I keep my paint brush with me
Wherever I may go,
In case I need to cover up
So the real me doesn't show.
I'm so afraid to show you me,
Afraid of what you'll do-that
You might laugh or say mean things.
I'm afraid I might lose you.
I'd like to remove all my paint coats
To show you the real, true me,
But I want you to try and understand,
I need you to accept what you see.
So if you'll be patient and close your eyes,
I'll strip off my coats real slow.
Please understand how much it hurts
To let the real me show.
Now my coats are all stripped off.
I feel naked, bare and cold,
And if you still love me with all that you see,
You are my friend, pure as gold.
I need to save my paint brush, though,
And hold it in my hand,
I want to keep it handy
In case somebody doesn't understand.
So please protect me, my dear friend
And thanks for loving me so true,
But please let me keep my paint brush with me
Until I love me, too.
"Blow out your candles"
A dim whisper to a sullen heart
I stare at the flame
Dancing, burning so bright
Then all that's left is smoke
"Did you make a wish?"
Of course I did
It's always the same
The only thing I ever wish for
The secret dream in my heart of you
Falling stars, wishing wells
Four leaf clovers, heads-up pennies
birthday candles, horse shoes
Magical genies and faries
All make wishes come true
They've never worked for me
So still I wish for you
I'm searching the silent sky tonight
Trying to find someone who can
Take away the longing I feel in my heart
Will someone see the hurt in my eyes?
Where is the one who'll erase my pain?
Your careless facade is so transparent
I look through you like glass
How can so warm a personality
Have so cold a stony heart?
I want to cradle you in my arms
To reveal my naked heart
But I'm scared to let you get that close
Laughter is so sharp a weapon
From the mouth of one you love
So once again I stare into the cold night
Alone, I stand with nothing to warm me
Ill with a disease no doctor can treat
Only your pure love can save me
Come rescue me from my endless pain
Dreams fill my head
I see what I want to achieve
Yet I can not
I grasp at the stars
But hold only clouds
I struggle to free myself
A never ending fight
Against a force
I can not begin to fathom
My fears are many and great
But there is nothing I fear
More than being alone
I think about the future
Lonliness fills me now
It eats away at my soul
I pray it will not always be so
The light ahead may be distant
Yet not too far to be worth
The wait I must endure
My smile is but a mask
I wear to hide the pain
The glimmer in my eyes
Covers the hurt I feel inside
I want to live by the ocean
And it's sweet sound will sing in my dreams
To watch the clouds roll in
As great thunderheads
I want to smell the salty air
And touch the heavy morning dew
To watch the sun sink
Into the water
I want to stare into it's vastness
And dream of it's tender secrets
To understand the gentle call
Of the sea
Where were you when I started to cry?
You just up and walked away from what we had
And where were you when I thought I might die?
Honey, it's true, maybe you and I could never be
Where were you when I found your lie?
Look at me and tell me you don't still care
Oh baby, there's nothing left of you and I
Cause you're never here when I need you
I stare into your paper-image eyes
I can feel you, though you're distant
Place your heart in my arms
You need not feel fear
In trusting me with your love
I long to search your soul
To uncover the brokeness
Healing it with my tender love
You need not feel shame
In revealing your humanity
To me, I will understand
I reach out to your body
To touch away all your hurt
Gently, I'll help you forget
You need not feel pain
In my caring embrace
I will hold you safe with me
You look at me everyday
Do my eyes give me away?
Look carefully and you'll see
There's so much I want us to be
Hold out your hand
Do you, can you understand?
I just want to be with you
It's all I've ever wanted to do
Reach out to my heart
And know we will never part
No force in heaven or hell
Can remove me from your spell
I can almost feel your touch
It almost hurts to love so much
Uphold me with your hands
I promise not to cause you pain
To you my eternal hope
True, I will always remain
I need the strength you give to cope
To deal with a life of hurt and pain
You give me love to get me through
And you will make me whole again
I could never live without you
Tell me only what I need to hear
Be the man that I need you to be
Forever hold me oh so near
And promise you'll never leave me
I wish there was a way
To show you how I feel
But I can not seem to speak
When you are near
I long to hold you close
And share my world with you
This endless silence
Keeps us at a distance
An impossible dream
To a lonely heart
I am drowning
Swallowed by emotions
Too vast to comprehend
Immersed in my feelings
From which I try to escape
Hiding away from the actual
Retreating into a trance
I get lost in my daydreams
Where fantasy is both
Real and imagined
Only there can I be safe
From the harsh reality
Of a world filled with
More hate than love
The hope I long for is lost
But I can not give up
Fighting for my place in the stars
I will someday achieve
What I feel in my soul
What I know to be my destiny
I can still find my hope
How can it be?
You're talking to someone like me
I'd looked everywhere
I really want to be there
Distance can't tear us apart
You're too deep in my heart
I think you might be my destiny
Seeing you moves something in me
Angels on Earth are hard to find
Baby, you're my one of a kind
Isn't there more I might say
To make you mine for more than a day?
Sometimes
I feel lost and scared
But thinking of you
Makes it all good
Makes it all right
Always
I feel love and joy
But you increase the power
Making it strong
Making it worth-while
Never
I feel pain and sorrow
Because you take it away
Making me happy
Setting me free
Driving down the highway,
I look ahead to see
What's coming
I know where I'm going
Where I'm going to be
Is with you
That's all that matters
The music is pounding my brain
I feel it's beat in my pulse
I'm tired of sitting
The endless road is killing me
But it's taking me
Where I want to be
With you
You cry
But I can not comfort you
You fall
But I can not pick you up
You hurt
But I can not ease the pain
You bleed
But I can not cease it
You call
But I can not answer
You need
But I can not fulfill it
You dream
But I can not be a part of it
Here in my eternity
I watch over you always
But I can not feel you
You can not feel me
I have not left you
Feel not forever abandoned
Know my love can never die
Though you can not see
I hold you safe
Until that precious day
We can be together
Once again in forever