My Poetry

If you can call it that. :)

Sitting alone.
Staring into an empty void.
Darkness surrounds my solitary state.
Reluctance in my mind.
Past experiences overheard.
Dry lips and a swollen tongue.
Sorrow deep within my empty,
Faded heart.
Battered and broken, too late to turn back.
On my knees,
Fingers crossed in a silent reverence.
A whisper through the night.
A wish from the soul of a child.
A child,
Lost and alone.
Reaching for sobriety, yet afraid to face reality.
Holding to the dream whuch has kept me alive.
Breath begins to slow, silence deepens.
Existance weaving in and out.
Calling forth into the still waters.
Nowhere to hide.
No one to confide in.
Lost.
Alone.
Empty.

DRIFTING, DRIFTING BEYONG ANGST.
A PAIN SO DEEP IT HAS BECOME PHYSICAL. PAIN
THAT MUTILATES MY MIND. WISHING. WHISHING
I WERE SOMEONE, SOMETHING ELSE.

BUT BAZAARLY ENOUGH, I LIKE THE
PAIN. THE PAIN. THE SOURCE OF MY PAIN IS
UNAVARE OF ITS EATING OF MY SOUL. THE
PAIN MAKES ME CARELESS, LIKE I COULD WALK AWAY.
WALK AWAY FROM ALL THAT IS CHERISHED.

Gilded Sorrow

I was alone
Alone in a cold world.
Rain dripped from
My soul.
I saw you with her.
Taunting me.
Laughing at
My lonesomeness.
My escape had
come.
I could not bare
The distortion
Any more.
I "slit" myself
Away.
Away from
Pain and suffering.
Jeer at me
No more.
I cannot
Hear you.
I cannot
See you.
Because
I could not
Have you.

Love

In the stillness of the night
I am alone, surrounded only by darkness.
I do not move for there is nowhere to go.
Emptiness swallows me.
And as I begin to lose all hope and faith
You appear.
I know not you name
Yet I know who you are.
The emptiness begins to fill.
Shadows lift.
Lonliness disappears,
Because of your love.

Anger

You tell me you love me.
Do you expect me to believe you?
After the lies?
After the pain?
I can't take anymore from you.
When I look into your face I want you dead!
I want to rip out your throat
So you can no longer tell your lies.
When you touch me with your cold hands,
I image that you're not there...
But you are there.
I want you dead.
You tell me you love me.
You tell me? You love me?!
I wish I could believe you.
But in doing so I would betray myself.
You lie!!!
You do not deserve your breath.
You must DIE!
For if you do not, I know I will kill myself.

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