Life could be some pointless struggle for all you care, never living, never caring, really there
Give up trying if it’s all you see, but don’t you dare come back to me
If you want it over, that’s how it goes
God he pains me, as only he knows
You know I won’t ask you to change for us, nor live a life that you don’t want
But don’t you drag me down with you, don’t you make me die for you
I know the feeling, I’ve been there before, but I found a way was helped a little more
A struggling body with no demand
But I tried to be some happy me, well that didn’t work, they didn’t see
The lies and things they kept from me

I GO SLASHING THROUGH MY VEINS
I GO HACKING AT MY KNEE’S
I sing a little song
I only wish to please
I try a little more
I dig my little hole
Just watch me digging down
A blinded little mole

I stumble along drunkly
Not caring what I see
I slip, fall down. it guides me, closer to she
She doesn’t care how I feel
She drives the knife so deep
My body on the alter
No better then a sheep
She gave my life for herself
She cared not how I felt
So let the pain pass through me
Pass through the boy unfelt

I GO SLASHING THROUGH MY VEINS
I GO HACKING AT MY KNEE’S
I sing a little song
I only wish to please
I try a little more
I dig my little hole
Just watch me digging down
A blinded little mole

Some found a way to heal my, though I had been left for dead
I knew I had to move on, with my tattered rags of red
The blood had long been dried
So once again I stained them, as all around me cried
I wish I hadn’t done it, I wish it hadn’t been, but its to late for wishes
Its time for me to begin

SO ITS TIME TO THRUST DOWN PAIN
ITS TIME FOR YOU TO SEE
EVERY LITTLE GOOD, YOU TRIED TO HIDE FROM ME
THE THINGS INSIDE SHOULD BE SO SIMPLE FOR ME TO SEE
BUT FROM DOWN HERE WITH THESE EYE’S THE WORLD IS HARD TO FACE
YOU SAID I WAS NO GOOD, THAT I WAS A DISGRACE
WATCH OUT YOU LITTLE BITCH, THIS MANS JUST NOT TOY
DON’T THINK YOU CAN PULL MY STRINGS
JUST BECOUSE I CANNOT SEE, THE THINGS YOU DID TO ME
I DON’T CARE IF YOU MEANT TO, FOR I CAN NEVER SEE
I’M A BLINDED LITTLE MOLE THAT’S ALL YOU LEFT OF ME.

things will be, and they will always be for me

Richard DeLong
Started 6-9-98
Finished 6-15-98