syrupy solution. 

From there I walked five minutes to King Cross and marvelled at St Pancras 
building and station. It looked maginificant at this time of day. 

On Thursday I got the day off by doing a swap with a workmate. During the 
morning I did the laundry and pottered around the room and listened to 
Kate's new album about three times. When I first heard it I liked some hooks 
but I really believed I wouldn't be able to get into it. 

But by the end of hearing it this morning inca tidy room with sun 
streaming through the curtain I was singing along to every lyric (no matter 
how kooky they were). It's been a while since I've had the time and joy of 
listening to a whole new album (as opposed to a single) and having it 'grow 
on me' like the old days. 

in the afternoon I check out some music stores and caught up with Nina after 
her Great Britain trip, she was feeling poorly due to food poisoning and was 
looking more pale and withdrawn than normal (;-). Nevertheless we braved the 
chill and walked across nearby Kensington Park to possibly the worst 
exhibition (houses of parliament) at the Serpentine Gallery across Hyde Park 
and along Piccadilly road to Waterstones. A new five storey bookstore near 
the circus. It was shite. 

Nice and big but no video or music section (even though most sections in 
bookstores don't do that well anyway) plus just lifts and no escalators so 
most people would have to walk up all the flights of stairs ! 

We were here to go to the Marc Almond book signing. He has just released 
his autobiography which I had preordered via www.amazon.co.uk using one of 
those gift vouchers ;-) Snarf snarf 
[ahem, in fact I just joined on about 10 more times so now I have 100 UKP 
worth of book vouchers, I've just ordered about five just now as well, 
mainly graphic novels. If there are some rare or UK-only books you want then 
ask me] 

I left Nina at 5pm to meet up with someone and then I returned at 6pm 
after walking around town. It's certainly getting darker earlier now. hard 
to believe in a few weeks time I'll be totally wrapping myself up in the old 
black jacket and have mismatched gloves on. 

When we caught up again there were a few new enlightenments : 
- Marc's signing would be on the sixth floor 
- it is actually a reading/interview session 
- you needed a 4 pound ticket to get in 
- last tickets have just gone 

We were pretty (and) dejected but decided to hang around. 

Over the next hour more and more Almond freaks would arrive. Okay not 
really freaks, just some of them, some people looked totally normal. 


Matt who Nina arranged to meet turned up late. The line went down three 
flights of stairs. A pool of ticket-less people were gathering as well. To 
cut a long story short, there were spare tickets and these went to the 
people waiting the longest. Many people weren't aware of the limited 
availability of tickets, one woman was in tears. The organiser said that she 
would be able to get the remaining people in to see Marc. I gavce my book to 
Nina and...well... 

NINA WHERE ARE YOU ?!?!? 
WHERE'S MY BOOK ?!!! 
COME IN NUMBER FIFTEEN !!! 

Me and Emma left to go have dinner, but not before the security guard that 
was looking after the event yelled out to her, he was a jamaican guy who 
worked at Elizabeth Ardern with her ! 

We had dinner at Wong Kei's then eventually as planned got to the 
http://www.12barclub.com/ at 9:30pm. 

There were four acts. I thought Kate was on third but actually she was 
second, for some reason I read the acts from bottom up instead of top to 
down, why...... 

I was freaking out about what to say to her etc. When we walked in I 
spotted a shirt american girl with long hair and knew it was her. She was 
talking to someone else so didn't want to interrupt ;-) 

I got a drink and tried to find a moment but it didn't come. The first act 
came off, it was Annabel Lamb (Riders On The Storm) and Dave Dix (used to be 
with Black but they split). Then Kate got ready to go on !  Inside there 
were seats and we managed to get some, unlike Paul Kelly where everyone had 
to stand. 

I like this place, it looks homely, no one looks means. It's a bar DEDICATED 
to music and nothing else. 

Kate came on to warm applause, it was her third concert in London in the 
past seven days, I missed the first cos I had the tooth out and then Netaid 
on Saturday so it was with a sense of pride and achievement that I was here 
tonight. 

She played about fourteen songs, all except three were from her new album 
and I found myself toetapping along and singing silently along. It was 
heartwarming to see the crowd that had came to see her and the reaction. 
Heating her speak before she had a typical US accent but onstage her normal 
squeaky childish voice was there. 

At the end she came to do an encore and I wanted to shout out "The Calm 
Comes After" but didn't ;-) Instead she did a new song off the album. 

Afterwards I went to the toilet as I was bursting and she got corralled by 
several people.  Eventually I managed to catch her and introduced myself. 
She didn't recognise at first until I said I was the one that emailed her, 
and then she remembered straight away the song she was going to play for me 
but no matter. I felt my head expand a bit when she introduced me to various 
record company types as a guy from New Zealand who has been corresponding 
with her via email for the past 2-3 years ! 

Despite my fears earlier I found myself blabbing on and on about the music 
business and stuff that perhaps weren't such obvious conversation topics ! 
Such as why I didn't have a cd single of hers, but she said it was okay cos 
it wasn't too good !  What else did we talk about ? I can't remember, all i 
remember is laughing a lot and feeling a kind of kinship. 

Eventually she had to go so I got a photo with her and got her to sign a 
promo copy of her cd I'd got for a pound some weeks ago (don't tell her). 
There is a big promotional drive for her with reviews in the mags and papers 
so a lot of them have competitions to win her cd which I have entered. 

It was late so we left as well - wishing her all the best.  On the way 
home I was on quite a high, but when I was about to sleep I felt a type of 
emptiness... 


Anyway I'm probably better now. 

I'm writing this on Friday, tonight I'm gonna catch up with Chris Maslin, 
old university buddy from Mt Maunganui. 

[for those that want to know how I got to know Kate read on] 

Long time ago in 1993 I did a swap with a guy in North Carolina for some cds 
via the internet for the purposes of listening to new music. One of the cds 
he sent me was a double cd alternative compilation of acts. There were two 
songs by Kate on there and what struck me about her country-ish tinged songs 
was her lyrics, a melody anyone could pick up on and a girlish squeaky 
voice. 

Soon after I acquired a cd compilation of acts from Hoboken New Jersey, 
she wasn't on it but it opened my eyes to what else was out there. To this 
day I still mention to people that I need to go there. 

One day in 1994 I came across her first album in the bargain bin. I picked 
it up and loved it straight away, for anyone who I did a tape for during 
that period I always started it with "The Calm Comes After" as it starts 
with bird noises. From our conversation I actually found out that cd was her 
first private cd pressing, as the album was rereleased properly with colour 
photos and lyrics and extra tracks etc later. 

Some years later round 1996 while browsing the net I came across a 
database of american towns and cities and decided to look up Hoboken. There 
was a music list and there was her email address so I emailed her and since 
then we emailed intermittantly. 

Her second album which had since come out was imported by Real Groovy 
Records and sure enough it went on sale which I managed to get. 
Unfortunately I never got a good chance to listen to it before I came. 

She signed the cd with "Dear Darryl, it's finally good to meet you..." 

for more on her check out : 
http://members.aol.com/JacobsKate/index.html 

 


Subject : an inquiry into morals Friday 17th July 1998--->  
   
Date : Sat, 16 Oct 1999 04:17:57 PDT  
   
   
Hi everyone this is a piece I had scribbled down as notes all the way from 
last year. I've started knuckling down to get all these written up now as I 
have more time but but getting less of it each day. 

This file is big so I've broken it up into 2 parts to aid with downloads 
and to keep your interest levels up. 

Briefly it details : meeting some great people who have become good friends, 
the brixton street festival, a concert or two, a little bit of work which 
ended in a little accident, meeting up with the guy from Hamilton who is the 
main reason I came over here, meeting up with another guy from Hamilton, 
hanging with some beautiful french people, stopping a thief (albeit drunk), 
getting lost... 


here goes : 

------------------------------------------------------- 
written Tuesday 28th July 1998 in room 8 (my place of residence for one 
month now, and I love it!) 

This is written at 7pm right after Married Without Children and Simpsons ! 
I need a quiet reflective moment to recount recent events and tell all about 
the people I've spent time with (I'll do a big list one day about everyone I 
know here with a little description and character assasination etc). 

Vis (vietnamese guy from Wellington) lent me his discman for an 
indeterminable period and I am listening to The Adventures "Sea Of Love" cd. 
One of my top 5-10 albums ever. A very uplifting optimistic singalong. 

I'm a bit sad at the moment, a few hours ago I saw Thaedra off to the 
airport. She's a 20 year old greek-aussie on a 3 month holiday. The flight 
to Greece is 6 hours or so. Today I went to bed at 7am and awoke at 9am. She 
came into my room at 11am to wak me as planned. I am expecting her arrival 
but still she catches me off guard and I yell out, much to the bemusement of 
my 2 male french roommates with whom we spend much of our time grinning 
knowingly at each other (about what........I don't know.....) 

I cleaned myself up and we hop on the tube. The plan is to catch up with 
Irene. Thaedra stayed at the hostel for 1 1/2 weeks. We first met on Friday 
17th briefly, she was in the reception office chatting with the people that 
look after the place John and Linki (who let me stay here for free and won't 
accept any rent until I find a GOOD job). They are from Melbourne and 
Johannesburg respectively. They are cool, when I first stayed here in my 
first week I was a bit lost and shy so left the comfort and solitude of my 
room (which is what it's there for and they called me over to their table 
and offered me wine and food. 
On that Friday me and Vis were actually rushing off to the Fridge Bar in 
Brixton for final drinks with Allee as she heads home the next day. SO I had 
just popped my head into reception to check for any messages, said HI and 
took the tequila concoction offered to me. Me and Vis headed off but 
according to sources we missed Allee by 10 minutes. With spare time we head 
to town and I show Vis around Chinatown and Soho. We decide to go into the 
"Rocky Horror parti-cipation" screening every Friday. Check out 
www.rockhorror.com for what sort of show it is. Basically it is a live show 
as well as a movie at the same time. Long time ago some people in the US got 
the idea of shouting back snappy replies to lines in the concert, most a 
quite rude so I can't repeat them here. And during scenes such as a rain 
shower we get sprayed by water pistols etc, and if you did not buy a a 
C.U.M. bag (containing a newspaper) you would've got soaked. Near the end 
we're damn tired so finally get back at 2am. 

Saturday 18th : I head out North East to Walthamstow (location known as 
East 17 - geddit ?)  A great market is here and I find some great bargains. 
I pick up a vomity-splattered shirt for 1 UKP and an italian suit top for 2 
UKP which fits like a glove ! Spend hours here and return home latish. 

Sunday 19th : Vis, Nicki (aussie girl) and I head off to speakers corner 
in Hyde Park. It is a place of free thought and discussion where anyone can 
stand on a soapbox, nowadays it is a milk tray and speak about anything. 
Annoyingly it is all religious stuff. We traverse Kensignton and Hyde Parks 
to reach the conrer. Along the way I drag 'em into the Mariko Mori 
exhibition. If you are lucky you would've got a postcard from me with her 
image on it. (if you're into kooky creative japanese women). 

At the corner I grab a few cool photos. There is a Nation of Islam 
contingent here who are becoming more noticeable now and they are a chilling 
sight that I don't dare whip out my camera as the speaker is flanked by his 
men. Most weird speakers have been here for a long time. A jamaician 
condemns the white race for spreading filth and disease. He keeps going on 
and on over the same things. ho hum.... 
An irish girl touches his beads which he shakes every now and then "to shake 
off the disease and to drive out the whiteman". 

"do not touch your master" 

then : 

"Mother Theresa was a prostitute" 

which draws an angry retort from an indian lady who calms down as she 
realises she fell into the trap of taking anything you hear here as a truth. 

OTHER SPEAKERS : 
a white man talking about sex sex and a little bit more about you-know-what; 
black man who is proud to be white; 
a christian athiest 

"For those who know their faith is a human creation but still love and 
practise it". 

There are professional hecklers here who provide a little relief. 


Back to Irene, she is a german girl who is doing live-in pub work. On 
Tuesday she moved in Thaedra's room so I offer to show them round. Nicki was 
in the room as well and she finds a flat and we meet at the Walkabout pub 
that night. We all head down and have a few drinks. US 3 hit the dancefloor. 
I leave for 20 mins as I was supposed to go clubbing with some french people 
but once again they're not in the mood. 

So I head back to the pub and dance around. I grab a photo of us on the 
dancefloor. I regret not taking more photos of people I've met. We head back 
and chat for a couple of hours. 


Wednesday - this is an actionpacked day, read carefully..... 

I offer to take them on a tour of London. We head to the British Museum and 
I show them my fave room - the Egypt part and the mummies, Rosetta Stone and 
the daughters of Neptune (Nemoids) room - I LOVE IT !!  Take a shot here, 
along the way we take various rude shots. At one point we make our 
prospective ways to the toilet...... 

Irene has to look for work so after lunch of baked potatoes we walk her to 
the agency in the Soho End of Wardour Street. While waiting me and Thaedra 
head onto the fire escape and take some shots of the grotty side of Oxford 
Street. Expecting to see someone float by holding an umbrella. Irene has a 
lead so we decide to head to Harrods and Abbey Road. To get to the nearest 
tube BOND STREET we take a route through the Soho Street Market, she does 
not follow my suggestion of walking past the cockney fruitsellers to get 
harrassed. She wants to see nearby Carnaby Street so after a bit of blissful 
walking about with no particular direction (which is something I do and am 
overjoyed to find someone with the same carefree abandon). 

We find the Street and it is boring and I remember though she relishes in 
70s style clothes. We check into BOY LONDON and buy matching finger watches 
which some of workmates back home in New Zealand would have possibly seen 
now. I prompt the attendent for a plastic rather than plain paper bag to get 
a souvenir. We check out the Natural Body Store and sniff the various 
face/skin packs of strange combinations like sand yoghurt and banana and it 
looks good enough to eat ! 

We continue on our way to the tube. HHmmm....we find New Bond Street and 
my mission now is to take a photo outside Issey Miyake's store. Along the 
way as we stroll along this quiet street away from the tourist bustle of the 
adjoining Oxford Street we pass all the other big fashion names : Klein, 
tiffanys, prada, gucci, YSL etc  All are pretty dead quiet except DKNY in 
which a lot of japanese are in the cheap (!) cafe out the front of the shop. 
We stroll on in in our summer garb replete with jandals and take the 
escalators up the three floors and the lift down. Along the way the sales 
assistants ignore us totally. We pop into Southebys auctionhouse for a 
recent musical catalogue but no go, but we do find piles old old cheap art 
auction catalogues which are collectable themselves and absolutely lovely ! 

We reach the end of the street but no luck with Miyake...Next time 
then..... 

We stroll through Berkeley Square (I was last here some weeks ago after an 
allniter at a niteclub). 

[I am currently writing this up on Wed 29th July in the laundrette. 3 weeks 
ago I met Myra Shillingford here and she has just walked in right now. She 
is about early30s and is from Trinidad and Tobago. Ten Years ago she had a 
skiing accident and some years later the damage became apparent. Somehow she 
can only take a few steps before her feet move erratically. Looking at her 
full of smiles and optimism she is still beautiful despite the illness 
taking the toll on her body] 

We get on at Green Park Tube and take the Jubilee Line up North to St 
JOhns Wood and Abbey Road. Like last time there are a few foreigners holding 
up the traffic - naturally. We get a couple of photos, it is round 5pm 
rushhour. Last time it was darn near impossible to get a photo exactly in 
position like the album cover as it is a busy road.  But despite the time we 
manage to very spontaneously run into the middle of the road and get perfect 
snaps of each other. I need to do the net so head back into town and log on 
for an hour but let her do her email first. For fun I do a search on her 
(Greek Mythological inspired) name but can only find a Thaedra who is on a 
foot fetish homepage ! 

  We need sustenance of the food kind, so she being vegan we come across 
the Hare Krishna Restaurant. All you can eat buffet is 4.99 UKP and we are 
served a few dollops of veges etc.   Well they must add somthing to it cos I 
had trouble finishing the first helping let alone getting another one ! 
Exhausted we head back to the hostel ! 

I arrive back and am told that Andrew is looking for me !  DOH ! Tonight 
Richard H. Kirk (of musical group Cabaret Voltaire fame) is releasing a new 
cd, so I quickly freshen up and head to the Garage club in Angel Islington ! 
The first act is pure deliberate feedback and many people can only take so 
much of the loud caterwaul. I've heard it all before but after 30 minutes it 
got annoying and samey. RH Kirk came on and basically did the 46 minute set 
which is already captured on the free cd we got on entry.  It is nice 
electronic dancey stuff but still I'VE HEARD IT ALL BEFORE so me Andrew and 
old NZ mate Chris are a bit disappointed as we were expecting something 
groundbreaking. 

Thursday I potter around and don my working clothes and approach some 
agencies and pick up some pointers from them for more desirable CV. Irene 
manages to secure a great live-in pub job in Stoke Newington  in North East 
London so she leaves.  I head off to the Almeida Theatra again in Angel 
Islington to see Marc Almond. Stacks of people there, lots of gays, goths 
and weirdly dressed germans. NO tickets are available and there is a long 
line of people waiting for returns! AARRGGHH !  All seven nights all sold 
out !  I get a bit teary but console myself by getting a programme. 

On Friday night everyone is in drinking so I don my new italian suit which 
I got for 2 UKP from Walthemstow (east London) and head downtown with RH 
Kirk on the discman. I stroll around town for a couple of hours to soak up 
the atmosphere. 

On Saturday we decide to go solo again so I head to Portobello Markets for 
my normal weekend stroll. I bump into Serveline who like most french people 
is conned into working hard graft selling pizza near Buckingham Palace. She 
has an interesting blood red splotchy birthmark on her face which I can't 
stop looking at. She used to live at the hostel but is now flatting with 
other frenchpeople. We walk together to brush up on our english and french 
respectively. 

We see a deal on tshirts. She has a black boyfriend back home so I suggest 
she get the LOVE SEE NO COLOUR tshirt which I would've liked for myself for 
was XL. It is a remainder of a big anti-racism campaign in 1995. I get a 
"Nanette et Boni" tshirt which since this moment I've watched very often and 
taken it all over the place and it always gets amused looks. It has a photo 
of a rabbit nestled between someone's fluffy pink slippers. In Portobello 
there are a lot of tshirt sellers who sell deleted/old promotional tshirts 
from theatre and movie etc, so I frequent these stalls a lot. 

We bump into my roommates Yannick and Herve a lot who I bump into alot. 
Remy a young french bratish-type person is here too. Serveline hasn't been 
to Camden Markets yet so I offer to show her round. We spend a few hours 
there and watch the canal boats slip through the lock. At the end of the day 
we grab some cheap cream doughnuts 4 for a pound. We part ways and I head 
back to the hostel. 

John has grabbed some pizza so we all dig in. TIme is 10pm so we head to 
the pub before 11pm closing time. All 7 of us head down but we lose 3 along 
the way. I get back at 11:30pm. 

Tonight me and the frenchies are going to Ministry Of Sound as we have 
queue-jumping tickets. So me, Amelie, Claire, Audrey and Nicholas head on 
the tube southbound to Elephant and Castle. 

At 12:30 there is a queue of 200 but we get up front okay but Nicholas' 
tshirt is too casual so no go. After much discussion Amelie and Claire 
decide to stay so we leave with Danny Rampling's set as our soundtrack. Jon 
Marsh of The Beloved is djing as well. Actually while talking to the 
bouncers Nicholas is pretty drunk so accidently drops a note on the ground 
which a heavy bouncer steps onto it - I decide not to say anything. 

We decide to make the most of the night so after waiting ages for a night 
bus we head to the centre of nightlife - Leicester Square. Whilst conversing 
with some friends and spanish people I spot an english guy very close behind 
Audrey. I step back and see her handbag is okay - still zipped up. I step 
behind him and watch as he drunkenly reaches for Nicholas' back wallet. He 
has a stubbie in one hand. 

I'm not sure he would react but I dig my nails into his neck (actually 
I've always wanted to do that) and whisper "go" into his ear and he dashes 
off. As it was he was pretty junk and an opportunist so my fears of him 
glassing me with the stubbie are alleyed.  [in my diary entry I have 
written: "Hi Vicki and Jase" ;-] 

Afterwards I realised I should have taken a photo of him instead !  Anyway 
Nicholas goes off with the spaniards - leaving me with the pretty young girl 
!-) (very unfrenchlike!) Me and Audrey check into an outdoor cafe. It's all 
new to me ! so I grab a valued table outside and she orders some food from 
inside. The waitress takes my order of just a cafe late and gives me a funny 
look "is that all ?" 

It is 2am now. The bill comes to 4.50 UKP and 'begs' for a 10% service 
charge so as usual I round up to 7UKP [so that makes it $21 NZ for 2 coffees 
and a chocolate cake - a blimin' bargain]. I get rid of my loose change and 
it's well worth it seeing the big smile appear on the harrassed waitress' 
face. It probably explains why we're able to sit and talk for one hour 
without getting booted out or any hints to move on. At the hostel there are 
lots of french people who do hospitality work so I appreciate that the pay 
is lousy, 2.50-5.00 UKP) 

We're joined by a french guy for a while then we decide to head back. Me 
and Audrey get back at 4am, on the way she is about to grab some doughnuts 
from the 24 hour bagel store 30 seconds from the hostel. But I say "no 
worries" as I still had those doughnuts from Camden ! 

We head downstairs and switch on the telly to catch the VH1 special on 
Meatloaf. To my surprise and delight (at being able to write something 
interesting for you all back home!) I can only eat one (what a struggle), 
but she scoffs the other three and says she loves sweet stuff. I should 
mention she is a slim 19 year old french girl who eats like a horse (without 
the noise). 

Later on Nicholas comes home inebriated. Outside the sun is coming up so I 
leave them to it and hit the sack at 5am. 

Sunday 26th July 

Brixton Street Party !!! 
Did mention at some moment in time that in Brixton I saw the bravest man ? A 
white south african wearing a springbok jersey ! 

Yes today was the Brixton Street party/festival. I told Thaedra and others 
about it earlier. She had disappeared from the day before. Me and Roland 
headed first into town as there was a big islamic meeting in Trafalgar 
Square and I thought it would be a sight to see. 

It wasn't, just a lot of wide-eyed ranting. We took a photo anyway and 
headed into Soho and got a photo trying to replicate Oasis' "What's the 
Story Morning Glory" album cover.  I dragged him into Brixton with me, 
clouds were getting overcast. 

We deal readers, this is all from memory and scribbled notes so here goes 
:  we got to Brixton round 2pm and walked right out of the station to end up 
near the car park (not closed) and the community centre. There were stalls 
and music playing but not many people at all. I could walk in a straight 
line and not have to confront anyone. There was what you would expect from 
this neighbourhood, steel drums, black kids with cute makeup on (actually I 
wanted to take a photo of them all singing to Spice Girls songs, but their 
mothers looked damn mean ! Okay I admit I wanted a shot of their mothers, 
young black girls who've taken great care of their appearance and hair) 

At one part there is a dj playing a mixture of reggae and plays a song from 
long time ago : Sugar Minott's "Good Thing Going", it's a classic I've not 
heard in a while and it seems everyone else here agrees as all goes mental 
and everyone dances. In the middle of the crowd I spot a really old white 
guy maybe in his 70s slightly hunched over with a straw hat on and typical 
summery clothes dancing away. I take a photo of him. (Fast forward one year 
in August and at the Stoke Newington Festival I see him there leading a 
conga line - I have photos) 

By 4pm it is getting a bit wet so Roland leaves bored. As I am walking him 
part of a way I see some people from Hamilton. There are a few people back 
in New Zealand who can be creditted with my decision to come over here. Nusi 
and Mike Mitcalfe who regaled me with tales of their exploits on this side 
of the world. 

But there was one guy who was a morning dj for contact radio in Hamilton 
who I bumped into in early January 1998 in Real Groovy Records. It was 
Shane. I don't know him that well but we always seemed to find ourselves at 
gigs and had mutual friends. We had a discussion over the sale cd racks 
about our respective futures. He said he was getting old and would be 
turning 28 this year so would be going to London. It was at this point that 
it suddenly hit me - I was gonna be 28 this year as well. There was a brief 
vision of my life going on without having done what I wanted to do, so I 
decided then and there that I would have to strike out in the world on my 
own as well. 

So there you have it, the first seed of an idea which would bring me here 
across the oceans and seas (and continents etc). 

Anyway Shane was with his korean girlfriend who I'd met before in other 
circles as well as two other girls from Hamilton. We exchanged numbers but 
we've not been in touch since but I caught him at the Supergrass and Suede 
gigs in May 1999. 

By early evening the place was really packed. A band played ska and kept 
the crowd pumping. Naturally there was a rap band as well, some people 
trying to copy Snoop Dogg, as well as some Bob Marley tracks who got the 
crowd more vocal. Looking around it was just a seas of black hands in the 
air and I felt safe. 

Walking around I recognised someone else from Hamilton. It was Brent Soper 
whom I have never talked to before but his reputation precedes him. To those 
in Hamilton in the early 90s do you recall when NEXUS magazine was radical 
and controversial - a good read ? HE was the guy that wrote those articles 
about genital piercing and tantric sex (?). He had (typically) dreadlocks 
and a south american/mexican shawl on. I introduced myself and we had a good 
old reminisce about things. An old rastafarian comes up and asks for a 
light, he's a bit of a jack the lad and tries to sell some marajuana to us. 
We don't need it. Across from us I a rastafarian with headgear to holds his 
dreads smiles at us. I recognise him from somewhere...no joke, I think he is 
in a music video, possibly Bob Marley's "One Love". The rasta with us says 
don't deal with him as he is trouble. 

He tells me of life in London, living in squats with italian punks and 
antifascists who are here also, begging, casual relationships, politics, 
what places to go to and what to avoid. He's done well for himself, he's 
working for a survey research company now doing accounting or something 
highpowered as I vaguely recall. We traded details but naturally we're both 
sloppy and ain't contacted each other. 

Another moment was when I was moving through the crowd and ended up behind 
the dj booth, he turned back at me and said "do you like soca?" I've never 
heard of it before (I would soon at the Notting Hill Gate Festival) so said 
"no". He smiled and said that I would love it and put some on for me. I 
didn't like it. 

Eventually as dusk was falling I had the brilliant idea of getting the bus 
home. To cut a long story short I took the wrong bus or maybe it had the 
wrong destination on the front, I ended up in a dirty backstreet, all shops 
were barred up and closed. Here was in a white tshirt, shorts and jandals. I 
chose and direction and walked along it, eventually I found a dishevelled 
looking street fellow and asked him the nearest tube and he pointed me down 
the road. 

After ten minutes there were more people about and I felt a bit safer. I 
kept on the lookout for a tube sign and then finally I saw it. Liverpool 
Station for the first time in all it's glassy glory loomed up ahead of me ! 
It was great to be able to see it at last and the light reflecting off it 
was warming and inviting. So I got home okay, Thaedra did turn up to Brixton 
when it was quiet so left, so I told Roland and her that they should've 
stayed for a great time. Actually I enjoyed my time by myself, most people 
seem to have different interests than me, mine seem to alter all the time. 
Sometimes I can spend 10 minutes at a useless stall or run right by it 
another time. 

[to be continued] 

 

Subject : an inquiry into morals : part 2 Monday 27July 1998--->  
   
Date : Sat, 16 Oct 1999 07:18:03 PDT  
   
  
The last part was from Friday 17th July to Sunday 26th July. 

This entry details Monday 27th to Tuesday 28th. 

(yeah yeah It wasn't quite properly cut in the middle, but I midjudged the 
set of notes I had written) 

------------------------------------------------------------ 

Monday rolls round and me and Thaedra decide to visit Irene. Thaedra 
herself is leaving for Greece to trace her roots on Tuesday evening, so 
tonight she isplanning on cooking us all some pasta. 

She needs a haricut so books in at the Vidal Sassoon school for a seven 
pound haircut by a student. She takes off early and I stay a little behind 
at the hostel for lunch and we plan to catch up later. Just when I almost 
out the door the warehouse agency calls with a job. It starts at 5pm that 
afternoon to 5am at a milk factory. 

It's probably one of my hardest decisions to make but I tell myself that 
tonight we'll only just drink and eat anyway. But I am also worried as I 
hadn't slept or eaten much that day, so how would I last a twelve hour hard 
slog ?  Being one for pushing myself (I like to think I have great stamina) 
I take the job - also to endear myself to the agency. 

   The school is off Regent Street near the Embassy-ridden Half Moon Street 
and near Berkeley Square which I've walked by before. I get to the school 
which I thought would be a bit flashy and snooty but it wasn't. The very 
cheery and friendly receptionist tells me to walk on through past the 
students and effiminate teachers. It must be a common occurence for friends 
or acquaintances of models here to visit. I explain the situation to Thaedra 
and we console ourselves with our "special rings" ("WHEEEE!" - this bit is 
based on a Simpsons' skit, only my brother would get this one). 

At the factory just off White City Station I meet up with Mike from 
Melbourne and an indian guy who got roped into the job even though he he had 
got himself kitted out and went to the agency for an advertising job. So he 
leaves disgruntled after 45 minutes. Not before imparting the address if 
Freddie Mercury who he used to live next door to. 

I am given a variety of tasks such as stacking, pulling, cleaning out the 
machines while I am groaning that I don't think I could do this for twelve 
hours straight. My fellow workmates are all cheerful carribean. My final job 
in the coolstore is to pull hundreds of trollies of milk that would be made 
for all the supermarkets in London. The bottles would get filled with milk 
then some machines lid them then stack them into the trolleys which guys on 
the other side of a plastic curtain would push them out to me and depending 
on the supermarket and bottles sizes I would put them into rows. I relish it 
as it'll get me fit. Though three times I injure myself. 


The trollies are heavy (say about 200 litres) so to get them moving one has 
to build up a momentum. What I did was drag it quickly so that it starts 
rolling and if all goes well it would start slowing down before it reached 
its proper place in the rows I was creating so I could easily coerce it into 
its proper place. What happened was I swung one around and I must have been 
really tired because in slow motion I watched as this trolley spun towards 
me and as it heads towards my hand which is flush against another trolley I 
absentmindedly wonder what sort of impact it will have. 

Well now I have a noticeable scar on the top of right hand to show for my 
inquisitiveness. When it struck it was (gosh darn) painful, it had hit a big 
vein so the back of my hand so it was a mass of blood and a lot of mutilated 
skin (strange) mingled with cotton from the glove. what a mess ! It looks 
like a firecracker had gone off ther ! shit !  I had a big black bruise 
there and ten days later it was still a bit pusey.  The other injury came 
when I pulled a trolley again and then absentmindedly walked in front of it 
while it roared across the floor, sure enough the metal bottom of it struck 
the top sensitive part of my heel which of course impeded my walking 
immediately and for ten days afterwards I was still limping about in a 
fashion. The final negative result of the night was that with all this 
pulling and pushing it aggravated my wrists and RSI/OOS ;-) ouch !  Not a 
day goes by when I don't look at the scar on my hand and think there must be 
some lesson in it somewhere. 


The work for the first half was fun and fast moving. Mike has had hardly 
any sleep [tidbit : for Christmas he got thrown out at the Bjorn Again 
concert of stripping on stage] and he is an epileptic so is quite worried 
about pushing himself. We both look a wreck at 3am. I need to intermittantly 
go to the toilet to rid myself of something disagreable. Mike really feel he 
needs to go, so I say it's OK. 

So from 3:30am-6am I am the only one pulling the trollies. And still they 
keep coming. It piles up pretty badly and the guys on the other side are 
getting annoyed until they come out and see it is only me there doing a 
three men job.  After thirteen hours inside a giant coolstore I'm finished. 
The rough jackets they gave us have left my skin feeling sensitive. I walk 
out into the morning sun pleased with the nights work. 

As I pass the station a dairy or caterer has thrown out yesterday hard 
bread so there are thirty pigeons helping themselves. It makes a funny 
sight. As you know they normally peck the bread or lift it into the air for 
it to break up, so try to imagine thirty pigeons doing just that ! The place 
is just flying with pieces of breads and crumbs are getting caught up by the 
breeze and going everywhere. Plus imagine the clacker of beaks on the 
pavement. 

I get back to the hostel and meet up with the morning workers heading out 
for the day. I read a bit and hit the sack at 7am. 

At 10am as planned, Thaedra wakes me up and we head North East to Stoke 
Newington. As you can guess we make a great travelling couple as we 
blissfully end up walking for one hour quoting and quizzing each other from 
the Young Ones and BlackAdder. With a generous dollop of the call-response 
of "rah rah rah we're going to smash the oinks!" and "you dancing?" "you 
asking ?"  etc etc  (If you don't get that you never will ;-) 

Speaking of classic british comedy, last week I missed out the Dad's Army 
reunion, only three remain, if you know your stuff you'll know who they are. 
It is my favourite british comedy, even above Fawlty, Black Adder, Reginald 
Perrin etc 


As we reach the Rose And Crown pub Irene is overjoyed to see us. Her South 
African workmate is Jacko and it's funny to hear her say his name in a cute 
german accent - "yacko". We sink some pints and food and then head back home 
not before getting some snaps. 

Me and Thaedra tearily [I wrote this way back then but don't recall it 
being so] hug and part ways.  This brings me to 7pm Tuesday 28th July when I 
started writing this entry. Today it is Monday 10th August. Two days ago I 
think summer commenced with a sweltering heat and humidity. I am sitting on 
the steps of the hostel out back looking into the private carpark used by 
the shops and supermarket next door. A man is rummaging thru the rubbish 
like I do and fishes out a ministereo system and cd holder. Doh ! I couldn't 
done with that. Me and John were talking to getting a holder just today. 
Being outside it is quite safe today. Sometimes the next door council flat 
inhabitants throw bottles and cans down. And I've heard once there were 
syringes. One day an old lady who is on the bottom flat of the block came to 
ask us to help sign a petition to get some nastier residents evicted. 

The hostel has two storeys, and the flats are twelve high and normally 
cast a dark shadow on us. But right now as I look up, the skin on my face 
and arms welcomes the sun. 

I smile inanely. 

Life is looking peachy keen again....... 


 

Subject :Within You Without You 8th August 1998  
   
Date :  Sat, 16 Oct 1999 09:26:42 PDT  
   
   
Since writing the last entry detailing end of July 1998 here is the next 
entry detailing early August activities. 

Since writing the last entry, most of the french people had returned home 
to continue their studies. The 'compulsory' annual trip to England to brush 
up on their english safely under their belts and garters. Right now we are 
getting an influx of spaniards and italians whom I would get to know well... 

Saturday 8th August 1998 

On Friday I got talking to a blonde-haired chinese canadian called Arnold 
(he reminds me of a rentboy or toyboy so rib him plenty about this). He is 
here with his ex-girlfriend and now close friend Nicki. 

We chat about music and I surprise myself with my knowledge of shopping 
and general navigation skills around London and end up planning their day 
for them. I mention the Snowboard and Skateboard event happening on Saturday 
so they're keen to come. It's free ! 
Despite our heights we are all the same age and despite us talking about 
drum'n'bass initially we find we have quite a lot in common. 

Saturday rolls around and I roll out of bed at 9am for a little breakfast 
and get the guys to wake me up at 11am. We grab some lunch to be eaten 
later. The casualness of Vis has influenced me as I grab a baguette, 
camembert cheese and ham slices which actually fills me up for the day. We 
head out to Docklands which on the map looks larger than City of London.  On 
the docklands light rail there are two tracks, we took the wrong one and 
ended up at Canary Wharf. 

I learn a bit more about it as Arnold is studying architecture in 
Barcelona and we walk around the wharf and admire the modern buildings. 
There is a pedestrian suspension bridge which is closed due to some fault 
and Arnold takes a photo of it with the sign. We marvel at the tube station 
roof as well ! 

The sun is beating down so we sit down beside the water and eat lunch. 

We get back onto the rail line and head past the London Airport, the 
Millenium Dome and arrive at Victoria Dock. What is happening here is a snow 
and skatie event with demonstrations, and musical performers on a floating 
stage so there is a bit of a distance of water from the bands to us on dry 
land. Therein lies the problem. 

The event is populated by young guys and girls dressed in skatey ska/punk 
clothes but the performers with the exception of one or two are distinctly 
r'n'b. New Zealand's Ma-V-Elle (which was the main reason I was coming), Mos 
Def, Queen Pen, Lutricia McNeal etc. 

Nevertheless there were some of the crowd getting into the bands. The 
venue is basically a dust covered dock. There are carnival rides etc. We 
grab some beers and survey the situation. In places there are some 
skateboard ramps and a minicar circuit. On the water there is a large ski 
ramp and from here we see skiers come down and try to perform twists and 
turns in the air before hitting the water. At one point some parachutists 
come down while in the background we could see construction on the Millenium 
Dome. 

This would all be well and good except that it is @#!£$%^&* hot ! 
Shelter is a precious commodity. I'll check to check the photos which I 
haven't developed yet to see whether I joined Arnold and went bare-chested 
damning all modesty ;-) We only stay to see Ma-V-Elle perform, they do a 
half hour set, can't remember songs they sung but I'd heard them all before. 
We stayed for Mos Def to try to see them get the crowd excited, but not 
really, they are too far away off the dock to inspire any reaction from the 
crowd. 

Nicki is approached by an english guy and they walk around. Arnold gets a 
little jealous and it seems it is a regular occurence but normally blows 
over. (When I caught up with them some weeks/months later then had finally 
departed). I should also mention that Nicki has perhaps a scar or something 
on her left cheek under her eye, a slight perhaps blanching or 
discolorisation of skin. Can't stop looking at it wanting to touch it. I 
reckon it would've felt like plastic.  Arnold is pretty oblivious to it now 
so can't remember or doesn't want to remember how it happened. 

At every event/concert/club I go to, asians are very rare, sometimes I'm 
the only one. Here I spot three others. Since we're so close and not wanting 
to waste the a daily travelcard I suggest we head to Greenwich Village 
(whiere 0 degrees latitude is and hence the term Greenwich meantime, the 
time everywhere else in the world is calculated against, hope that makes 
sense. Also where you can stand on the dividing line between EAST and WEST.) 

We go and walk under the Thames river and thru the park. Nicki is beat so 
with the sun still up and plenty of people in the park a lie in the grass 
was inviting for her. Arnold and I dare each other and sprint up the hill to 
the observatory and get our photos taken on that East-West Line.  We then 
head back down and lie next to Nicki and in a rare moment I don't think 
about wasted time and I just close my eyes under a tree on fallen leaves 
while squirrels run around looking for nuts. 

Eventually we get up and head back home. I try to appeal to his 
architectural spirit to go to Liverpool Street but we are tired so head back 
home to eat and rest. But not before seeing a poster saying that two members 
of 808 State would be djing at a club that night. 

After much umming and arring, since Arnold and Nicki would be leaving with 
Busabout at 8am so we decide to maximise our time together, so us two guys 
took off to the club, while Nicki stayed back enjoying some bears with the 
spaniards. 

The club was right next to the Astoria on Charing Cross Road. It's been a 
...long time...since I've been to a club so soon both of us are on the 
dancefloor lost in our own little world. Great sound system and the music 
was good too. Lots of loungey lizardy people about. After 2 hours at about 
midnight Darren who I recognised from the band came on and straight you knew 
it was him as he started playing 808 state tracks or related remixes such as 
'Cubik' and 'Papua New Guinea'. At about 3am we decided to call it a night. 

And that was it !  Don't know how I survived such a packed day. 

Since then I've kept in touch Arnold and he comes back every now and then, 
though I think he's back in Canada now. 

 


Subject : Fun at the sea ! Sunday 17th october 1999  
   
Date :    Mon, 18 Oct 1999 11:20:04 PDT  
   
   
Hi all ! 

first off an article about Shepherds Bush : 

http://www.thisislondon.com/dynamic/hottx/review.html?in_review_id=219858&in_review_text_id=170775 

I believe there was a documentary in New Zealand about London some time ago. 

This Saturday I had to work so I did, as you can tell it was productive and 
I was able to spurt out a few old emails. 

On Sunday woke up late about 11am so decided not to go to Cambridge as 
planned. Time is getting short here so now when I think of something to do I 
need to do it and not put it off. 

So with half a day left to us so it was 
- Saffron Waldon, a small market village and home to Germaine Greer. Why ? 
Because I talked to someone from there. 
http://www.uttlesford.gov.uk/saffire/ 

- or Southend-On-Sea which has a long pier. 
http://www.southend.gov.uk/ 
(unfortunately no photo of the pier here). 


Emma and I get to Liverpool Station and with five minutes to go we got 
return tickets to Southend-On-Sea. The Victoria Station.  We jump on in the 
front carriage, not many people here at all, was my idea of the place wrong 
? it wasn't an english beach resort  ? 

It was chilly but sunny and the sun filled up the carriage no problem. 

Why did I want to come here ? Well one day I was looking through an arty 
black and white photobook of England. One book had a photo of the pet 
cemetery in Hyde Park which I've now been to, and a nice evocative windswept 
photo of a pier seeming to go off into the water for...well...a long 
distance !    A bit more research and I found that this place's claim to 
fame is the "longest pleasure pier in the world". It is 1.33 miles long ! I 
had to go there.......and not because lots of other places in England didn't 
have a single claim to fame... 



After a twenty minute train ride we got off at Wickford. Home of wellknown 
Adrians who own the worst music website in the world. 
http://www.adrians.co.uk/ 

The second half of the train line was down so we had to take a replacement 
bus. No problem for us cos we had time to burn and sitting on the top desk 
up front in a doubledecker coach through the countryside would be fun. It 
was ! 

Once we got here we checked the old train station map, very old, but we 
could see we needed to go down the "High Street". Now we'd been through many 
of these "High Streets" before most of them are a unkempt redbricked 
pedestrian-only street with chains stores, plenty of families, ugly white 
kids, plenty of solo mothers of all colours pushing prams. Sure enough 
Southend did not disappoint. 

We hurried through it as best we could. At one point we passed a guy 
coming out way who came to rest behind a small brickwall looking at someone 
close by, he was using Police slang. We hung around behind him but nothing 
much happened. 

Pretty soon we could see the coastline and sea looming ahead of us. It's 
been a long time. We look down from the top of the road where we are and can 
see Peter Pans Neverland amusement park down below. 

We head for the pier. It is free to walk back and forth but there is a 
slow train which costs 1.50 UKP. We decide to walk. It is very windy and 
cold. Good to feel the sea air on the old face. The pier is 1.33 miles (2.15 
kilometres) long but does not look it at all and we think the pier is 
pitiful and we could walk it in five minutes. 

Twenty-five minutes later we're at the end of the pier. There is typically 
a rock (candy) shop here, seaside cafe, pub, amusement arcade, tea shop. The 
wind is terrible and no one looks happy. We grab a cup of tea and explore 
the pier.  In 1976 there was a fire here at the end of it, and rather than 
rebuild it they rebuilt around it, so we can still see the charred timber 
remains. 

Enough ! We head back with thoughts of yummy pub food and roast in our 
minds. The journey back seems to be faster. Still amazed by the deceptively 
long distance and deceptively flat surface which doesn't stop me from 
getting buffeted and pushed to the side. 

  We get back to shore and decide to check out the amusement park. It is 
cheap so we go on the log flume ride. 

Unlike the rides in US and Australia where you don't get wet, it is the 
opposite here. The log ride started out well enough as well go up and down 
and through a tunnel. At the top we are warned to hold on tight as we'll be 
falling 4 storeys in 3 seconds. This was scarey i it's amteurism !  We hit 
the water down below and we are both totally drenched. The salt water 
stinging my face which has a big wry smile on it. We get off and we get a 
photo,which I hope to scan soon ! 

We also have a go on the rollercoaster and it's fun as we careen sideways 
screaming. We're like big kids again !  ALso go on the witches ride where 
you sit in a capsule and it's moves like cogs where you move on and down and 
each time you think the person in front will hit you but then you go down 
and he goes up etc etc etc 
Hard to explain. 

We then went and got some fish'n'chips as all the pubs had the West Ham 
game on. We ate, got the bus back home and phew tired. 

Next week is a record fair in Sunday 24th so I'll be catching up with some 
people there. Next Saturday we hope to get to Cambridge and that night Dave 
Davies and Aaron will be having a helloween party... 





Subject : London Marathon Week 18th April -30th April  
   
Date :  Tue, 26 Oct 1999 11:50:19 PDT  
   
   
[This email was started on Monday 3rd May - May Day] 

contains : brixton bomb, london marathon, le show, jack the ripper walk, 
brick lane bomb, soho bomb, hampstead heath 

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No maypoles for me I was at work. 

This weekend has been tiring, more on that later. 

  This Saturday 17th we were planning on going to Brixton Markets in the 
morning, we didn't go and instead spent the time at the Tate Gallery with 
Leila, an irish-indian-south african friend. When we got home we heard on 
the radio about the Brixton nail bomb. In a few days we would see WANTED 
posters everywhere with a xray of the child that had a nail stuck in his 
head. 

On Sunday, 18 April, the eyes of the world (well running world) were on 
26.2 miles of the London's streets to watch around 30,000 people take part 
in the 1999 London Marathon. 

The path starts at Blackheath then winds down Greenwich then west along New 
Cross, then west along the Thames, Rothehithe, Surrey Quays, over Tower 
Bridge, east towards Canary Wharf to Isle of Dogs where it loops back west 
along the river Thames past Temple, Embankment, Houses Of Parliament (Big 
Ben), the up Birdcage Walk passing in front of Buckingham Palace then ending 
at Pall Mall. 

We want to become sightseers of course so the plan is to arrive in town 
and head out to Tower Bridge. Just like the Auckland Round The Bays Fun Run 
looks impressive with the runners all on the bridge. 
Give Liz a call but she is going to hang with a workmate of hers. We take 
the central line to St Pauls Cathedral, duck into the service which is 
always topical (re: Serbs at this point in time), from there we walk down 
towards the Thames. 

Plenty of people lining the road, runners dressed as nuns, nurses, 
teletubbies.  We follow the route down to Waterloo Bridge then doubleback 
and head to Tower Bridge. 

Unfortunately by the time we get there all the runners have past the bridge. 
I love crowds so take a few snaps. Pass a few NZ runners. Under Blackfriars 
bridge there are walkthrough showers, plus plenty of guys using temporary 
darkness to take a leak against the wall. 

There is someone dressed up as a tree so everyone calls out "run forest 
run", similarly a woman with her name emblazoned across her front makes us 
shout "come up Eileen!" 

Of note we walked by Gareth Hale (or Pace) - one of them. 

Later on in the week an italian friend Francesca and her sister have 
arrived in town. Unfortunately time is short for me so we don't get a good 
chance to chat ;-( 

On Thursday we have audience tickets for Le Show, a french-led program 
starring Antoine DeCaunes (from that other show with Jean Paul Gaultier). 

We don't know who the special guests are so we're nicely surprised when he 
throws veiled insults, questions sexuality and leers at 
Boy George, that famous wonderbra model ;-) and a performance by Plastic 
Bertrand of 'Ce Plane Pour Moi'. A nice rendition of it! Though boring after 
5 takes ! 

We saw the show a few days later and if you ever see it you can see we in 
the back corner right behind Antoine in the interviews. 


On Friday 23rd we caught up with a new friend Diana, who is a 
vietnamese-australian girl Emma knew from work. We go on one of the Jack the 
Ripper walks which is enlightening not so much about the murders as I knew a 
bit about them already but how close Tower Bridge and the City Of London and 
the East End are so close together by walking distance. 
The trial starts from Tower Of London past some roman walls through the 
smart new financial branches of the City Of London then heading through 
Houndsditch onto Petticoat Lane with the guide singing us age-old songs and 
walls where blood was split and splattered. Through the grimey lanes and 
alleyways of the east end. Ending up at a pub which specialises and is 
probably supported financically by these tours. 

The night ended with all of us in Spitalfields watching a netball by night 
game. 

The next day I was sick so spent my time in bed reading and encouraging my 
sniffling. So I wasn't well enough to go with Emma and her friend Fiona to 
Brick Lane on Sunday. Funnily enough a bomb went off their the night before 
so the place was cordoned off and Emma told of how she saw the burnt out 
husk of the car which a good citizen had put the bomb into to take to the 
police station which is where it exploded. Luckily he warned people so 
nearby shops were able to pull down there metal grate security blinds, 
though a nail/shrapnel did come through and take someone's finger off 
unfortunately. 


Friday 30th april 

I planned to meet with Emma at Virgin megastore at 6:45pm we met up and 
decided to head back through town for dinner. While waiting there I saw a 
poster advertising free tickets to see a Mercury Rev instore gig. When we 
tried to go through Soho Square where Emma had walked through in her trail 
though the back streets of Soho we found that the road had been cordoned off 
for some reason. We stood for a moment wondering and were told it was a bomb 
alert. We walked on down and kept trying to head through Soho again but at 
each road we were thwarted by police who were moving crowds off people back 
against us. 

Feeling quite rattled we decided to just walk back home. Passing by 
Victoria Lodge on Hyde Park. Looking through the iron wrought gates we saw 
scores of tiny stone gravestones marking out the pet cemetery. 

The next few days Emma is a bit upset. is The good thing to come out of it 
is more outrage against white supremisist groups, some who claimed they did 
it. The Sun tabloid rooted out a gang member who actually was a groundman at 
a royals school and "would even have access to Prince Williams quarters!!!!" 
- though it was later found to be one person, perhaps... 

The next weekend we caught up with Liz and went to Brent Cross shopping 
centre as it was supposed to be a big mall. It was pretty small compared to 
others and very samey as usual. We got the bus back and it went through the 
jewish quarter of Golders Green and outside we saw lots of policemen in 
uniform or plainclothes. We passed the yha hostel where I spent a night out 
under the stars. We decided to get off at Hampstead Heath, first time for 
all of us. Definitely a very large and even wild clump of forest in North 
London. 

We traversed it and headed to supposedly one of the best spots in London - 
Primrose Hill, where one came look onto the metropolis, but for the trees ! 
The heath is big and I mean grand big. Uncut fields, lots of trees and 
tracks, strangers, dogs, footballs, rolling hills, ponds. We mean to go back 
there one day and check the rest of it out. and check We then walked up to 
Highbury then a bus from there to town then dinner at Wong Kei's. By the end 
of the day we were all knackered....... 

Far too much to do in one day ;-) 

Next week was the beginning of the second music week I had with concerts by 
Mercury Rev, Suede, Catatonia, Supergrass. 
(As detailed in an earlier email). 


 


Subject : Cambridge 24th October 1999  
   
Date :  Wed, 27 Oct 1999 11:17:51 PDT  
      
HI all 

well last Saturday we finally got to Cambridge ! 

Slept in and dawdled around so we finally got to Cambridge around 2:30pm. 

Drats, lost time ! 

It is a university town so lots of students on on bikes etc. Plus plenty of 
tourists like us taking photos of the many red ivy-covered buildings. 

http://www.camcnty.gov.uk/sub/visit/hp.htm 

Weather was raining heavily on and off today so it certainly wasn't 
condusive to sightseeing, but it's gonna be our last weekend free for a 
while. 

All the guidebooks say one should not miss the chapel in Kings College 
with its classic gothic architecture.  We made a beeline for here first. But 
by the time we got there they were practising for the weekly Choral and 
Organ recital. We decided to return later. 

We headed out past the backs which is on the left side of the river, took 
some photos, wandered through St John College and checked out their copy of 
The "Bridge Of Sighs". A nice markety little town, though wet today so a 
real shame. 

We grabbed some dinner and headed back to the Chapel but found out we had 
misread the times so missed the choral so we stayed for the organ recital. 
We lined up with scores of other people and entered. The ceiling was 
amazing, a wonderful fan-design stone, unlike the normal arches. very 
intricate. Up front behind the altar is Rubens "The Adoration Of The Magi". 
We sat near the front on the choristers stalls so we could lean back against 
the wall and gaze about at us. 

It was getting late so the recital was thankfully 40 minutes. There were 5 
pieces. As the opening notes of Bach's Fugue in G Minor echoed through the 
church I lay my head back and relaxed. 

Eventually we got home on time getting the train just in time back for a 1 
hour journey back home. 

On Sunday I caught up with Nina at a record fair. I spent about 50-60 
pounds, mainly stuff to resell but I picked up an item I'd be after for 
awhile : Cabaret Voltaire's remix of a Marc Almond track. 

Nina regaled me with tales of Marc's booksigning and handed me over my 
copy signed 'to Daryl' -  ! 


Today (Wednesday) I developed a further 7 rolls of film from last year. 
There are 2 classic photos I keep telling everyone about which everyone 
demands proof of : one is of a junkie with scars on her arms, t'other of a 
little girl who made a face as she stood in front of the camera on my last 
shot of a film. 

My workmate who used to be a psychocologist etc says the girl's scars are 
self-inflicted and she isn't an addict as she is quite portly. Much to my 
chagrin the photo of the girl is missing I can see it on the negative though 
so expect these scanned soon. 

that's it ! 

 


Subject :  Beth Orton - London 29th October 1999  
   
Date :  Sat, 30 Oct 1999 07:01:53 PDT  
   
   
Well once again the days are bumper-full of music (sic). 

Out of the blue I got audience tickets for an indie music show which are a 
set of live concerts 2 hours in length. 

The first show is Madness, Long Pigs, Everything but the Girl. The second is 
Ian Brown, Lightning Seeds, Apollo 440, Grant Lee Buffalo or Buffalo Tom (I 
forgot - I would prefer the former). 
We'll be going to these with our posse next Tuesday and Wednesday. 

Just today I got my tickets to attend the screening of 'This Is Not Your 
Life' which is a pisstake or alternative version of that other show. This 
guest is Ozzy Osbourne. I have heard he is quite 'gone' nowadays so it'll be 
interesting. 

On Friday night we saw Beth Orton at Shepherds Bush Empire. Bought the 
tickets 2 months ago cos it would sell out quick. 

I went early as Emma had to work so I caught an awesome set but The Doves. 
a guitar, drums, keyboard band who despite the distortion I could find 
plenty of melodies to dive into with delight. 

I was right up front give or take a few metres and turning round I saw all 
the floors above us and noted that I had been seated at all four floors. 
It's always exciting being in a venue as it slowly fills up. 

At 9:15pm Beth came on. The stage walls and ceiling were filled with stars 
from a discoball buried in the middle of the stage as was befitting her 
first song. The thought that would stay with me throughout the whole concert 
was how big her fans were. The loudness and appreciation throughout the 
concert indicated that she doesn't get half-committed fans but totally rabid 
ones. She was dressed in a tasteful red dress revealing her back. He arms 
are big but her body is pretty skinny. Not like the long sleeved brown 
jersey and brown hat that was covering her eyes last time I saw her. (See 
Ronnie Spector concert review). 

Earlier I overheard with interest people discussing how they got into her. 
One gay guy said how someone suggested he listen to "I Wish I Never Saw The 
Sunshine" and he wept as he first heard it and on how that song would 
sustain him through his worst twelve months of his life.  Another guy 
commented on how he thought the concertgoers would be more polite than 
normal and not so much SQUASH as squish. (okay okay you had to be there do 
when he did the actions). 

Beth has done three albums, the first one is a collaboration with William 
Orbit and is hard to get. Apart from this one that's all I had plus a couple 
of singles and a 4 track sampler. So during the concert I was thinking "what 
am I doing here I don't know any of these songs". She performed twenty songs 
and I had only heard four of them before ! 

She did about 10-12 off the new album which is a more country-folk tinged 
album. It were the songs of her earlier album that received the greatest 
response and cheer, I found myself boogieing down on the upbeat ones and 
feigning interest and trying to make our the lyrics on the slower ones. She 
introduced a new song "Thinking About Tomorrow" which was instantly likeable 
much like the 'new' songs I had heard tonight. 

I felt she was still a bit shy, she was talking pretty well inbetween 
songs and introducing the band ("Her Left hand man, Her right hand man, her 
backdoor man" ooer) But on guitar solos she would often turn her back to us 
and play. 

All around us it seemed we were surrounded by real fans who would sing or 
dance along. Though there were two girls who would constantly shout out for 
'Sugar Boy'. A guy ahead of us said to his partner that if those girls shout 
out again he would do something with their asses. 

When she did 'She Cries Your Name' there was tall blonde european (?) next 
to me who was dancing with deliberate rigid movements I thought she was 
gonna collapse on the floor in a fit. For this song it was fully replicated 
onstage with a double bass and two violins ! Awesome ! 

Setlist : 
Galaxy of Emptiness 
Pass In Time 
Best Bit 
So Much More 
Stolen Car 
Stars All Seem To Weep 
Love Like Laughter 
Sweetest Decline 
She Cries Your Name 
Devils Song 
Thinking About Tomorrow 
Whenever 
Someones Daughter 
Central Reservation 
Dolphins 

First encore: 
Feel To Believe 
Blood Red River 

Second Encore : 
I Wish I Never Saw The Sunshine 

Third Encore: 
Touch Me With Your Love 

Request: 
Sugar Boy 

Terry Callier was supposed to be there to sing their cover of Billy 
Bragg's "Dolphins" but he had a bad back. I knew "I Wish I Never Saw The 
Sunshine" would be the encore (one of many) as I would say it has become one 
of her signature tunes now, even though she didn't write it. The moment the 
song started everyone grabbed someone next to them and started singing along 
and no doubt some tears were shed. 

After the concert I was able to get a copy of the setlist, the roadies 
were the nicest ever, and realised that Sugar Boy wasn't actually planned to 
be performed - so it looks as though those girls succeeded. I hung by the 
stagedoor for a few minutes for an autograph but gave up as I was too tired. 
But did get talking to Nick from Watford who was a big fan of hers so we'll 
keep in touch. I was hoping William Orbit may have turned up but no luck. 

All through the concert I was imaging tucking into a lovely lamb kebab 
from around the corner so I went in there and had a chat, they seem to know 
me pretty well now. 

As I headed back home past the venue there was a girl on the corner who 
looked familiar. She was looking at me because I was possibly unconsciously 
looking at her more than is permissable. It was Sarah Cracknell from St 
Etienne. I waslked by but then decided to double back. We had a quick chat 
and she had been to the concert too. I had heard that she lives around the 
area but she then asked me where the nearest taxi stand was. I helped her 
out and grabbed a photo of us together then ran home happy. 

Tonight I'll be going to Dave's helloween party. 

;-p 

fin