"Life In Cycles"

This deja vu is drowning me
In one hundred thousand dreams
The steps I take predictable and nothing is new
I sit at the bus stop and wait for the past to overcome me

These cycles spin too fast
One hundred thousand questions I've asked
The view from the window I swore that July I would see
For the very last time...
I watch it go by again and wonder if this is a beginning or just the end

I sit now at the table where I said goodbye to you
The day that I said "I am gone from this place"
I still talk to you from the desk where we said hello
And still we speak of the future...

I've got to remind myself, what year it is
Somedays I forget, 'til the memory stops my heart
I've lost everything, I've lost every fight that I had within me
The last time I walked this road

Generosity, and my memory make me cry
And my memory's chasing me down, crying out for me
I can't get no rest, my dreams are no comfort, I wake up in tears
It's funny how everything's changed except....everything

And this deja vu is drowning me
In one hundred thousand dreams
The steps I take predictable and nothing's new
I sit with my head in my hands, but somehow it doesn't stop the spinning

These things did begin the road to all my dreams
But now I am here again, back against the wall
Oh I did not forget, why am I condemned to relive
What breaks my heart...

I read my mail as I stood in line, yesterday, five years ago
Am I starting out, is this some second chance?
Or have I hit the end of the show, that's all that there is
Is this the end? God tell me!

Oh I'd love to do things this way again
If I only knew how it is going to end
I wonder if this is just how it's meant to start, where it all begins
If God is telling me "right place, wrong time"

'Cause this deja vu is drowning me
In one hundred thousand dreams
The steps I take predictable and nothing's new
When I go to sleep I wonder where I will wake up...

I once achieved, all my wildest dreams starting here
Then I suffered my most crushing defeat
I come back again broken, was it all for naught
Am I so wrong for wanting to believe?

I try to understand everything, surrounding this dream
I try to analyze all the signs, all the things I feel but this I can't decipher
I will have to have faith again, I have no faith, but I did once
It seems like that's all that's changed

Where there once was no fear there is terror, I know
Maybe I needed to be humbled, get jaded
All that I know with certainty is my life is running in circles
And I've won this same battle before

But everything's, everything's changed--
(Nothing has changed)

This deja vu is drowning me
In one hundred thousand dreams
The steps I take, all predictable, nothing's new
And I wonder what it all means...

This deja vu is drowning me
In one hundred thousand dreams
Destructive circles and second chances
Start from the same place sometimes...

This deja vu is drowning me...

-copyright 2004 White Gardenia Music
Words and music by Bree Dunsmore
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